i think this might be a common ND / cPTSD thing..
if it feels like no one is driving the fucking bus and i have enough to get started, my natural impulse is to drive.. which often gets me in over my skis, but also means it gets done.
i think this is the fate of all anarchists.. getting things done with no formal structure, which mostly causes more work as you've found a way to skirt a broken system by making a better sidechannel one - relationships with peers and no power structure
