Nostr notes by Pipford

Mum currently up and fretting about being ready for a hair ...

2026-07-22T05:22:41Z

Mum currently up and fretting about being ready for a hair appointment in 3.5h. Has put shoes on.

Last night we had 'is it morning or evening?'. Followed shortly after by 'so the appointment is in half an hour?', when it was 12.5h away.

She's been complaining that 'the door isn't working'

🙃🙃

I remain a whorl of body image issues but I am also trying to get ...

2026-07-09T20:23:31Z

I remain a whorl of body image issues but I am also trying to get more comfortable with my chonky muscle look. It's either lose weight and be weak or keep eating and being strong, and I like being strong 😁

Sheffield (and also my room) is blessedly normal this evening. ...

2026-07-08T19:50:16Z

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Sheffield (and also my room) is blessedly normal this evening. But if tomorrow is a different story I'm very tempted to just head for a hotel on Friday night. I really cannot abide heat and hot sleepless nights are the worst.

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2026-07-08T12:09:36Z

Very tempted to get a hotel for the next few nights ❄️

Leg workout leaving me DRIPPING ...

2026-07-07T15:56:02Z

Leg workout leaving me DRIPPING

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2026-07-07T05:07:58Z

Ahhhhh fuck I really should have booked today off 😕

Tomorrow I will NOT go to the gym, and in two weeks I'm going ...

2026-07-02T10:59:44Z

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Tomorrow I will NOT go to the gym, and in two weeks I'm going away for a few days, which is probably for the best, recovery wise. My body keeps insisting it is 20 years older than I would like it to be.

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2026-07-02T10:58:36Z

I went to the gym and all I got was this ridiculous pump

My lower body half always lagged behind, cos I'm wary of ...

2026-06-28T09:13:58Z

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My lower body half always lagged behind, cos I'm wary of pushing it hard enough. There is a PT with the most incredible legs at the gym and come September I might grab 3 months of sessions with him. I am too gay to have no ass.

Step ups continued, tho they are currently a poor muscle building ...

2026-06-28T09:11:40Z

Step ups continued, tho they are currently a poor muscle building move because I totter about like a baby gazelle. Will keep at them because balance and functional strength is ever more important, but thankfully I also remembered leg presses exist.

I am trying to not do squats, partly because I'm getting wary of loading that much weight onto my spine as I age, and partly because fuck me they're boring.

Lolll I love muscle memory ...

2026-06-27T08:29:50Z

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Lolll I love muscle memory

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2026-06-27T07:57:11Z

Lolllll my muscle pump is back

Ed Zitron has been posting about it on Blue sky dot appe

2026-06-26T06:38:46Z

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Ed Zitron has been posting about it on Blue sky dot appe

Tom's Trip is beautifully comedic but also quite stressful

2026-06-24T17:02:59Z

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Tom's Trip is beautifully comedic but also quite stressful

OK so far my favourite is Patricia's Party

2026-06-24T16:32:04Z

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OK so far my favourite is Patricia's Party

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2026-06-24T09:51:33Z

Oh my days I've just started Widow's Bay, it is a DELIGHT

that's the badger!

2026-06-24T09:21:51Z

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that's the badger!

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2026-06-22T07:10:00Z

Truly, my powers are weakest at midsummer

Started doing step ups and good lord my stability and balance is ...

2026-06-21T08:18:54Z

Started doing step ups and good lord my stability and balance is awful

I'm behaving in quite a depressed way rn. And I'm... fuck ...

2026-06-20T19:29:09Z

I'm behaving in quite a depressed way rn. And I'm... fuck me I'm lonely and bored. Solving this is entirely up to me but I'm not sure how to go about it. How do gays make friends without fucking first? Honestly I don't know.

Getting lots of flashbacks to my 20s, when I had a social life (and had, if anything, too much fun). Also coincident with having a local queer scene.

Understandably, very currently aware of the rapid passing of years and the onrush of age.

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2026-06-20T17:07:47Z

Very rough run 😕

Just take a look at this dork ...

2026-06-08T13:46:04Z

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Just take a look at this dork

20 years ago I was regularly pounding any available dance floor ...

