Nostr notes by River J. Hopkins

I'm streaming on #twitch tomorrow at 2PM EST!! And I'm on ...

2026-08-03T17:05:21Z

I'm streaming on #twitch tomorrow at 2PM EST!! And I'm on the path to Affiliate, so PLEASE give me a follow. Subs are always appreciated, too!! Even Prime subs help. 🫶

#twitchtv #river__rabbit #twitchgamer #gamergirl #newgametomorrow

https://www.twitch.tv/river__rabbit

I should not dye my hair when I'm baked, because then this ...

2026-07-15T08:58:12Z

I should not dye my hair when I'm baked, because then this will happen.

I talk a lot here about Matt because I feel like I'm just ...

2026-07-15T06:26:46Z

I talk a lot here about Matt because I feel like I'm just annoying my friends when I talk to them about him. I just need to get things about him out of my brain and...somewhere else sometimes.

I was gonna say I'm sorry...but I'm not. It helps me process things to type them out.

Would a man wear a shirt AND bracelet a woman gave him all week ...

2026-06-29T05:28:26Z

Would a man wear a shirt AND bracelet a woman gave him all week after she gave it to him if he didn't wanna think of her when he wore them??

Trying to distract myself by flirting with other people, but...I ...

2026-06-28T16:48:34Z

Trying to distract myself by flirting with other people, but...I hate it. Just makes me think about him more.

He's everywhere. All the time.

I don't know what to do about it.

John: Everyone's mean to Matt. Me: I'm not! Atticus & ...

2026-05-13T00:18:28Z

John: Everyone's mean to Matt.

Me: I'm not!

Atticus & John: YES YOU ARE.

John: You tease him all the time.

Atticus: And you're very flirty about it.

Me: Well, the flirting is intentional...the being mean part isn't. 😅

#Bratables

That must have been annoying!! John is doing this to himself, ...

2026-05-06T13:50:54Z

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That must have been annoying!! John is doing this to himself, though 😭

Why am I the only one concerned about my friend John's ...

2026-05-06T05:11:52Z

Why am I the only one concerned about my friend John's health????

He needs an intervention. 1-3 hours of sleep a night IS NOT ENOUGH.

For those of you who have read the first two books in my series; ...

2026-05-05T17:51:00Z

For those of you who have read the first two books in my series; what do YOU think "Three-of-Three" actually means?

I'm curious to see if anyone has figured it out yet.

#TheOutcrossedSeries #IntoTheForgottenForest #UnderTheWolfMoon

Apparently it is. LOL. @npub19z5…737w You gave me the Spanish ...

2026-05-04T19:19:47Z

In reply to nevent1q…2ua2
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Apparently it is. LOL.

Kat (npub19z5…737w) You gave me the Spanish pronunciation 😂

THANK YOU SO MUCH LOL. I need to book a nail appointment, and I ...

2026-05-04T17:18:59Z

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THANK YOU SO MUCH LOL. I need to book a nail appointment, and I didn't wanna sound like a dufus. 🤣

How tf do you pronounce "ombre?" Is it like om-burr, or ...

2026-05-04T15:10:37Z

How tf do you pronounce "ombre?"

Is it like om-burr, or om-bray?

I feel like I'm gonna be sick. I'm meeting him in 20 ...

2026-05-02T00:42:10Z

I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

I'm meeting him in 20 days.

I'm totally gonna make an ass out of myself and trip over my own two feet or something.

I get a special little thrill bullying bullies who bully my ...

2026-04-29T12:36:40Z

I get a special little thrill bullying bullies who bully my friends. They deserve a taste of their own ass-hattery.

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2026-04-28T12:31:19Z

Fuck. I did not sleep.

Matt got us both killed. 😂 ...

2026-04-27T19:58:24Z

Matt got us both killed. 😂

https://youtube.com/shorts/sTV4ufwHjhI

Thanks. I hope so, too.

2026-04-27T16:50:57Z

In reply to nevent1q…6mhw
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Thanks. I hope so, too.

I fucked up my neck and shoulder, and I don't even know how. ...

2026-04-27T15:15:07Z

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I fucked up my neck and shoulder, and I don't even know how. But I can barely move.

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2026-04-27T05:13:32Z

I am in so much pain. 😭

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2026-04-26T02:31:44Z

I wish my neck and shoulder would stop hurting.

