Nostr notes by alina🐾💖✨🏳️‍⚧️

i do not approve of the ableist rhetoric around intelligence ...

2026-08-01T08:34:11+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…p62v
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i do not approve of the ableist rhetoric around intelligence quotients but i fully support this message on a technical level

QML widgets are awesome! i love writing desktop widgets for ...

2026-07-27T21:11:39+02:00

QML widgets are awesome! i love writing desktop widgets for controlling my system as simple shell scripts triggered by a themed button

the animated space rays in the background are my cpu usage stats graphed over time hihi

this is why i'll probably stick with swayfx forever, because i already extend it so much with all sorts of desktop integrations that i really dont need a desktop environment, i rather just write a custom one for myself!

my employer sent me sandals and socks for my birthday 😵‍💫 ...

2026-07-25T18:18:36+02:00

my employer sent me sandals and socks for my birthday 😵‍💫 aaa this is the most German thing ever

is there any screenshot tool for wayland that doesn't break ...

2026-07-23T05:26:45+02:00

is there any screenshot tool for wayland that doesn't break for ultra wide screens

here's a list of those that do
- flameshot
- gscreenshot
- grimshot
- hyprblast (though i dont use hyprland)
- maim
- asciinema

i once set my terminal's line buffer to 10k and that was ...

2026-07-23T05:21:27+02:00

i once set my terminal's line buffer to 10k and that was apparently not enough, because i did a bit of codegen crimes and now have to handle a type that is... 15 thousand lines long. just the type signature. what the fuck

chat will i break things if i put the base domain and the ...

2026-07-09T15:12:18+02:00

chat will i break things if i put the base domain and the wildcard subdomain onto the same acme cert?

chat how many tabs do you have open rn i just hit 1000 again ...

2026-07-08T17:29:20+02:00

chat how many tabs do you have open rn

i just hit 1000 again

found this screenshot in an old lost archive and. yeah, ...

2026-06-30T18:04:18+02:00

found this screenshot in an old lost archive and. yeah,

1 VOTE FOR NO

2026-06-26T01:25:43+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…5gdj
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1 VOTE FOR NO

god damnit

2026-06-26T01:16:19+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…9vs8
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god damnit

recently more and more allegations are hitting me that some ...

2026-06-26T00:56:35+02:00

recently more and more allegations are hitting me that some people think i'm cute, so i'm here to solve this once and for all - vox populi vox dei

do you think i'm cute

you wouldn't order an anti-aircraft artillery sensor LIDAR ...

2026-06-23T00:27:23+02:00

you wouldn't order an anti-aircraft artillery sensor LIDAR for 86.392,39€ from aliexpress

https://de.aliexpress.com/item/1005010259650575.html

i will commit hate crimes against docker die die die stupid piece ...

2026-06-22T17:27:58+02:00

i will commit hate crimes against docker

die die die stupid piece of shit just fucking die

sigh.., i love Berlin on evenings like these ...

2026-06-21T13:20:00+02:00

*sigh*.., i love Berlin on evenings like these

i've got a halo, can you see it? ...

2026-06-20T14:50:37+02:00

i've got a halo, can you see it?

once again i am yearning for a girl to command me to get on my ...

2026-06-10T14:26:45+02:00

once again i am yearning for a girl to command me to get on my knees, push my face into her crotch and force her dick down my throat,,, ><

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2026-06-09T09:45:44+02:00

meowning :3

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2026-06-01T19:46:18+02:00

#gang

i have 50€ per month to spend on useless online shops as part ...

2026-05-30T12:59:35+02:00

i have 50€ per month to spend on useless online shops as part of some employee benefits program so i went with the most expensive netflix subscription which they advertise with 4K HDR video and no ads, since everything else that i could spend the money for is even worse. turns out they still degrade the resolution to 720p on all linux-based DRM backends which ruins any experience of watching a show on an OLED HDR UWQHD monitor. immediately cancelled it, biggest waste of money ever. i hate misleading advertising, how is that even legal

you know her technical rant is getting real when she's ...

2026-05-18T16:07:38+02:00

you know her technical rant is getting real when she's ADHDing three bullet-point indentation layers deep

good morning, here we go again! D: ...

