Diyana on Nostr: True story... The day or two before 7/30, I was feeling this nagging anxiety to check ...

True story...

The day or two before 7/30, I was feeling this nagging anxiety to check whether my tiny stack was still there... (the oracle within activating, I guess). I hadn't checked in a while, and I found myself mentally bracing—imagining staying calm, grounded, and collected in total acceptance if I were to discover it was all gone.

"Fuck it. It is what it is. Just breathe. Life continues. It's not the first time. You're already at zero anyway."

I'd started to #studybitcoin, and it was overwhelming. I was taking it one giant elephant bite at a time.

I'd taken the step to move off exchanges and was researching hardware wallets...

...then life became hell. I entered the worst year of my life, and I've just been doing my best to recover from the shell shock. Still am.

...I never got to the hardware wallet part. I did buy a device—not a Coldcard—but I ultimately chickened out because of the concerns people were raising about it. I even hung out with a cryptographer who had worked on that team and shared my reasoning for not moving to it. He seemed to nod in agreement. I also didn't buy a Coldcard, despite how heavily it was marketed, because of the concerns some folks were expressing.

That was all part of my DYOR.

Now I'm kind of in freeze mode. I really don't know what to do, but I feel like I should do something. I'm just not sure what. Kind of immobilized.