2026-06-08T13:40:55Z

20 years ago I was regularly pounding any available dance floor in Vauxhall for 36h, and today I am regretting the two lattes I had yesterday because they've given me a sleepy comedown this afternoon.

I actually think I'll be fine, although father's day last ...

2026-06-07T15:15:10Z

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I actually think I'll be fine, although father's day last year was the last half normal day we had so it's something of an anchor moment.

I could probably just ignore it and carry on as normal.

I reserve the right to go to Manchester and get hog wild drunk at the Eagle

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2026-06-07T15:03:32Z

Oh good lord it's father's day in 2 weeks 😵‍💫

Appalled to discover that a day of sensibly eating slow burning ...

2026-06-03T17:58:00Z

Appalled to discover that a day of sensibly eating slow burning carbs gives me stable energy which lasts into the evening (I'm even considering going out for a run. At SEVEN PM!); unlike yesterday's diet of pastries and chocolate coated peanuts, which had me semi-comatose by the time work finished.

WHO KNEW?!

Friendship ENDED with Churchill New best friend is PUFFIN

2026-06-03T15:07:04Z

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Friendship ENDED with Churchill
New best friend is PUFFIN

Honestly. What is this mess? These are REAL chromosomes developed ...

2026-06-03T13:33:37Z

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Honestly. What is this mess? These are REAL chromosomes developed by ACTUAL eukaryotic evolutionary pressure. This is NO WAY to order genomic information, we are being taken for absolute FOOLS.

If human home marrow chromosomes could be a bit easier to tell ...

2026-06-03T13:29:04Z

If human home marrow chromosomes could be a bit easier to tell from one another, that would make my day much easier, thx

Healthline radically underestimating how dangerous I already ...

2026-05-29T18:43:41Z

Healthline radically underestimating how dangerous I already assumed this to be

still ill 🙄 Not atrociously ill but also definitely not ...

2026-05-28T05:46:34Z

*still* ill 🙄

Not atrociously ill but also definitely not "I can leave the house and get to work and busy myself about a laboratory".

Dangerously close to beating my previous playtime on CK3

Threads figured it out?? Threads??? ...

2026-05-27T15:59:27Z

Threads figured it out?? *Threads*???

Lolsob, just remembered I was chatting to an Age UK care worker ...

2026-05-22T11:53:10Z

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Lolsob, just remembered I was chatting to an Age UK care worker yesterday about last year, and dad, and she said "can I just ask, are you getting any therapy?"

🙃

Day 2 of a thankfully mild flu which I should see the back of ...

2026-05-22T11:47:35Z

Day 2 of a thankfully mild flu which I should see the back of before long. Thank heavens I booked today off work else I would've had to use a suck day 😵‍💫

Came to mum's yesterday to help her out with stuff today, and ...

2026-05-21T05:32:01Z

Came to mum's yesterday to help her out with stuff today, and I think I have flu 🙃.

It's either that or COVID so fun times. Wishing I'd nabbed a box of lab gloves and wipes from work. Have opened loads of windows and will just have to help from a distance 🫠

I think gym just x2 per week. Tbh that plus running plus running ...

2026-05-17T08:38:18Z

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I think gym just x2 per week. Tbh that plus running plus running uphill is probably more than enough to keep me ticking over.

Racked up a barbell for deadlifts and realised I really, really ...

2026-05-17T08:37:16Z

Racked up a barbell for deadlifts and realised I really, really couldn't be bothered. My watch is telling me I'm a bit too knackered for a workout but I think I'm just bored of gyms. Went home, picked up a kettlebell, and took it for a walk around the block. Wishing I had more space at home so I could throw a sandbag around.

Going from 3-4 filter coffees before work and 3-4 instants ...

2026-05-15T04:59:44Z

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Going from 3-4 filter coffees before work and 3-4 instants through the day to... zero... was a rough landing but been an interesting and pretty gentle ride after that. Lots of sleeeeeeep, tho.

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2026-05-15T04:57:40Z

Entering week 3 of no caffeine and I am sleeeeeeeping 👀

OTOH my tache is massive. Not related to caffeine but got to take ...

