Nostr notes by Broken Scholar (alittleodd)

god I love how baby powder is like the best scent in the entire ...

2026-07-31T08:18:27+02:00

god I love how baby powder is like the best scent in the entire world :ameownoddies:

Have a bunch of paperwork to do on a Sunday... this annoys me ...

2026-07-12T12:09:13+02:00

Have a bunch of paperwork to do on a Sunday...

this annoys me more than it should

up - went potty, went to bed, went potty again! not quite "I ...

2026-07-10T20:47:41+02:00

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up - went potty, went to bed, went potty again! not quite "I need a change" but adulting to do... was really happy with my tape job!

hit my vape and got padded and oh my fucking god i'm not even ...

2026-07-10T10:31:14+02:00

hit my vape and got padded and oh my fucking god i'm not even soggy but it feels so good :3

been so drowned in sound so often recently i haven't felt ...

2026-06-25T00:41:37+02:00

been so drowned in sound so often recently i haven't felt like drowning my pants :meowopenmouth:

Anyone know of somebody with a goat 'sona? I swear I've ...

2026-06-20T01:07:45+02:00

Anyone know of somebody with a goat 'sona?

I swear I've never ran into one and now I'm concerned 🐐

yup yup yup, same range and the diaper size average cutoff is ...

2026-06-18T04:11:16+02:00

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yup yup yup, same range and the diaper size average cutoff is right around there 🙃

Reminding me I have an unopened bag of size 8 (medium) Try Agains ...

2026-06-17T08:49:07+02:00

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Reminding me I have an unopened bag of size 8 (medium) Try Agains that barely fit me!

If I can ask, happen to know your waist size? I swear I live in this world where medium diapers are just a bit too small and large diapers are usually rather big!

It's a much smaller pool of people, therefore the ratio of ...

2026-06-11T21:02:52+02:00

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It's a much smaller pool of people, therefore the ratio of class disparity is much more apparent vs. whatever the "main" furry fandom is.

Been having a difficult time the past few days in terms of... not ...

2026-06-10T04:13:55+02:00

Been having a difficult time the past few days in terms of... not being able to indulge the stuff that makes me happy normally. At least, not without it feeling very forced. I find myself leaning into more of the parts of myself that read like "going through the motions" while trying to fight against it.

Haven't felt compelled to wear diapers and be little, relegating that to simply masturbation and moving on. Having a hard time committing to playing a new game. Feeling like going for a drive for the sake of it just to be somewhere else.

I think moods like this can spiral for me, I've never personally filed myself under "clinically depressed" and when I operate on these "going through the motions" parameters, it feels like I'm failing myself when maybe I should just allow whatever it is to pass.

never posted this on cubhub! gay rat 2024 vs. gay rat 2026, had ...

2026-06-08T04:40:19+02:00

never posted this on cubhub!

gay rat 2024 vs. gay rat 2026, had to replace the GOAT t-shirt :neorat_hearts:

I might get that reference if I could find the show to refresh my ...

2026-06-06T23:30:03+02:00

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I might get that reference if I could find the show to refresh my memory from 24-25 years ago! :blobfoxbongo:

I was reminded of "Maggie and The Ferocious Beast" a few ...

2026-06-06T21:51:12+02:00

I was reminded of "Maggie and The Ferocious Beast" a few weeks ago and I hardly remember it - but I'm lamenting that it doesn't appear to have a complete DVD set or otherwise available to locally own. Streaming yes, but even P2P grey area places are failing me here!

I don't expect their to be high demand for cartoons for toddlers, but I'd love to have it! (and see if my literal 4-5 year old self actually liked it!) and it's kind of unobtainable. :blobfoxcry:

I don't even see this on my end, and I don't object to ...

2026-06-01T02:05:26+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…dd5r
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I don't even see this on my end, and I don't object to the idea on the surface either - Wikipedia has always been full of articles that link to other articles, subgroups of related topics at the bottom of an article when applicable, and some pages a "further reading" group of articles appended at the end.

I'm not sure I'd use such a feature personally, but I don't think "every" implementation of algorithmic curation should use TikTok as a barometer either.

Those shades fucking rock :blobfoxdealwithitfingerguns:

2026-05-28T20:20:58+02:00

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Those shades fucking rock :blobfoxdealwithitfingerguns:

CDKeys rebranded to Loaded late last year (terrible name imo!) ...