"River will always go first." -Mattables ...

2026-04-25T23:21:15Z

"River will always go first." -Mattables

I feel bad. Luna was trying to convince me to play FFXIV last ...

2026-04-25T14:11:11Z

I feel bad. Luna was trying to convince me to play FFXIV last night, but...I don't even have the time to play most of the games I already play, lately.

I have a third art commission lined up! I'm booked through ...

2026-04-25T07:11:57Z

I have a third art commission lined up! I'm booked through June now!

I am absolutely terrified of meeting Matt in person. Less than a ...

2026-04-24T14:02:47Z

I am absolutely terrified of meeting Matt in person. Less than a month now. I just know I'm going to fall even MORE in love with him, and it's gonna hurt like hell when he doesn't feel the same way. But I'll do it because he's also my friend, and I love him platonically, too.

Excellent!! Love a good Muse.

2026-04-24T13:59:41Z

In reply to nevent1q…u9su
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Excellent!! Love a good Muse.

I love that so much!! And yeah, that IS something worth thinking ...

2026-04-24T13:59:22Z

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I love that so much!! And yeah, that IS something worth thinking about.

I LOVED the Amazon series so much I started reading the books! I ...

2026-04-24T13:58:35Z

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I LOVED the Amazon series so much I started reading the books! I finished New Spring, and I bought the next book, I believe. All the others have been gifted to me, and are awaiting being read. Lol.

I don't think of it as a dilemma; it's just interesting ...

2026-04-23T13:43:02Z

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I don't think of it as a dilemma; it's just interesting to me. I don't mind it at all, but it's unexpected that people actually listen to me. I'm more used to being invisible.

Why do I always find myself leading things that other people are ...

2026-04-23T12:44:22Z

Why do I always find myself leading things that other people are supposed to be leading? It's not like I do it on purpose. I just suggest things and people follow.

What's a film, show, or book that changed your life? What did ...

2026-04-23T09:50:44Z

What's a film, show, or book that changed your life? What did you start doing differently afterwards?

Apparently, I am Accidental Boss Bitch. That's my new name, I ...

2026-04-23T00:26:55Z

Apparently, I am Accidental Boss Bitch.

That's my new name, I guess.

Matt: I feed off the blood of the beautiful. Me: So, I'm just ...

2026-04-22T23:53:47Z

Matt: I feed off the blood of the beautiful.

Me: So, I'm just gonna die when we meet next month, aren't I?

Matt: *in his sexy voice* No, you'll be immortal.

😂

Today is a ME day!! And what that means is I'm gonna be ...

2026-04-22T12:24:40Z

Today is a ME day!!

And what that means is I'm gonna be writinggggggggg. 🥳🥳🥳

Thank you!! 😃

2026-04-22T11:59:48Z

In reply to nevent1q…lups
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Thank you!! 😃

New glasses!!! ...

2026-04-22T05:40:19Z

New glasses!!!

I AM LE DEAD. My friend Halo made this. Lol. It's the moment ...

2026-04-20T01:59:16Z

I AM LE DEAD. My friend Halo made this. Lol. It's the moment on stream when Matt noticed this creepy guy being bugging me and his entire demeanor changed. 😂

Look at how adorable he is with the Charmander Ditto I sent him. ...

2026-04-17T04:56:24Z

Look at how adorable he is with the Charmander Ditto I sent him. 🥰

He thinks it's cute that I say "huzzah." He ...

2026-04-17T01:22:33Z

He thinks it's cute that I say "huzzah." He didn't say it directly, but he did his "this-is-so-cute" voice and echoed me when I said it. 😂

He's thinking about streaming three days in a row just ...

2026-04-16T08:50:46Z

He's thinking about streaming three days in a row just because I said I might be late on Friday. I mean, that's a lot, and I hope he doesn't do that...for his own sake...but it's REALLY CUTE that he said he might. 🤭🥰

Soooo...LGBTQIA+ folk are apparently terrorists now, according to ...

2026-04-15T10:00:25Z

Soooo...LGBTQIA+ folk are apparently terrorists now, according to Tangerine Palpatine.

We're fucked, chat. And not in a good way.

He's been reacting to RWBY and keeps talking shit about how ...