2026-05-12T11:51:50Z

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OTOH my tache is massive. Not related to caffeine but got to take wins where I find them.

I think the lack of caffeine has me slouching into a low and meh ...

2026-05-12T11:50:39Z

I think the lack of caffeine has me slouching into a low and meh mood :/. Do I have to be at work or can I just stay home and snuggle?

It's fine I went to the gym and now I feel absolutely jacked ...

2026-04-25T14:52:10Z

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It's fine I went to the gym and now I feel absolutely jacked 🙃

I got back from a run and looked at my midriff and now am once ...

2026-04-25T11:21:43Z

I got back from a run and looked at my midriff and now am once again convinced I am Too Fat. FFS.

Alzheimer's is such a brutal end. There are things I feel I ...

2026-04-21T16:39:24Z

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Alzheimer's is such a brutal end.

There are things I feel I need to confess, even tho they need no absolution.

Can't afford a therapist 🙃.

I would fuckin love a balance enhancing robot tail and I'm ...

2026-04-17T16:05:16Z

I would fuckin love a balance enhancing robot tail and I'm not even slightly joking.

God it's never the good stuff is it? It's always "the ...

2026-04-15T18:40:21Z

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God it's never the good stuff is it? It's always "the high will diminish but not the constipation", "you'll never come up the same but you'll still chew your cheeks off", "your muscles will shrink back but your spleen will be chonky". I suppose I should be glad my balls got back to normal, but no one's on Grindr filtering for large spleens

Heading to the GP tomorrow, because I'm assuming I have IBS ...

2026-04-15T18:33:19Z

Heading to the GP tomorrow, because I'm assuming I have IBS but it's never been rubber stamped, and also one of my symptoms is 'my spleen is sore'*, which feels like it should be checked out...

*(My spleen is a bit bigger than usual** so it's not totally unusual for it to get a big aggy, but even so)

**(some things stay big even after you stop steroids)

I love living with my teenaged nieces and I love that they are so ...

2026-04-14T18:45:01Z

I love living with my teenaged nieces and I love that they are so comfortable and happy here, but also they are very loud and full of energy and I am, fundamentally, a bookish woodland creature from a Richard Scarry picture book; I am at home to curl up and read and go to bed with the setting sun, I do not need feet pounding on stairs and constant phone chat and surprise teenage guests

I'm more of a sci-fi guy, but am so glad I took a punt on his ...

2026-04-13T17:35:24Z

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I'm more of a sci-fi guy, but am so glad I took a punt on his Tyrant Philosophers series. Just started book 3 after finishing Strife and feeling bereft.

"The great care home cash grab: how private equity turned ...

2026-04-09T14:18:37Z

"The great care home cash grab: how private equity turned vulnerable elderly people into human ATMs"

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2026/mar/28/the-great-care-home-cash-grab-how-private-equity-turned-vulnerable-elderly-people-into-human-atms

"Been to the year 3000, Lived underground, there wasn't ...

2026-04-06T07:13:44Z

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"Been to the year 3000,
Lived underground, there wasn't much water'

Are you on the ace spectrum, Phil, or do you just have a strong ...

2026-04-05T15:54:40Z

Are you on the ace spectrum, Phil, or do you just have a strong preference for the kind of sex you can't easily get in your current life?

(I am suddenly horny, which happens sometimes, but god no I do not want to engage with the apps)

I might go on a gentle run. Maybe. But I am still in my pyjamas ...

2026-04-05T12:30:26Z

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I might go on a gentle run. Maybe. But I am still in my pyjamas so...

being a super-lark is a bit annoying when it comes to ...

2026-04-05T12:29:41Z

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being a super-lark is a bit annoying when it comes to socialising, and the way my body tends to enforce bedtime with an iron fist is a bit much, but I take both those things gladly if they are packaged with "I consistently get a solid 8-9.5h sleep a night, no questions"

I am allotted two (2) nights of randomly poor sleep per year; ...

2026-04-05T11:18:54Z

I am allotted two (2) nights of randomly poor sleep per year; last night was apparently one of them.