2026-05-28T20:06:54+02:00

CDKeys rebranded to Loaded late last year (terrible name imo!) but they've served me well for maybe 15 years now. I get emails with this title and assume it's from a ABDL mailing list only to go... oh right, those Loaded emails with the funny name.

I can't tell if I'm just diaper brained or normal people find this wording unintentionally humorous.

Buckle up, figuratively and literally :babyhappy: ...

2026-05-26T23:47:56+02:00

Buckle up, figuratively and literally :babyhappy:

They just need to remember their inner kiddo better! ...

2026-05-23T19:54:47+02:00

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They just need to remember their inner kiddo better!

(unironically)

I probably tell people I know too often that, nothing in this ...

2026-05-23T19:49:50+02:00

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I probably tell people I know too often that, nothing in this world is ever perfect. It's literally not possible to go through life on the expectation that idealism will "always" prevail.

I can be idealistic, but I recognize human beings - ALL of them, including you, including me, are not infallible. Everyone is like that all the time. There's so many variables we have no control over anyway... and yet, there's such a large set of the populous that assumes 1. they are perfect 2. other people can be.

It hurts my brain more that instead of using constructive criticism or having a mutual understanding of expectation = not met, it goes straight to hostility more often than not.

Most people are unaware people do things to make the world work. ...

2026-05-23T19:28:40+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…8ncc
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Most people are unaware people do things to make the world work. Most people also have normalized the Internet for a decade or more.

So of course you combine this with "hiding behind a keyboard" and... kind of an aside but there's a reason I have such a hard time using any large social media platform to talk about the stuff I do that isn't CubHub adjacent. 🙃

Nap time for this catbun - paci present but not pictured. ...

2026-05-22T13:28:41+02:00

Nap time for this catbun - paci present but not pictured. :blobcatsleep:

What it is about going to bed in diapers that just feels so, so ...

2026-05-21T21:05:14+02:00

What it is about going to bed in diapers that just feels so, so cozy?

Lack of equity and being uncompromising in your identity in ...

2026-05-20T09:05:09+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…q9xh
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Lack of equity and being uncompromising in your identity in fringe subcultures is a lonely fucking existence.

It's even harder when you excel in areas that live in the realm of subjectivity - ultimately you're not far off in that self assessment of "getting close to what you need" too. I think you already know this but self-sustaining in the art world more broadly is incredibly difficult for an entire lifetime, trying to do so on your own terms even more.

This is all cold comfort, I know, but it's not a suggestion to stop being an artist - but identifying what we do out of passion first and foremost has to be predicated on thanklessness. I can't possibly personally help you wrangle with that, all I can say is your own struggle isn't foreign.

I said I didn't mind the last time Bovine was snoofing my ...

2026-05-15T23:47:22+02:00

I said I didn't mind the last time Bovine was snoofing my diaper, but Bambi seems to be corrupted by his behavior.

I can't say I mind again, but really, both of you guys?!

Got diaper brained by a friend the other night and ended up ...

2026-05-12T22:39:35+02:00

Got diaper brained by a friend the other night and ended up sleeping like this.

Came out too well not to share! :bunhdhappy:

#abdl #littlespace #babyfur

I found a name for this pupper! ...

2026-05-07T10:33:08+02:00

I found a name for this pupper!

I'm eepy and Bovine just casually uses my... "bedtime ...

2026-05-05T09:59:46+02:00

I'm eepy and Bovine just casually uses my... "bedtime pants" as a pillow!

Exactly! The more my Beach Boys rabbit hole keeps going, the more ...

2026-05-04T00:29:25+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…y4kg
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Exactly! The more my Beach Boys rabbit hole keeps going, the more I have to conclude this is one facet of himself that routinely tracks - he seemed connected to his inner kiddo in ways that resonate so deeply. It's one of the less appreciated and (of course!) misunderstood parts of a man unwilling to sacrifice their feelings. His depth of the emotional vulnerability offered is so, so special. 💙

I am not open about being openly babyfur in the larger furry ...

2026-05-01T02:28:07+02:00

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I am not open about being openly babyfur in the larger furry community because I never had any desire to be apart of the larger furry community.

Also being a lifelong little/DL first and coming around the 'sona idea in your late 20s certainly helps with not feeling the need to follow any standard of what "furry" even is.

Arrested development is a very real thing in a society that ...

