Artemis on Nostr: I'm not entirely sure what to do with the realization that some things I thought were ...

I'm not entirely sure what to do with the realization that some things I thought were deep-seated anxieties of mine really aren't mine at all, but I think it's going to bring me a lot of freedom to know that.

I don't think I'm naturally afraid of what other people (in general) will think of me. I am very desperate to feel loved by the people who matter to me, which creates a lot of anxieties, but this social fearfulness, this terror of being found out as not being "normal"? Not native to me.