Have decided to leave gym until tomorrow and have a cute little day of books and notes and naps.

Don't know what happened, bit just woke from a nap feeling ...

2026-04-04T15:46:22Z

Don't know what happened, bit just woke from a nap feeling like I hadn't eaten food since 1973, and have just inhaled a massive bowl of pasta 👀

I will die on the hill that GoT was a soap, and its real downfall ...

2026-04-04T10:28:11Z

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I will die on the hill that GoT was a soap, and its real downfall was the showrunners not understanding that and assuming it had to come to a conclusion. It was clearly just a rolling hot mess.

Omg I could post this on my pixelfed account. Steady on.

2026-04-04T10:24:45Z

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Omg I could post this on my pixelfed account. Steady on.

I've posted this on bluesky, which is mental, no idea who ...

2026-04-04T09:59:23Z

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I've posted this on bluesky, which is mental, no idea who follows me. Also somewhat true for here but there's less of you, and also over here were mostly interested in moss.

Fun workout! Here are my nipples xx ...

2026-04-04T09:55:16Z

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Fun workout! Here are my nipples xx

I've come to the gym for a silly little light chest and arms ...

2026-04-04T09:16:08Z

I've come to the gym for a silly little light chest and arms workout and its SO FUN

I'm glad we all had fun

2026-04-04T08:26:09Z

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I'm glad we all had fun

eventually descending, by way of convergent evolution, into an ...

2026-04-04T08:07:34Z

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eventually descending, by way of convergent evolution, into an alcohol Yeltsin

a Lenin

2026-04-04T08:04:28Z

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a Lenin

my Drugs Tsar recollection seems to be a USian import, along with ...

2026-04-04T07:22:42Z

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my Drugs Tsar recollection seems to be a USian import, along with the UK use of the term generally. How tawdry.

When did we start getting tsars in the UK? I remember New Labour ...

2026-04-04T07:02:31Z

When did we start getting tsars in the UK? I remember New Labour bringing in a Drugs Tsar and I thought it was a weird title, but they can't have just made it up in 1997. Can they?

Do Slavic states use the term 'emperor' for equivalent functionary roles? Or do they go with Kaiser? Do other anglophone countries have Tsars? Or does Australia have e.g. Drug Popes?

I am reading Hutton's Pagan Britain (2013), and the man is a ...

2026-04-03T13:05:58Z

I am reading Hutton's Pagan Britain (2013), and the man is a DELIGHT to read, his gentle but incisive, thoughtful manner just as evident in the text as his live lectures.

Cannot help but read it in his voice.

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2026-04-03T12:36:45Z

With every passing day I get closer to ordering an eink phone 👀

they pipped me as they drove by a few moments later, and I gave ...

2026-04-02T17:57:23Z

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they pipped me as they drove by a few moments later, and I gave them a thumbs up, felt v masc4masc

In completely unrelated news, I did a big run at lunch and while ...

2026-04-02T17:45:44Z

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In completely unrelated news, I did a big run at lunch and while I was jogging by topless I was approached by 3 workmen asking for a hand. Sadly this did not play out as it does in the movies and they just wanted my help pushing their van.

Anyway that was a very spicy extra 40 mins in la laboratoire

2026-04-02T17:44:12Z

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Anyway that was a very spicy extra 40 mins in la laboratoire

It is never a good time when sample receipt gets something in a ...

2026-04-02T17:42:55Z

It is never a good time when sample receipt gets something in a tub at 1700 (we absolutely should never ever get anything large enough to be in a tub)

I remember going there way back when and looking in horror at the ...

2026-04-02T13:59:22Z

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I remember going there way back when and looking in horror at the lunar module, which is far too steampunk for comfort

Fuck me I think I remember watching this on ??C4?? circa 2005

2026-04-01T11:47:41Z

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Fuck me I think I remember watching this on ??C4?? circa 2005

The Saxony-Anhalt State Museum of Prehistory welcomes you, real ...

