2026-01-26 13:29:27 UTC

gillian on Nostr: inexplicable addition to the environment novel not suffering just like wtf is this ...

inexplicable addition to the environment

novel

not suffering
just like wtf is this sour thing
what do i do with it
i dont know how to work with it
idk if im currently being a pussy, which, would be fine by me, im ok with being a pussy, id just like to know if im being one

im kinda caught in the tension between

- i didnt come to the planet with this

vs

- maybe it is nice to experience a tonal range that other people sometimes seem to as a human thing

vs

- am i dissociating from my feelings by intellectualizing them

vs

- it doesnt matter i am literally the hold out fort redwall abbey style in italy on bitchat and i dont need to be on bitchat to even do that, it's a mindset thing