2026-05-15T10:01:06+02:00

good morning, here we go again! D:

https://github.com/0xdeadbeefnetwork/ssh-keysign-pwn

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2026-05-05T15:50:19+02:00

let's go to hell, i hear that shit's pretty

my laptop's spinning fan noises, and by extension linus ...

2026-05-05T02:23:53+02:00

my laptop's spinning fan noises, and by extension linus torvalds and his stupid 7.0.2 release, are at fault that i cant fall asleep. it has been compiling for 2 hours again, the ccache still seems to fail me and my sleep

FUCK

2026-05-01T01:21:41+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…6j3k
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FUCK

craving chocolate but it's 1am so all stores are probably ...

2026-05-01T01:18:45+02:00

craving chocolate but it's 1am so all stores are probably closed q.q

wait no right i live in a metropolis of 4.5 million people and the next 24/7 Rewe is like a few hundred meters away...

time to embark on a super important mission!!

also "what stops those repeaters from tracking you?" the ...

2026-04-29T19:36:25+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…cusv
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also "what stops those repeaters from tracking you?" the fact that they wouldn't be able to distinguish a sender from a repeater, as it is in reticulum, where there is no concept of source address, only people's public keys

(i have to admit i would be much better at reciting the relevant literature had i slept last night)

internet infrastructure should be publicly accessible, no one ...

2026-04-29T19:31:07+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…kdp3
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internet infrastructure should be publicly accessible, no one needs billing or access control except for those seeking to profit off of what should be a human right

in this scenario the network provider would just have to provide ...

2026-04-29T19:26:01+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…z6kj
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in this scenario the network provider would just have to provide internet-connecter repeaters compared to a massive routing backbone, which is already the case for amateur radio, it would just have to be adopted for LTE roaming

by running an off grid mesh like meshtastic or much better ...

2026-04-29T19:15:17+02:00

In reply to nevent1q…8drx
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by running an off grid mesh like meshtastic or much better reticulum as a transport layer and any anonymizing layer like onion-routing (tor) or garlic-routing (i2p) on top of that

irdest would probably also work as transport layer

i think we should either - force cellular data network providers ...

2026-04-29T19:03:27+02:00

i think we should either
- force cellular data network providers to anonymize all traffic in a layered encrypted multi-hop mesh
or
- abolish mobile phones altogether

i hate living in a society that expects me to carry a precise gps tracking device in my pocket 24/7 in order to interact with basic public infrastructure

i love how switching from networkmanager to systemd-networkd has ...

2026-04-14T00:55:35+02:00

i love how switching from networkmanager to systemd-networkd has increased my bootup time from a few seconds to two fucking minutes

recommend me anime movies pls - the ones that build up a romantic ...

2026-04-10T23:34:34+02:00

recommend me anime movies pls - the ones that build up a romantic relationship and then hit you like a truck and make you cry, like Kimi no Na Wa, Weathering with You, Castle in the Sky, Suzume etc

hi fedi i heard you like boobs and tummy and possibly even thighs ...

2026-04-07T01:44:26+02:00

hi fedi i heard you like boobs and tummy and possibly even thighs

YESSS i've been yearning for this for years ...

2026-04-02T22:37:10+02:00

YESSS i've been yearning for this for years

https://www.phoronix.com/news/Linux-IPv6-IPv4-Legacy-Knobs

systemd-dectd when ...

2026-03-05T20:15:35+01:00

systemd-dectd when

oh and this one turned out great as well imo. i love this body, ...

2026-03-04T07:48:05+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…lj98
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oh and this one turned out great as well imo. i love this body, this odd and unique creation of mine.

henlo i'd like you to appreciate my boobs for a moment, i ...

2026-03-04T07:45:43+01:00

henlo i'd like you to appreciate my boobs for a moment, i think they're pretty. ok that's it thanks for coming we're done here

if you're a player of the game "dead cells" you may ...

2026-02-18T13:33:51+01:00

if you're a player of the game "dead cells" you may now open it to see the name of yours truly on the global leader board ;3 (again) #deadcells

also lol at the "We recommend playing Dead Cells with a controller!" , i've been playing keyboard only for the past 600 hours

chat i may have accidentally recreated object oriented interface ...