2026-04-29T02:20:04+02:00

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Arrested development is a very real thing in a society that promotes repressing yourself to a standard. 🙃

This has been me lately. Not quite having to go the emergency ...

2026-04-28T06:43:29+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…egzu
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This has been me lately. Not quite having to go the emergency room but feeling like I need to use a self-imposed gagging order about my own problems, it's either "people don't want to hear you talking like that" or "you talk like that too much, other people have problems too".

I'm very aware pain is relative, but I get the impression the people I do have to confide in live half a world away purely in terms of misunderstanding me as a person. That or, they're still much more repressed than myself and I'm being too vulnerable for anyone to have anything to say.

I'm jealous, both for the Satiator and that CRT. But I also ...

2026-04-25T02:51:51+02:00

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I'm jealous, both for the Satiator and that CRT. But I also take solace I'm not the only Sega Sarurn freak still in diapers. If you ever want a second player to nerd out with, you know where I am!

April is proving to be one of the most turbulent my life has been ...

2026-04-24T04:11:20+02:00

April is proving to be one of the most turbulent my life has been in a long time. Some resurfaced trauma out of my system wasn't fun, but I came out of it with some new context and managed to prevent falling into a sleep deprived spiral, fully aware what was happening again for the second time in my life. A lot of it plays into continuing to indulge my little self long term.

In the short term, there's certainly been trepidation of easing into my little space after all that raw emotion, and by proxy lately it's mostly been taking solace in my plushies, or using a pacifier for bed sans any diapers. It feels like I'm coming back to earth as it were, despite some mood swings that catch me off guard.

My mother is hospitalized (again) as of today - I'm not exactly surprised this happened, and at the end of the day all everyone wants is a resolution to her issues with balance and the inability to walk, seemingly at random. The good news is there's an understanding the causation is unclear on both sides - without detail, her theory never tracked in the realm of logic, and this of course creates strife when you do care about somebody on that level.

I don't know what exactly is having me look at this in summary and framing it like everything is fine - of course it isn't, but there's some part of me that feels like I've reached a point of better personal acceptance, and that even if I'd love to relocate from my family dynamic... it's not something anger or grief to myself will resolve.

The best thing I can do is take solace in what I have in the present, and even if it isn't pretty, I know that little Scholar hasn't gone anywhere - the desire for him to feel emotionally understood, validated, and loved again is still very possible. Not today, and probably not in the short term, but accepting the present and knowing my little self reaffirms my wanting inclusivity, empathy, and love - for me and everyone else. 💙

self edit from the faux periodic table on the reverse cover of ...

2026-04-21T03:34:14+02:00

self edit from the faux periodic table on the reverse cover of the Richard Scarry's Find Your ABC's vinyl I got earlier in the month - these four were separated by two columns, so that's where the patchwork comes from.

I couldn't not when the letter D rocks so much. Artists are great, I love what they do, but you can't say no to Derrick.

#richardscarry #busytown #kidcore

Are you still doing commissions? Your art is so adorable as ...

2026-04-11T21:50:30+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…5duq
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Are you still doing commissions? Your art is so adorable as always and I've been putting off asking for months (priorities and all).

Bovine has had a new friend for over a week now, but I still ...

2026-04-10T22:13:28+02:00

Bovine has had a new friend for over a week now, but I still can't land on a name for this pupper. "Bovine" was already a bit uninspired but I liked it and it stuck. What does CubHub see in him?

(they're both male, and gay, best friends)
(masculine or feminine names are acceptable!)

A little fussy this morning, I didn't think I was that soggy ...

2026-04-10T15:41:15+02:00

A little fussy this morning, I didn't think I was that soggy when I woke up and leaked a bit before changing. :blobcatunamused:

I thought to myself last week - are there any Richard Scarry ...

2026-04-09T23:30:02+02:00

I thought to myself last week - are there any Richard Scarry specific audio releases? The format didn't matter, but I mostly expected vinyl if such a thing existed.

Two, actually! This record is from 1985 and includes a reprinted copy of "Find My ABC's" originally released in 1973 to be read along with the newly recorded narration and music. It hasn't found it's way to my turntable yet, but I plan on cleaning it a bit and digitizing while I'm at it.