2026-03-31T10:38:51Z

The Saxony-Anhalt State Museum of Prehistory welcomes you, real fuckin' sexy like you want

www.landesmuseum-vorgeschichte.de/en/

Had a go at running home and it was fine (my body is happier to ...

2026-03-30T16:58:33Z

Had a go at running home and it was fine (my body is happier to run at lunch but a run home seems convenient?), only snag is I left my keys at work and my brother is out (this is not convenient)

I did consider just lying but that would be a terrible way to ...

2026-03-30T12:22:34Z

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I did consider just lying but that would be a terrible way to initiate a counselling relationship.

Messaged the counselling service at worn and they replied back ...

2026-03-30T12:21:45Z

Messaged the counselling service at worn and they replied back saying they're triaging people and could I fill in and send back a PHQ-9 🙃🙃

(PHQ-9 is a depression screening tool. I've filled enough in - and been depressed enough before - to know that my score would be 0. So no counselling for me, despite trauma 🙃🙃)

I stepped up to the terrace to go to him, to help him. And ...

2026-03-29T18:49:17Z

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I stepped up to the terrace to go to him, to help him. And I'd not taken two steps when a chilling nightmare of black poured over the neighbor's fence and positioned itself between me and dad. This ape dog thing on all fours, freezing me to the spot in terror.

It didn't want to hurt me. But it was very protective of dad and was very clear that I should keep to my side of the line.

And then, of course, I woke up.

I called over but he didn't hear me. Just carried on with ...

2026-03-29T18:44:52Z

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I called over but he didn't hear me. Just carried on with that puzzled, figuring-it-out expression. He had been blisteringly intelligent in life, enjoyed puzzling things through. He'd tried to puzzle his way through the dementia, which only increased his confusion and fury, and fear, when he couldn't. Trapped.

He didn't look trapped, in the dream in the garden. Just... lost.

The visitation dream I had wasn't even a visitation in the ...

2026-03-29T18:41:10Z

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The visitation dream I had wasn't even a visitation in the usual sense. It was a couple of days after he'd died, that time outside time that is all shock and silence and appalling, grotesque empty space.

I was in the back garden - god he loved the garden, he loved being outside, in hospital he kept begging, please can I just go outside? - I looked over and there he was, on the upper terrace. Confused, trying to puzzle out where he was. Drifty, but not like the Alzheimers.

The following day was weird at work. Off centre.I'm lucky ...

2026-03-29T18:27:26Z

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The following day was weird at work. Off centre.I'm lucky that my job has so much time for me to just... take time out.

Anyway. Why am I typing all this? I dunno. I'm feeling increasingly off-kilter to the world, baffled by its absurdities. I will be at the monastery in a month. Mugwort is a relaxant, and said to bring dreams of the dead.

Lucid dreams can be breathtakingly vivid. He didn't know why ...

2026-03-29T18:23:11Z

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Lucid dreams can be breathtakingly vivid. He didn't know why I was hugging him so tight and crying and telling him I loved him and missed him, he just hugged back a little bemused and confused.I could *feel* his body, skin and bone, under his raggy tee. I couldn't let go. But of course the dream fell away and I was left with that strange resolidifying sensation I get when stepping smoothly from dream to waking. That, and the memory of his body in my arms, the the tears on my cheeks.

I've woken in dreams since I was a teenager. The other day, ...

2026-03-29T18:19:55Z

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I've woken in dreams since I was a teenager. The other day, just before waking, saw dad, and knew I was dreaming.

It wasn't a visitation dream - I have had those; once for Phil, and once for dad, immediately after he passed, altho he was confused and lost at the time, and tho I tried to approach I was firmly warned away.

The other day he was just in the living room. Honestly it was more a memory replay than a dream. Except this time I knew he was gone, so when I went to hug him... I knew

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2026-03-29T18:15:46Z

Funny old weekend. Funny old day. Brewing some mugwort tea.

you just reminded me of this excellent and eye opening video ...

2026-03-29T17:14:52Z

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you just reminded me of this excellent and eye opening video

https://youtu.be/TwKpj2ISQAc

(It is a... long one, I admit)

I am feeling a bit peculiar and this monastery trip can't ...