2026-02-17T21:27:01+01:00

chat i may have accidentally recreated object oriented interface factory consumer hell in Nix, my favorite functional programming language

i used to have an RSS feed of lobste.rs on my homescreen but like ...

2026-02-17T20:32:02+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…9laq
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i used to have an RSS feed of lobste.rs on my homescreen but like every second article is about or by AI nowadays, it kinda ruined the whole spirit of it for me

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2026-02-17T05:48:01+01:00

pulling a torrent with gigabit speed rn. cumming

finds a shady ass cloud provider "ok but it cant be that ...

2026-02-12T02:45:19+01:00

*finds a shady ass cloud provider*
"ok but it cant be that bad right"

>kptr_restrict=0
>ptrace_scope=0
>can load kernel modules
>no module signature enforcement
>everything is a python3 script
>seccomp disabled
>/dev/shm
>/bin/docker
>/home1..40, 40 dirs under the FS root that are all mounted ext4 each containing a sqlite DB with logs about the every single user
>kernel lockdown mode = none
>lets me modify $PATH and scp static binaries into the container
>400+ open tmux sessions
>setuid binaries in /config

mfw

sleep deprivation starts being real fun once it feels like ...

2026-02-10T08:44:53+01:00

sleep deprivation starts being real fun once it feels like you're teleporting through the metro system with no real clue what's going on but arriving at your destination anyway (after taking the wrong train line maybe 2 or 3 times)

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2026-02-09T01:58:12+01:00

alias sudo = ssh root@::1

i've spent the last 4 hours reproducing the kernel panic that ...

2026-02-03T03:26:17+01:00

i've spent the last 4 hours reproducing the kernel panic that i'm getting in my initramfs by manually executing every step from within busybox while documenting changes to the system state. someone send help

how on earth do they load a cloudflare challenge into the ...

2026-01-29T22:14:50+01:00

how on earth do they load a cloudflare challenge into the javascript renderer of a PDF. i hate the modern internet, just give me static information ffs

and then there is dark reader [fig2] claiming i am currently on a PDF and thus cannot modify the page to being more accessible for me and my bad eyes. meanwhile it displays a cloudflare challenge that invades my privacy and blocks me due to my spoofed user agent

fuck every single whitepaper publication portal that hides behind ...

2026-01-28T22:09:55+01:00

fuck every single whitepaper publication portal that hides behind cloudflare, sciencedirect.com specifically

i have experienced this effect so many times that maybe i should ...

2026-01-25T23:52:51+01:00

i have experienced this effect so many times that maybe i should find a name for it, how about spagheTTYfication

many years ago, my nazi father told me to go learn C++ as my ...

2026-01-25T22:14:31+01:00

many years ago, my nazi father told me to go learn C++ as my first programming language if i ever want to be a big boy and make money.
a few years later, my conservative gamer uncle told me to learn Visual Basic if i ever want to be a big boy and make money.
a week after that, my gay hippie cousin (not the autistic gradle core dev who i never really got to talk to) told me to learn python if i want to actually learn something.
1.5 years after the third incident, i fell in love with a girl over twitter when i was 16 and she ended up teaching me programming because we found out through me accidentally doxxing her that we only lived 10km apart in the middle of fucknowhere of lower bavaria. she started with x86 assembly, went over to the foundations of C, then we installed arch linux on my laptop together and then she let me do my own shit. and i will be forever grateful to her.
the first language that i actually mastered after that was Nix, because it revolutionized most of what i did until then.

just one more `git add -A; git commit --amend --no-edit; git push ...

2026-01-21T23:57:28+01:00

just one more `git add -A; git commit --amend --no-edit; git push --force-with-lease` and it's gonna compile & deploy i swear

erm actually it's not called Linux. it's not called ...

2026-01-18T18:16:09+01:00

erm actually it's not called Linux. it's not called gnu+linux either. it's called Freax

not sure i've ever been this disappointed in someone ...