I've acquired quite a lot of books, PC edutainment, DVDs... I've definitely rocked my shirt in a handful of pictures posted here, but I don't think I can top this going forward in terms of sheer obscurity and novelty. This arrived today for $8 + shipping, and I'm smitten that the book itself has not been claimed and I get to fill out who it belongs to! :ablobcatenjoy:

#richardscarry #busytown #vinyl #littlespace #FindYourABCs

Pretty sure it's a Saroo cart that's like an AIO ...

2026-04-09T00:54:33+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…elpc
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Pretty sure it's a Saroo cart that's like an AIO questionable optical drive emulator, ram upgrade and memory card

This tiger wants a Satiator for a good reason, I'd love to have one too! My setup is a hardmodded region switch and modchip for CD-R backups.

Don't ask me about the RAM upgrade situation though. My official cart is dead and my Action Replay cart seemingly is also dead now too. 🙃

this is one of my favorite beat 'em ups

2026-04-09T00:50:03+02:00

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this is one of my favorite beat 'em ups

I'm assuming the paper is to raise the SSD to properly screw ...

2026-04-06T13:17:26+02:00

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I'm assuming the paper is to raise the SSD to properly screw in correctly? Or does it make the contacts connect when they otherwise wouldn't?

I've done similar things in the latter scenario for wonky contacts on electronics. No harm with DIY fixes like this when it's your stuff!

I usually end up buying diapers per bag given my income and ...

2026-04-04T12:14:07+02:00

I usually end up buying diapers per bag given my income and amount I wear, but I'm collectively down to maybe 10-15 of a few different cloth and plastic... I was a bit up going into this month and the total for a case of 30 from LNGU worked out to $38-39 per bag, so I did my biggest restock since early 2024. 1x Honey Tales, 1x Baby Ears Baby, 1x Dragoonz (yeah I'm cloth biased and twee biased for the first two sets.)

aside - I can't say I've been reading a ton of CubHub in the past few months, but I swear I never see any cubs here wearing LNGUs stuff. A friend I'll describe as "literally older than me but also only found there little self 2 years ago" recommended them back in January and the one bag I did buy (Honey Tales) made me so smitten! I'd put them absurdly close or as good as TryAgains for cloth diapers that can sog up really well.

Padded and in different baby clothes two nights in a row. ...

2026-04-03T07:10:03+02:00

Padded and in different baby clothes two nights in a row.

It's happening again! :blobcatblush::blobcatblush::blobcatblush:

Overnight diaper from this morning - I've since re-wet it a ...

2026-04-03T02:07:55+02:00

Overnight diaper from this morning - I've since re-wet it a few times after changing since the back had a lot of padding left, but it's proper fully soaked now.

I swear I can never get the "full" capacity of 7500ml diapers unless I want to be stinky, the middle portion gets so swollen before the rear can get soaked... but then again, I think the point of having all that coverage is so regardless of your diaper area nubbins, you're protected in any direction in any position... but I want to fill it up anyway! :meowamused:

I didn't say I was out of diapers... but I'm still a big ...

2026-03-20T08:49:59+01:00

I didn't say I was out of diapers... but I'm still a big boy, right? :blobcatfluffhappy:

I'm basically the same but it's so hard to advertise, you ...

2026-03-06T22:47:52+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…0ecu
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I'm basically the same but it's so hard to advertise, you know? For me I could allow for the romantic end of things, but I'd feel so much better if I just had a BF that I saw 3 or 4 days out of the week while living mostly separate lives.

I'm not sure what the audio equivalent is to "literally ...

2026-03-02T20:45:35+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…kj9n
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I'm not sure what the audio equivalent is to "literally just about everything" but it's a problem I face whenever I get asked this question in any context by anyone irl.

You either keep the answer short and broad, but most interpret that as a cop out. Trying to add verbosity then makes me a snob... or the other person is a music nerd or record collector and you make a new friend. 🙃

It's also tied into the cutoff of "did you ever need to ...

2026-03-02T00:36:38+01:00

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It's also tied into the cutoff of "did you ever need to troubleshoot a computer problem on your own and fix the problem/learn something?"

This is a big one to me, like if you're of a certain age and have used a computer for any length of time, you eventually intuitively learn a lot of hows and whys, like... deleting dll files are bad, porn sites might give you viruses, you can't in fact download RAM - there's tons of technical and non technical examples, but there's something to be said about that period around 1995-2010 where using a computer for fun or productivity inherently required some critical thinking that is completely removed from the end user as much as it can be now.

