gillian on Nostr: idk if im currently being a pussy, which, would be fine by me, im ok with being a ...

idk if im currently being a pussy, which, would be fine by me, im ok with being a pussy, id just like to know if im being one

im kinda caught in the tension between

- i didnt come to the planet with this

vs

- maybe it is nice to experience a tonal range that other people sometimes seem to as a human thing

vs

- am i dissociating from my feelings by intellectualizing them

vs

- it doesnt matter i am literally the hold out fort redwall abbey style in italy on bitchat and i dont need to be on bitchat to even do that, it's a mindset thing