2026-01-18T02:30:08+01:00

not sure i've ever been this disappointed in someone

lmfao i just wrote a PoC for grabbing someone's ssh public ...

2026-01-05T03:09:55+01:00

lmfao i just wrote a PoC for grabbing someone's ssh public key by establishing a connection from a browser session and using it to create an account/passwordless authentication for my service

works with any distro/terminal that registers an xdg-mime type for ssh:// urls, and my modified sshd turning ED25519 SHA256 fingerprints into a half assed DHKX with salt

from there on i can route all connections via i2p first and only then to my service's host so i dont have to care about user data because it's anonymized (besides the side channel attack that you can see who is currently using the anonymizing service...)

i am in intense pain for the simple fact that i chose to face ...

2026-01-03T04:47:43+01:00

i am in intense pain for the simple fact that i chose to face bureaucracy despite the builtup existential dread and learned helplessness

i have yet to find an incentive to use it as someone who owns her ...

2026-01-02T05:18:43+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…0h9h
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i have yet to find an incentive to use it as someone who owns her entire stack, and i dont usually listen to a large displeased crowd, so a point of entry or "what flatpak can do for you" page would be good

new pfp ...

2025-12-30T12:15:49+01:00

new pfp

how the fuck does one write a good README.md does anyone know ...

2025-12-27T22:21:34+01:00

how the fuck does one write a good README.md

does anyone know projects with excellent practices in that regard?

specifically, i want to describe what is going on in my 10k LoC nixos flake that i use as an entrypoint to deploy all my servers and import my other projects. assume i have no clue about documentation practices whatsoever.

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2025-12-25T22:17:27+01:00

how long is now?

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2025-12-25T20:56:43+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…cps9
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sometimes i just say things

2025-12-25T20:52:39+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…swsd
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sometimes i just say things

alina what

2025-12-25T20:52:26+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…0z6d
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alina what

i'm starting to see 'emotional maturity' more as a ...

2025-12-25T20:48:02+01:00

i'm starting to see 'emotional maturity' more as a reservoir than a skill. of course in theory i would be able to figure out what's the right thing to do, i went through all stages for years and years, so does everyone else i deal with. the question is often more, does your environment allow you for the necessary energy to turn crystalline intelligence into fluid? to have faith and endure what is to come for the knowledge that patience and kindness will be fruitful? to apply gathered experience despite certain parties in social exchange benefiting from your uncertainties?

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2025-12-22T17:19:25+01:00

i like trains

alina at checkpoint charlie what she gonna do what she gonna do ...

2025-12-22T09:10:13+01:00

alina at checkpoint charlie
what she gonna do
what she gonna do

(jobcenter, the third commandment)

hopefully i'll get my Bürgergeld that i've been waiting for since September this time

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2025-12-18T10:41:01+01:00

awawawawaa tummy hort

the amount of followers i have grows scarier day by day, i fear ...

2025-12-17T23:44:47+01:00

the amount of followers i have grows scarier day by day, i fear there will be a point where i might not be responsible enough and fuck up with this much responsibility that i didnt ask for

obviously i'll try my best to not let that happen and just generally act on here as i would irl, but that's not a guarantee it wont happen which worries me

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2025-12-17T03:09:45+01:00

heck i:mmcm mcmifiht i might be in love

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2025-12-16T01:58:39+01:00

puppygirls will literally write a memory allocator

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2025-12-07T18:05:27+01:00

girl.

paywalls are antithetical to learning

2025-11-20T02:17:39+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…4qhy
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paywalls are antithetical to learning

huh why? :p

2025-11-19T23:51:50+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…eq75
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huh why? :p

IT'S CALLED A FOG MACHINE AND NOT A SMOKE MACHINE SINCE WHEN ...

2025-11-19T23:47:56+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…xm4p
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IT'S CALLED A FOG MACHINE AND NOT A SMOKE MACHINE

SINCE WHEN DOES GLYCERIN TRIGGER SMOKE DETECTORS LMFAO

guess who mixed some distilled water and glycerin in a 2:1 ratio ...