If you somehow only used MacOS that entire time, this probably applies in certain jank areas I can't relate to hopefully.

Good news - nothing abnormal for someone so drowned in sound, ...

2026-02-21T00:09:08+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…lens
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Good news - nothing abnormal for someone so drowned in sound, hearing is good. Learned a handful of things regarding tinnitus hygiene though, I knew certain cannabis strains could exacerbate it but not alcohol and most importantly for my interests, caffeine. Also got some advice on over-the-ear headphones and why my right ear seems biased towards being worse.

Bad news - co-pays! but at least arguably my favorite thing ever (music) isn't not threatened.

Those are appropriate! But not quite, I was inferring ...

2026-02-21T00:02:57+01:00

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Those are appropriate! But not quite, I was inferring "kindergarten pants" = diapers for those littles like me who identify closer to 4 or 5 affectionately. 😊

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2026-02-20T00:34:42+01:00

kindergarten pants

Going to see an audiologist on Friday, happy but also a bit ...

2026-02-16T15:01:31+01:00

Going to see an audiologist on Friday, happy but also a bit nervous if the news is bad. I've slowly had it go from something I could tune out to genuinely being unpleasant sometime last year. For reference I turn 30 this year and my doctor agreed it's a bit strange to develop symptoms of it so young.

Got a new plushie yesterday. Treated myself to this amazing cow, ...

2026-02-14T09:51:02+01:00

Got a new plushie yesterday. Treated myself to this amazing cow, 5lbs and super adorable, I love him already! Such a chonker! :meowheart:

I haven't been in a proper diaper in weeks, and the mood ...

2026-02-08T05:22:35+01:00

I haven't been in a proper diaper in weeks, and the mood struck me this morning out of nowhere... most of the sog was in the front and felt so good. :blobfoxblushmore:

biggest motivation for my first job - so I can buy diapers and ...

2026-02-03T05:30:52+01:00

biggest motivation for my first job - so I can buy diapers and other ABDL stuff

biggest motivation for moving this year - so I have no roommate and can wear diapers and other ABDL stuff all the time

okay, maybe not the BIGGEST motivation but sometimes it feels that way :flushedbaby:

Is it me or does Escape From Ever After have some of the most ...

2026-01-29T04:11:41+01:00

Is it me or does Escape From Ever After have some of the most adorable art I've seen in a video game since Lil Gator Game?

No clue if the game is any good though, but very intrigued regardless. Devs make their own comparison to the older Paper Mario games.

Don't think I've been diapered in a week (!) Sometimes ...

2026-01-25T19:28:29+01:00

Don't think I've been diapered in a week (!)

Sometimes it's just the mood but I swear it makes me second guess if I'm baby if I don't get padded often enough.

"nom" That's damn good!

2026-01-21T03:23:05+01:00

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"nom" *That's damn good!*

Yeah, I completely know what that feels like - and you're ...

2026-01-20T04:26:22+01:00

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Yeah, I completely know what that feels like - and you're allowed to "fail" - for small things I have it slip unconsciously at times still. It can feel impossible to reject it, but if you can stop and feel out the situation - like, intelligently talk yourself down in the moment and seeing if you can let it pass.

I won't push too hard here, since even I'm making myself a bit anxious facing right at it like this. Best wishes.

Lived with debilitating OCD for roughly 11 years of my life, ...

2026-01-20T00:24:19+01:00

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Lived with debilitating OCD for roughly 11 years of my life, started getting really bad around the time I turned 15, left high school because of it however I'll spare the details - I don't fully believe I've figured out how all of it manifests, but after having a breakdown from cannabis use disorder and the falling out with my former best friend because I knew it wasn't helping me after a year of indulging heavily when I was 25-26.

I fell into a sleep deprived state where my symptoms were almost entirely dead - the amount of things I was able to do that would cripple me with fear before was like someone flipped a switch, but I didn't know exactly where it came from. While mentally and physically self rehabilitating from all of that, I was picking apart the "why" of it while I had the ability to not be so mentally crippled from it, and I arrived that a big part of it was a life-long irrational fear of paranormal things. The negative things that would occur for me were all based in scenarios that are not possible. Coming right after I basically spilled some of my deepest shit to my mother I had long buried, very possibly correlates to PTSD that I never registered as being that traumatic along with never addressing a very real fear of anything paranormal.