2026-04-14T03:07:18Z

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He's been reacting to RWBY and keeps talking shit about how Jaune is totally oblivious about Pyrrha, and I...

Sigh.

I'M THE PYRRHA. HE'S THE JAUNE.

I wonder if he'd even notice if I just stopped flirting with ...

2026-04-14T03:04:09Z

I wonder if he'd even notice if I just stopped flirting with him.

Every time I do it, it hurts, because I don't think he feels the same way about me.

He would've told me by now if he did.

Mattables is a searchable gif now. Lol. ...

2026-04-13T19:33:03Z

Mattables is a searchable gif now. Lol.

Been very stressed out and ignoring it. Today, I'm focusing ...

2026-04-12T14:15:27Z

Been very stressed out and ignoring it. Today, I'm focusing on ME.

My DM and I got ghosted by the party earlier, and I was feeling ...

2026-04-11T05:40:46Z

My DM and I got ghosted by the party earlier, and I was feeling bummed. Then, Matt swooped in to save my night. We all chatted on his server for like TWO HOURS.

And he said some...THINGS to me. In front of everyone. 😳🫣

Tomorrow's stream will sure be interesting.

Working more on Matt's WANTED poster today at the studio!! ...

2026-04-10T11:08:30Z

Working more on Matt's WANTED poster today at the studio!! Hopefully I can make some good progress, because I have two commissions I need to get to work on soon.

I just did unofficial mod duty in Matt's server. Someone ...

2026-04-10T06:51:37Z

I just did unofficial mod duty in Matt's server. Someone posted a VERY SPOILERY spoiler in the RWBY chat, and I told them to spoiler tag it. They deleted it entirely, instead and apologized. Why do I suddenly feel like the chat mom?? 🤣

He's been very chatty today, and every interaction makes me ...

2026-04-10T05:35:50Z

He's been very chatty today, and every interaction makes me smile.

So...my face hurts.

😂

2026-04-10T02:31:00Z

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😂

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2026-04-10T02:08:04Z

Why is everyone always telling me how pretty I am? I'm a ...

2026-04-09T17:26:58Z

Why is everyone always telling me how pretty I am? I'm a MUPPET.

The secret to not getting wrinkles on your face is... ...to be ...

2026-04-09T08:13:38Z

The secret to not getting wrinkles on your face is...

...to be Neurodivergent and not make a lot of facial expressions.

"What if one of these times you aren't here?" ...

2026-04-09T03:18:50Z

"What if one of these times you aren't here?"

"I'll always be here."

Me: I sort of already have my dream job! Brad: Matt's ...

2026-04-09T02:37:29Z

Me: I sort of already have my dream job!

Brad: Matt's dominatrix?

Me: *chokes on water*

Pokémon Red, Hearthstone (specifically Battlegrounds mode).

2026-04-09T01:52:25Z

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Pokémon Red, Hearthstone (specifically Battlegrounds mode).

Nice! I actually haven't seen ANY of these. Adding them to ...

2026-04-08T15:17:35Z

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Nice! I actually haven't seen ANY of these. Adding them to the list!! Thank you!

I have!! Totally epic.

2026-04-08T15:17:02Z

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I have!! Totally epic.

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2026-04-08T03:33:35Z

We may not have enough party members for this game. 😭

Living life in HD. Well...AuDHD.

2026-04-08T02:18:28Z

Living life in HD.

Well...AuDHD.

I LOVE Eternal Sunshine!! Never heard of the other one, though. I ...

2026-04-08T01:01:18Z

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I LOVE Eternal Sunshine!! Never heard of the other one, though. I will look it up. Thanks, man!!

About to nap, but I'm looking for really trippy films to ...

2026-04-07T22:46:31Z

About to nap, but I'm looking for really trippy films to watch!!

Some of my favorites include Waking Life, Everything Everywhere All At Once, Moon Garden, and The Forbidden Room.

I like mind bendy, dreamy, and portal fantasy kind of deals. Nothing super violent, and nothing that's gonna leave me feeling dead inside after.

Anyone have any suggestions?

#MovieSuggestions

Rewatching THIS ROOM DOES NOT EXIST, because I never finished ...

2026-04-07T18:39:09Z

Rewatching THIS ROOM DOES NOT EXIST, because I never finished it...AND THERE ARE 3 SEASONS NOW?! HELL FUCKING YES.