2025-11-19T23:10:25+01:00

guess who mixed some distilled water and glycerin in a 2:1 ratio and poured it into a 800W DIY fog machine

yes, you can just build a fog machine and put on techno instead of uhh whatever normal people do (she does not know what normal people do with their spare time)

i do not know you, i have never met you, and thus i'm not ...

2025-11-19T18:18:20+01:00

In reply to nevent1q…n4kd
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i do not know you, i have never met you, and thus i'm not interested in you

hourly neuron activation by my Nucleus Accumbens and Prefrontal ...

2025-11-19T18:14:43+01:00

hourly neuron activation by my Nucleus Accumbens and Prefrontal Cortex to remind me how much i crave and desire being owned and collared and used by a strong dominant woman

chanting sigils to the epoxy resin get hard get hard get hard ...

2025-11-19T17:28:47+01:00

*chanting sigils to the epoxy resin*
get hard get hard get hard get hard get hard

dominant alina arc?? ...

2025-11-19T17:27:44+01:00

dominant alina arc??

woof >< wanna get grabbed by my hips and used,, ...

2025-11-19T17:19:21+01:00

woof ><

wanna get grabbed by my hips and used,,

you can just violate the boundaries of any corporate enterprise ...

2025-11-14T17:36:02+01:00

you can just violate the boundaries of any corporate enterprise conglomerate if you don't respect them, companies aren't people even if they're made of them, most places wont give a shit if you dont belong there or take something as long as you look like you are allowed to and have a drive, which most people sadly dont

luckily you can go into bpd manic hyperconfidence mode and such bypass most access control problems by just ignoring the rules as long as you dont get caught because then safekeepers and rulers are obliged to intervene, otherwise you're lowering the moral and are an example to other people that you dont need to abide to tyranny

dont generalize this onto real people, be nice to them instead, make friends with them

alina in 4 frames summarized ...

2025-11-13T19:38:39+01:00

alina in 4 frames summarized

hiya, i'm alina! your favorite network- and systems engineer ...

2025-11-12T16:02:57+01:00

hiya, i'm alina! your favorite network- and systems engineer with weapons-grade autism by day, and sapphic deranged trans puppygirl hacker airhead absurdist psychonaut biochemist at night

starting december i need to have found a new home because i had to cancel my current temporary housing solution due to unemployment, it cost me 2400/EUR per month because my old employer's relocation provider scammed me and i had to find something 2 weeks before starting to work in Berlin

now i have founded my own business as a freelancing network engineer and FOSS developer, and i have 5 clients which (will) pay sooner or later (once the German Finanzamt has finally assigend me a VAT number) - but that's kinda unstable due to my mental health being equally unstable due to all the existential dread

it would help me a lot if anyone could help me find a place to live for maybe 1 or 2 months until i have found my own apartment

or alternatively donate to my liberapay so i can do more stuff myself, right now i am several hundreds of euros in debt https://liberapay.com/alina

i am currently under a lot of stress which is why things all take their while, but soon-ish i will also launch my patreon where i will sell my works and services of which i am convinced are worth paying for... maybe i should be a little less perfectionist about all of this and just finish that damn blog post already lol

signal: alina.1312
telegram: alinaicarus
email: hi@alina.cx

thanksies 🥺

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2025-11-11T19:18:43+01:00

i need her to take and own me heckk,,,, agshshwjsgdkadr

this is what happens when two cofronting pupygirls fork firefox ...

2025-11-08T05:58:50+01:00

this is what happens when two cofronting pupygirls fork firefox while high as hsit

the alina urge to build a VTOL that goes supersonic, fires ...

2025-11-05T18:18:17+01:00

the alina urge to build a VTOL that goes supersonic, fires flares, lasers, EMP missiles and does 3D scans. also an 8K camera stream with analogue zoom and thermal vision, 360° VR view, autopilot, satellite comms, 3gpp comms, geolocation, atom precision clock, and shooting probes onto roofs for intercepting WPA2 handshakes

i have the hardware (well except the jet engine, but i know where to get one) but where do i get all the time this would take to do as a hobby project

lmao when one tries to lookup my ipv6 address prefix the ...

2025-11-01T23:39:56+01:00

lmao when one tries to lookup my ipv6 address prefix the bgp.tools website crashes

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2025-10-23T02:11:16+02:00

show me ur home screen. now ...