It still manifests, just not nearly as bad as it did for a long period of my life. The thing which really helped me sustain that accidental "second chance" was an article regarding how not to cope with it - OCD is an anxiety disorder based out of fear, and the more you validate that fear, the more it will manifest and control your decision making. I was completely lost by the time I actually admitted I had a problem to my mother, so the thought of saying "fuck you no" was almost impossible. That reset I got was like, having all those years of living with it but now with so much more knowledge on how to cope with it.

I seriously do give you the best wishes for overcoming those fears - I'm not sure how bad it is for you right now, but know that the more you persist and tell that parasite to fuck off, the less it will bother you at all. :blobcathugyou:

Managed a haircut this week and went clean shaven, which makes me ...

2026-01-18T01:33:30+01:00

Managed a haircut this week and went clean shaven, which makes me look so :flushedbaby:baby I nearly didn't include it here... but also, I'm baby!

Again as is "been there before in my adult life and it was ...

2026-01-14T17:45:52+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…48ck
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Again as is "been there before in my adult life and it was cozy" or "been there before a long time ago and it was cozy"?

I only ask because, never having the opportunity as an ABDL, I can't decide if it's something I'd want in isolation or only something I'd want in a scenario with a CG or other little. Might be partially based on my current living situation too, though.

up - no leaks last night! very thick with the premium overnights, ...

2026-01-14T17:33:58+01:00

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up - no leaks last night! very thick with the premium overnights, felt very baby. :flushedbaby:

You ever spend upwards of half an hour trimming a diaper to be a ...

2026-01-14T03:19:52+01:00

You ever spend upwards of half an hour trimming a diaper to be a stuffer?

I unfortunately got a bit too greedy and cut a portion of the actual SAP near the end, but not horribly so... I'm hoping I don't regret my decision of using this as a stuffer tonight! 🙃

Oh and, huge apologies to Pooh, I'd adore this print on diapers that fit me! Huggies Overnights size 7, these sog up really good.

Either you're more little than you figured, or we're all ...

2026-01-13T22:48:34+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…5gs5
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Either you're more little than you figured, or we're all still "babies" with a little age of 5 or under.

I claim to be like, 3-5 but really, you are still just a baby, aren't you?

literally me, this month I'm trying to pick a set of ABDL ...

2026-01-13T00:11:24+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…whcy
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literally me, this month I'm trying to pick a set of ABDL pajamas (one or two piece) so I have more than one 🙃

bah, I need to know where you get some of your little clothes!

2026-01-12T22:43:08+01:00

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bah, I need to know where you get some of your little clothes!

lovely little space you've got there 💜

2026-01-12T22:27:42+01:00

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lovely little space you've got there 💜

I often define mine as 4-5, but it probably does fall closer 3-4 ...

2026-01-10T23:49:06+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…cdak
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I often define mine as 4-5, but it probably does fall closer 3-4 with the same caveat that I get a bit more small with enough positive reinforcement!

lmao :blobcatlaugh:

2025-12-25T10:00:19+01:00

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lmao :blobcatlaugh:

The people who can do it standing know some arcane magic I ...

2025-12-22T04:12:00+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…enpm
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The people who can do it standing know some arcane magic I don't.

Think I'm back "home" so to speak - something ...

2025-12-03T05:25:05+01:00

Think I'm back "home" so to speak - something I've noticed when I feel like I should disconnect from my ABDL side for an unknown period of time is eventually I come back to earth, but if I wait too long to re-engage that just makes me drift into some combination of self-doubt/is this just a sex thing?/imposter syndrome if I don't surround myself with all of the parts that make me happy in the first place.

Broke my brain last night ruminating about my ex, conflating ...

2025-11-22T05:50:25+01:00

Broke my brain last night ruminating about my ex, conflating things I shouldn't be... don't think it's catastrophic levels of PTSD land but if I'm inactive here that's probably why. Love all you cubs, as always!

One thing I miss about daily drinking - I could fill my pamps so ...

2025-11-12T03:27:39+01:00

One thing I miss about daily drinking - I could fill my pamps so much faster...

Fascinating insight, honestly. A lot of the activities for ...

2025-11-04T21:37:36+01:00

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Fascinating insight, honestly. A lot of the activities for "older kids" I (personally) see as more age agnostic hobbies, but I can understand it from the lens of association with that (literal or otherwise) particular age range. The high-school related fantasy and getting high lens itself a sense of capturing certain formative experiences - are these hobbies things you strongly associate with your little age, or do they just go together well with everything surrounding it?