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2026-04-07T13:47:17Z

My heart hurts.

Have you ever written and rewritten a message like a thousand ...

2026-04-07T07:59:50Z

Have you ever written and rewritten a message like a thousand times and never hit send?

An auto-mod bot on Twitch was deleting things and issuing people ...

2026-04-07T02:24:23Z

An auto-mod bot on Twitch was deleting things and issuing people warnings on stream earlier, and Matt only stepped in and got rid of it after it scolded me. XD

"I'm older than you." "Older than me?? Not in MY ...

2026-04-07T01:45:27Z

"I'm older than you."

"Older than me?? Not in MY eyes."

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2026-04-06T22:52:08Z

IHDY?

I love that!!!

2026-04-06T14:54:52Z

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I love that!!!

I am 40, and I've only had 7 relationships my entire life. I ...

2026-04-06T11:04:19Z

I am 40, and I've only had 7 relationships my entire life. I rarely, if ever, have feelings for anyone. When I do, they're usually a friend, and only see me as such...which is fine, and I will continue to be their friend, because friendships are really important to me. But...being demi does get very lonely sometimes. I am so full of love, and no one wants it.

Mab is almost a self-insert in my books. She is how I imagine I ...

2026-04-06T06:03:44Z

Mab is almost a self-insert in my books. She is how I imagine I would be if I let all the horrible things people did to me turn me into a monster.

#TheOutcrossedSeries #TheOutcrossed #ShadowWork #GoodVsEvil #TheShadowQueen #IntoTheForgottenForest #UnderTheWolfMoon

I can't stop thinking about him when I'm awake, and he ...

2026-04-06T05:55:03Z

I can't stop thinking about him when I'm awake, and he haunts my dreams. I can't escape him...but I'm not sure I want to.

"I'll be streaming on Wednesdays instead of Thursdays ...

2026-04-05T22:56:06Z

"I'll be streaming on Wednesdays instead of Thursdays now."

"I'll have to change my studio day, then!"

"No, you don't have to do that!!"

"Yes, I do. <3"

Yeahhh, there ARE some people who are manipulative like that. But ...

2026-04-05T22:54:23Z

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Yeahhh, there ARE some people who are manipulative like that. But I am no man!!! Lololol

I mean, you're aware of it, though!! And you're working ...

2026-04-05T22:29:15Z

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I mean, you're aware of it, though!! And you're working on it! That's excellent. Being social IS hard. A lot of it is about finding the right people. :)

Do people ever treat you suspiciously for being nice?? It's ...

2026-04-05T22:22:09Z

Do people ever treat you suspiciously for being nice?? It's the weirdest fucking thing. I'm a generally happy person, and I try to treat people kindly, because I'd also like to be treated kindly. Why is that suspicious? What am I gonna do, be your best friend? Make you cupcakes on your birthday and soup when you're sick? Send you silly little memes that make me think of you? OOOH. I'M SO SCARY.

"That selfie broke my brain." "It's just a photo. ...

2026-04-05T08:42:08Z

"That selfie broke my brain."

"It's just a photo. What are you gonna do when you actually meet him??"

"I'll just immediately die. But it'll have been worth it."

😂

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2026-04-03T11:33:03Z

Something feels different today.

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2026-04-03T05:53:48Z

I don't remember the last time I used my cane.

Never stay with someone who tells you that you look pretty when ...

2026-04-02T21:57:24Z

Never stay with someone who tells you that you look pretty when you cry. They're gonna like hurting you.

I like the one reply that said history won't remember them ...

2026-04-02T21:34:48Z

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I like the one reply that said history won't remember them kindly. It definitely won't.

I look like a completely different person with my glasses and a ...

2026-04-01T15:23:46Z

I look like a completely different person with my glasses and a smile on my face.

I won't be participating in April Fool's Day, because ...

2026-04-01T15:09:37Z

I won't be participating in April Fool's Day, because I've never liked it.

Matt is doing an early stream today. He did an extra one the ...

2026-04-01T15:06:53Z

Matt is doing an early stream today. He did an extra one the other day, too. He just seems more and more excited about streaming every week. It's really cute. I wish it was because he wanted to hang out with me, specifically, but I think it's just because he loves gaming. 😂♥️

Also, we joked about how one of the voices Sibyl hears is just my ...