2025-10-12T00:54:33+02:00

show me ur home screen. now

rate the puppy's setup :3 ...

2025-10-07T03:51:17+02:00

rate the puppy's setup :3

chat what does it mean when my best friends rail me for 5 hours. ...

2025-10-03T03:42:46+02:00

chat what does it mean when my best friends rail me for 5 hours. does that mean they actually like me??

[100€/960€] hi, as you might know, amazon web services have ...

2025-10-02T12:00:01+02:00

[100€/960€]

hi,
as you might know, amazon web services have fired me. they have forced me into
a predatory lease agreement with their relocation provider because I needed to
move to berlin in order to even begin working for them. the rent for the
apartment they picked for me is nauseatingly high and even though i have tried
my hardest, i have not yet succeeded in finding cheaper housing due to the
outrageous housing situation in berlin.

the immense existential dread of not being able to afford rent or food terrifies
me and makes my mental health worse. this then makes it harder for me to write
job applications which ultimately results in a downwards spiral of existential
dread and depressive anxiety.

if you can afford it, please consider donating to help me cover my most basic
expenses like rent and food.

https://liberapay.com/alina/

thank you.

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2025-09-30T15:23:55+02:00

hiiii,, wanna cuddle?~ :twitter_pleading_face:

my home-office outfit ...

2025-09-30T13:59:04+02:00

my home-office outfit

hiiii :3 searching strong dominant women who want to be my owner ...

2025-09-20T01:30:03+02:00

hiiii :3 searching strong dominant women who want to be my owner near Berlin

WAKE ME UP WAKE ME UP INSIDE SAVE ME CANT WAKE UP

2025-09-12T07:45:36+02:00

WAKE ME UP

WAKE ME UP INSIDE

SAVE ME

CANT WAKE UP

[ERROR] stdout) Sep 12 07:08:25 arielle systemd[1]: Started ...

2025-09-12T07:09:02+02:00

[ERROR] stdout) Sep 12 07:08:25 arielle systemd[1]: Started qbittorrent BitTorrent client.
[ERROR] stdout) Sep 12 07:08:25 arielle systemd[1]: qbittorrent.service: Main process exited, code=dumped, status=6/ABRT
[ERROR] stdout) Sep 12 07:08:25 arielle systemd[1]: qbittorrent.service: Failed with result 'core-dump'.

wehhhhh

i have written 150 lines of nix code and my entire vision is ...

2025-09-12T06:34:48+02:00

i have written 150 lines of nix code and my entire vision is super blurry because of the sleep depriviation i have no clue what i wrote but it somehow evaluated without error at the first try what

i guess i have a torrent RSS feed crawler now? and something OIDC idk i'm so hecknig tired that i have no clue what is going on anymore but somehow my raw muscle memory is capable of writing elaborate nixos modules

i'm gonna spawn a systemd container with valve's ...

2025-09-11T13:28:08+02:00

i'm gonna spawn a systemd container with valve's gamescope wayland compositor running a AAA game on a cloud compute VM with a datacenter grade GPU, and stream the wayland session to my laptop via waypipe and no one can stop me

yes it will have a nixos module and package build helpers for packaging fitgirl repacks with proton, i've done that years ago already when i was still a script kiddie writing bash scripts for our GNU/Linux game piracy scene group jc141

if i can spawn unlimited compute VMs for free i might as well make use of it

pov you just cancelled all your servers because they cost way too ...

2025-09-11T06:22:06+02:00

pov you just cancelled all your servers because they cost way too much and now your laptop has to be the seedbox music reencoding node for 15k songs

i cant let it hibernate help

Mastercard/Visa are the Rube Goldberg Machine version of ...

2025-09-09T00:54:20+02:00

Mastercard/Visa are the Rube Goldberg Machine version of organized yakuza crime rings

i discovered the music genre "Psybient" which is like a ...

2025-09-08T20:53:12+02:00

i discovered the music genre "Psybient" which is like a mix of Ambient and Psytrance but i cant stop reading it as psytrance lesbian help

... i mean it's not wrong either