And, if I can ask, were diapers even a thought in your mind as a literal 16 year old or did you come around to that later in life?

Any pointers on how to achieve such lofty ambitions? I'm very ...

2025-11-04T21:10:50+01:00

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Any pointers on how to achieve such lofty ambitions? I'm very much willing to earn them given a sense of direction! :ameownoddies:

Dry diapers right before bed, or "if it's not leaking ...

2025-11-04T20:58:21+01:00

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Dry diapers right before bed, or "if it's not leaking I'm not changing" before bed?

Per your profile, your "middle age is like other's little ...

2025-11-04T20:54:59+01:00

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Per your profile, your "middle age is like other's little ages" - I'm curious if this is a reflection of dress, behavior, adjacent interests or something with more nuance than I can gather from that?

Do you accept applicants for diapercritters though?

2025-10-27T12:36:24+01:00

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Do you accept applicants for diapercritters though?

I'd love to be able to download that into someone's brain ...

2025-10-26T22:42:29+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…7p0u
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I'd love to be able to download that into someone's brain so I could actually have certain people I love understand "it's more than a kink" and something inherently important to me emotionally.

Then again, this was basically how furries more generally (and to a large portion of the population still are) are looked at, too, along with basically anything involving alternative lifestyles/identities.

I never had this happen IRL, but had an artist I knew in the same ...

2025-10-26T00:34:54+02:00

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I never had this happen IRL, but had an artist I knew in the same circle advertise commissions - I asked if they would be open to SFW babyfur art.

They said no, they don't, and before I could say "thanks anyway!" they blocked me. It's such a small incident, I didn't exactly know the person beyond their art, but that got under my skin proper for weeks. It felt like I had basically made somebody write me off entirely as a person for simply asking a question that wasn't outlined as something you wouldn't draw.

Honestly if this was me on the receiving end I'd just be fucking devasted, I'm almost positive I have RSD and I absolutely loathe when I'm unable to meet someone on mutual or good terms. Rejection for a reason I'm aware of, fine, but rejection where I'm left asking "what did I do wrong?" destroys me.

goodness knows I'm feeling isolated lately - I concur that my ...

2025-10-07T15:14:20+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…w8hs
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goodness knows I'm feeling isolated lately - I concur that my late night (as in, very early morning the next day sort) thoughts can absolutely have me ruminate into self loathing. Pulling for you cub! :blobcathugyou:

I love seeing those gloves in the context of big, thick diapers. ...

2025-09-26T17:19:54+02:00

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I love seeing those gloves in the context of big, thick diapers.

It must of felt good, right?

Yeah, that's unfortunately the point I was getting at - ...

2025-09-24T13:34:18+02:00

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Yeah, that's unfortunately the point I was getting at - though, in the context of furry art, I've observed both in my non-furry years and my more recent "I too have a fursona" years (christ it's only been two years) that folks can get so, so nuanced and detailed.

I was thinking about this from the IRL angle in my original reply, but in that context, I feel like it's MUCH easier to really define an aesthetic. Frankly it's the biggest appeal of the "fursona" for me - the beauty of visual art is how close we can achieve and approximate idealistic ideas, sometimes ones that are much harder or impossible to illustrate easily with our literal bodies.

I hope you have fun with it! Red Viper on my New 3DS is all I ...

2025-09-23T09:28:54+02:00

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I hope you have fun with it!

Red Viper on my New 3DS is all I need, it's a better showpiece of the 3D on the hardware than most native games on it.

I'm fairly certain my fascination in being a toddler (which ...

2025-09-06T00:43:29+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…hdeu
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I'm fairly certain my fascination in being a toddler (which makes me a baby) has something to do with ASD. I'm almost certain my very early interests in diapers and "things made for kids slightly younger than myself" as a literal 5 year old was my first "special interest".

I know this is a bit of heavier reply to a cute post but it made me think about the weird relationship between my earliest special interests being both incredibly twee and incredibly complex (technology, computers) at the same time concurrently. I was horribly embarrassed to outwardly express tweeness though, to the point where I was effectively repressing a lot of feelings that would make me seem less... smart, intelligent, mature for positive reinforcement.

I dunno, I think I've always been a pastel dreamer that was too concerned about being a big kid in a grey world 😦

I'm aware I haven't been active recently - some mental ...