2026-03-31T14:18:24Z

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Also, we joked about how one of the voices Sibyl hears is just my DM talking.

They are not, sadly! Ooh, that sounds fun. Right now, my ...

2026-03-31T14:17:50Z

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They are not, sadly!

Ooh, that sounds fun. Right now, my character's apartment is haunted by her sister's ghost. LOL.

We actually haven't done that yet!! I don't know why ...

2026-03-31T13:56:02Z

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We actually haven't done that yet!! I don't know why hahahaha. My character's visions are connected with her tarot card readings. Usually whether she has a vision or not depends on my rolls, and my DM just makes shit up on the spot. I'll have to message them about it!

NICE. It's been really fun so far! This is actually my first ...

2026-03-31T13:51:43Z

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NICE. It's been really fun so far! This is actually my first time playing a TTRPG. Never had any friends who wanted to before now. Lol. We're gonna do Godsend next!! I'm psyched for the mechanics of that one, and playing two different characters.

Sidenote: The voice I do for Sybil is a mixture of Drusilla from ...

2026-03-31T13:31:23Z

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Sidenote: The voice I do for Sybil is a mixture of Drusilla from Buffy and Flower from Ghosts. I should really tell Juliet about it, but I keep forgetting. I'm sure she'd be honored by the homage!!

True!! That does seem to happen. Hahaha.

2026-03-31T13:23:34Z

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True!! That does seem to happen. Hahaha.

Thinking about the vampire RPG I've been playing. Yehn (or ...

2026-03-31T13:18:25Z

Thinking about the vampire RPG I've been playing. Yehn (or their character Adrian, really) has sort of taken lead for the most part. But they were absent last session, and that's when I realized that most of the suggestions about what we should be doing actually come from me. So, now I'm wondering why my friends are letting the bonkers Malkavian lead the party??? My character hears voices and has visions and tears peoples' heads off with her bare hands. LOL.

#VampireTheMasquerade #TTRPGs

Not only does Tangerine Palpatine rape little girls, but he kills ...

2026-03-31T08:22:05Z

Not only does Tangerine Palpatine rape little girls, but he kills them, too. A second Iranian school was bombed, and a whole girl's volleyball team was decimated. 21 people are dead in Lamerd. And before that, 175 in Minab. I am so fucking angry. I have never hated anyone as much as I hate that sorry excuse for a man.

I don't look a whole lot different with makeup on vs off. ...

2026-03-31T01:02:54Z

I don't look a whole lot different with makeup on vs off.

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2026-03-30T22:59:34Z

I am absolutely hopeless.

This is how the Patreon emails show up from Matt. I'M CRYING ...

2026-03-29T21:58:09Z

This is how the Patreon emails show up from Matt. I'M CRYING LMAO

He told me I don't annoy him at all, and I can send him as ...

2026-03-29T18:02:30Z

He told me I don't annoy him at all, and I can send him as many messages I want and he'll read them all. I'M GONNA CRY, Y'ALL. Probably in the top ten of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me. Definitely one of the most reassuring.

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2026-03-29T13:16:41Z

This ache in my heart is all I am.

Oops. I wasn't expecting him to reply to my message so ...

2026-03-29T02:33:51Z

Oops. I wasn't expecting him to reply to my message so quickly, and I left him hanging for like an hour. D:

Hoping to be the first tenant in this particular apartment who ...

2026-03-28T15:23:06Z

Hoping to be the first tenant in this particular apartment who moves out BEFORE dying.

Because I guess everyone before me died here. Probably in the room I'm in right now.

Lady before me left several years of trash stickers behind when she passed. I just finished using them up this week. I think that's a sign I need to start looking for a new place to live.

I know your heart doesn't reach For me the way Mine reaches ...

2026-03-28T05:50:49Z

I know your heart doesn't reach
For me the way
Mine reaches for you
But it's yours, anyway—
My heart
I wouldn't know
What else to do with it.

All these people from Matt's server, including his mods ...

2026-03-27T22:42:51Z

All these people from Matt's server, including his mods (friends? I dunno), keep going, "Oh, lemme DM you about this..." and sliding into my DMs. One of them sent me a friend request today, too. I don't know wtf is going on. Why does everyone want to be my friend all of a sudden? XD