2026-03-29T15:50:45Z

I am feeling a bit peculiar and this monastery trip can't come quickly enough tbh

Go wild and make notes on neolithic britain in Swedish

2026-03-29T09:44:15Z

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Go wild and make notes on neolithic britain in Swedish

I might make it to the gym for a quick joints-friendly workout ...

2026-03-29T09:39:34Z

I might make it to the gym for a quick joints-friendly workout (i.e. pushing a sled for 10 mins), but OTOH I might just stay where I am and read about neolithic Britain for the day, along with some Swedish revision

yup, 4th installment. Came out on Thursday (Tchaikovsky is ...

2026-03-29T05:43:12Z

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yup, 4th installment. Came out on Thursday (Tchaikovsky is someone I pre-order)

Anyway, time to get back to my little book* *Children of Strife

2026-03-28T19:15:16Z

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Anyway, time to get back to my little book*

*Children of Strife

The three marks of existence are inherent components of ...

2026-03-28T19:13:21Z

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The three marks of existence are inherent components of subjective reality which, once fully perceived, lead to enlightenment. Impermanence, inherent discomfort, and the nonexistence of an underlying "self".

The *reason* for Buddhist meditation is to see these, because intellectual acceptance of them isn't enough. You need to feel it in your bones.

I think I'm beginning to feel it, a little, in my bones. And its unsettling. But not bad.

I sat and wrote something dad-adjacent today. It might grow into ...

2026-03-28T19:07:41Z

I sat and wrote something dad-adjacent today. It might grow into something fuller, who knows.

I am feeling very... aware of the three marks of existence, these days. Which is fine... good, even... but I'm glad I'm going to be at the monastery soon. I'm maybe a little unsteady... In a good way? If I can work with it, or let it be?

I am back in a routine and back doing things and let's be honest, I'm not really sure why I'm doing any of it

I read this years ago and it's stayed with me ever since ...

2026-03-28T18:26:31Z

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I read this years ago and it's stayed with me ever since https://theoutline.com/post/2209/what-the-caves-are-trying-to-tell-us

Ronald Hutton has pointed out that circles are a more egalitarian ...

2026-03-28T18:23:40Z

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Ronald Hutton has pointed out that circles are a more egalitarian design than the long barrows which preceded them, themselves probably meant to reflect the long-houses of the then-living. So a plague, an uprising, an primitive anarchist utopia rising up and lasting 1000 years?

Probably not. But fun to think about.

There's a chance the early neolithic peoples were wiped out ...

2026-03-28T18:19:47Z

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There's a chance the early neolithic peoples were wiped out by plague, and the stone circle builders came to an empty island filled with ancient mysterious ruins. This just breaks my brain.

All of complex life on the planet is the final act in a four act ...

2026-03-28T18:16:04Z

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All of complex life on the planet is the final act in a four act play, the whole span of human existence not even a brief line, and most of that history is only recorded in stone and dust and a few marks on cave walls.

Time is just big. Really really big.

Reading up on late neolithic Britain. The stone circle builders! ...

2026-03-28T18:15:23Z

Reading up on late neolithic Britain. The stone circle builders! Who were they?? What was their society like?? And what the everloving fuck *happened*???

"Chambered tombs were blocked up and abandoned, implying that people were ceasing to use them as cultic sites... Various archaeologists have suggested that this was a period of particular turmoil within the British Isles"

There is just so much time, it makes my brain ache.

"Centre for Long-Term Resilience" is a name which might ...

2026-03-28T10:57:03Z

"Centre for Long-Term Resilience" is a name which might as well be made of red flags

( [@davidgerard](https://circumstances.run/@davidgerard ) )

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2026/mar/27/number-of-ai-chatbots-ignoring-human-instructions-increasing-study-says

Strength is flooding back 🤗. I think the silly little hill ...

2026-03-28T10:44:46Z

Strength is flooding back 🤗. I think the silly little hill sprints last week might have given me a solid metabolic kick (which would explain how I've felt in the days following the silly little hill sprints, ie pretty fucking ruined fading to a pleasant buzz of tiredness)