2025-08-06T15:10:44+02:00

I'm aware I haven't been active recently - some mental health weirdness making me not want to indulge or interact with my little space.

Hope to come back to normal sooner or later, love all you cubs :blobcatheart:

Did I ever mention the time a bit over a decade ago when I bought ...

2025-07-24T04:22:24+02:00

Did I ever mention the time a bit over a decade ago when I bought a bag of Molicare diapers from XPMedical but they accidentally sent me a case?

18 year old self took that one as a freebie. Had about 80 or so diapers all at once in my tiny bedroom with the addition of 40 that day. I'm not sure I've had that many on hand since!

I admit you somehow managed to capture my IRL visage really well ...

2025-07-17T23:01:37+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…8ts9
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I admit you somehow managed to capture my IRL visage really well in your commission for me, it's even more evident with era appropriate photographs of myself (4-5 year old me) despite never using any actual references of my face for my "big" fursona.

Which is to say, I really love how it just worked out like that. I see myself in the facial details heavily, so thanks again for that!

I blame the admin for encouraging me to post this ...

2025-07-17T20:59:25+02:00

I blame the admin for encouraging me to post this :blobcatblush:

It's stuff like this that reminds me how sometimes, people ...

2025-07-14T01:15:45+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…lfcu
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It's stuff like this that reminds me how sometimes, people can quite literally make your dreams come true.

That might sound a bit hyperbolic but seriously, just knowing this person exists and offers something so relatively niche... I'm happy for you and for them!

Humidity is balls but at least it isn't hot. Diaper, onesie, ...

2025-06-26T17:49:05+02:00

Humidity is balls but at least it isn't hot.

Diaper, onesie, and a bit of cannabis seltzer for this rainy day. It's been like 5 days and that's now become way too long. :blobfoxfloofhappy:

Oh my god this is just adorable. Lovely commission!

2025-06-23T17:59:29+02:00

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Oh my god this is just adorable. Lovely commission!

I think I'm convinced at this point my favorite ABDL diaper ...

2025-05-07T04:51:35+02:00

I think I'm convinced at this point my favorite ABDL diaper is Super Dry Kids

They don't sog up as much as their other offerings, but my god I've always loved the landing print, the two tapes just work like I expect them to (and feel more appropriate) and the baby blue accenting on the sides and leg gatherings is simple but gives it a bit of character, perfect for little boy cat-rabbits like me :ameownoddies:

I just tore a tape off one of my Little Kings trying to adjust ...

2025-04-30T23:06:15+02:00

I just tore a tape off one of my Little Kings trying to adjust and now I hardly feel like being little at all.

I swear that I'm straight up incapable of properly diapering myself despite how functionally simple the idea is. Sitting, standing, whatever - I can have the fit seem perfect and then the other side is obviously offset, and usually I can get "close enough" but it reminds me of how I could easily read an analog clock as a 7 year old but was unable to tie a knot until I was 17 before I knew I was on the spectrum. Simple ideas being stupidly difficult or impossible even with written and visual examples.

Put a pair of Pawpers on just now :flushedbaby: ...

2025-04-22T03:11:20+02:00

Put a pair of Pawpers on just now :flushedbaby:

Yesterday I came back to my laundry maybe 10 minutes after the ...

2025-04-14T21:49:38+02:00

Yesterday I came back to my laundry maybe 10 minutes after the wash finished in my building and an old woman apparently wasn't very patient and threw my clothes on the adjacent dryers.

Jokes on them, while I was annoyed about this, if they didn't know some men in their late 20s wear printed onesies they do now!

I had something similar happen years ago here where I was a bit of a jerk and had my clothes idle for about 3 hours, and that left me mortified, but these days... meh it's more fun to frame it like this and hope they regretted being impatient :meowdab:

That's one stubborn 5 year old if they need that much ...

2025-04-10T04:31:31+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…8l6u
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That's one stubborn 5 year old if they need that much padding!

Yup! Or when you're all dressed up in general ...

2025-04-08T00:59:04+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…6hqs
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Yup! Or when you're all dressed up in general :blobfoxsignbigfan:

You ever put a diaper on, sit down, look at yourself and start to ...

2025-04-07T20:20:03+02:00

You ever put a diaper on, sit down, look at yourself and start to whimper a little bit because you feel so small? :flushedbaby: