Nostr notes by Artemis

My path is obviously not the only path to that (please don't ...

2026-07-06T13:28:50Z

In reply to nevent1q…g5xs
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My path is obviously not the only path to that (please don't think I'm saying "all older siblings are bad people" or something like that! That'd be an awful thing to imply), but it was one path to get there.

Aside from bullying, being a younger sibling in a big fam can give you an opportunity to develop more perspective on the concept of "other people", I think. From birth, you're thrown into a complex world where everyone else has a headstart. You have to be a student of people to survive.

Watching Creature Commandos: why is Rick Flagg making all these ...

2026-07-05T14:27:41Z

Watching Creature Commandos: why is Rick Flagg making all these terrible decisions?

Watching Peacemaker Season 2: Oh, because he's an arrogant dumbass! Got it.

@nprofile…eeh7 You mean, you don't want to spend hundreds ...

2026-07-02T14:12:18Z

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You mean, you don't want to spend hundreds of dollars on surveillance glasses & then pay $20/month for very limited use of a fairly common technology? Wild.

Suppose you could through constant labor, strenuous planning, ...

2026-07-02T13:04:06Z

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Suppose you *could* through constant labor, strenuous planning, & deprivation manage to feed yourself & your family on a tiny budget, that would still be extreme poverty.

I hate that people who aren't in poverty try to explain to those who are "no, really, you can survive. You just need to find a way to suffer a little more."

The problem is not a lack of ingenuity & creativity. The problem is poverty. No one should have to struggle every moment of every day just to live.

"You can feed 4 people on $300 a month. In this video, I will ...

2026-07-02T13:04:06Z

"You can feed 4 people on $300 a month. In this video, I will show you how to make a thin rice gruel..."

(The first sentence is really from a real person. The second is what I assume came next)

>Conversation Focus, which boosts the audio of the person ...

2026-07-02T12:27:43Z

In reply to nevent1q…qq2x
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>Conversation Focus, which boosts the audio of the person you're speaking with so you can hear them better in loud environments.

Honestly, this sounds like one of the more useful features of Meta glasses.

You can have 3 hours per month without a subscription or 15 with one. A top limit of 15 hours per month even if you pay makes ktt seem like they don't *want* this feature to be used as an accessibility aid for people who are hard of hearing, even though that's it's most obvious benefit.

>the Conversation Focus feature runs on-device, meaning it ...

2026-07-02T12:27:43Z

In reply to nevent1q…mdta
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>the Conversation Focus feature runs on-device, meaning it doesn't need to head to Meta's servers for AI processing.

So they are limiting a feature they sold that costs them nothing when used.

Yeah, they want to take so much money from the silly people who bought these.

That's the most important thing to me with both DCU movies so ...

2026-06-26T13:10:51Z

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That's the most important thing to me with both DCU movies so far: tonally they are massively different but in both the evil ultimately is recognizable as the same evil we deal with in our real world.

It turns out that matters to me more than I knew.

I love superhero fantasies, but they are best when the hero is thwarting the kinds of evil things that I WISH we had a Superman or a Supergirl to deal with.

@nprofile…em57 Right on!

2026-06-23T19:06:19Z

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Right on!

My goal as a propagandist is to write persuasively enough that if ...

2026-06-23T18:39:47Z

My goal as a propagandist is to write persuasively enough that if I ever get arrested for my writing, it will be deemed too potent to give me a show trial because they won't want to draw any attention to it.

That's the standard of excellence I am striving for.

I once told my ex-SIL I was on a mood stabilizer medication, ...

2026-06-23T12:06:26Z

I once told my ex-SIL I was on a mood stabilizer medication, & she said that she had taken it to treat her epilepsy.

She had a very bad reaction to the medication, so she tried to convince me that it was bad for me, & I shouldn't be on it.

I'd just like to say to everyone: don't do that.

It was fucking frustrating to get lectured about a medication that was helping me because SHE had a bad reaction when it was prescribed to HER for a *completely* different reason.

I learned the phrase "I don't think I'm always right, ...

2026-06-22T20:00:07Z

In reply to nevent1q…dpwl
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I learned the phrase "I don't think I'm always right, but I always think I'm right," from someone I despise, but it's actually a fairly good reminder that we only ever understand things to the best of our abilities, & sometimes we're going to have to relearn things because we aren't *always* right.

Wow. I fucking hated writing this thread.

2026-06-18T16:44:35Z

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Wow.

I fucking *hated* writing this thread.

This thread brought to you by: my therapist asking me yesterday ...

2026-06-17T19:48:07Z

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This thread brought to you by:

my therapist asking me yesterday why I feel so afraid to be vulnerable & ask my friends for support when I need it.

None of this came up in that conversation, but I'm pretty sure that's what kicked it loose.

"People should have to use their real name/identity ...

2026-06-16T19:32:28Z

"People should have to use their real name/identity online."

Cool, cool, so if I wanted to write about my childhood trauma, I would effectively have to "name & shame" my parents & siblings?

Among many things that would do, it would make it impossible to be honest about abuse & trauma without also angering people you know or hurting people you love.

It's almost like certain people would really love it if we just shut up about abuse & oppression. Almost...

There are so many more interesting applications of the Purge than ...

2026-06-16T18:21:21Z

In reply to nevent1q…mnk5
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There are so many more interesting applications of the Purge than simply killing people, especially if the rich are going to hole up in bunkers with armed guards.

Climate defenders could get a lot done on Purge night.

The Purge: Revolution Can you be charged with conspiracy if you ...

2026-06-16T18:18:05Z

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The Purge: Revolution

Can you be charged with conspiracy if you do your conspiring on Purge night?

Encouraging my spouse to think of radicalizing his coworkers as ...

2026-06-16T15:31:37Z

Encouraging my spouse to think of radicalizing his coworkers as his "real job" & his work as a Store Manager as a cover.

Asexuals belong at Pride. Asexuals belong in queer spaces. ...

2026-06-16T14:47:16Z

Asexuals belong at Pride. Asexuals belong in queer spaces. Asexuals deserve to be heard & believed & accepted.

And don't let nobody replace the "A" in LGBTQIA with "ally". Allies don't erase people.

I couldn't figure it out. I couldn't figure out why they ...

2026-06-15T16:09:21Z

In reply to nevent1q…5p0c
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I couldn't figure it out.

I couldn't figure out why they kept belittling me when it was *so obvious* it really hurt me.

But they learned it was ok to hurt me & that my pained reaction was *not* ok.

I kept just begging "please stop! It really hurts that you don't care how I feel," & I would get too loud or too angry, & that meant another punishment.

It's important to spread the word about how to change the ...

2026-06-12T17:11:44Z

In reply to nevent1q…9rtj
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It's important to spread the word about how to change the world, but *remember that we are at war*.

Think, act, & speak strategically.

Whatever it is that you think you need to do, you probably want to do as much of it as you can as effectively as possible. That means not creating unnecessary obstacles for yourself.

It can be good to set some quiet goals that you may not end up telling anyone about.

It's not that I think no one should ever take risks or push ...

2026-06-12T16:56:17Z

In reply to nevent1q…wmjx
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It's not that I think no one should ever take risks or push boundaries. Quite the opposite! I just want us all to think about what we want to accomplish & be very intentional.

And mind you, we aren't all trying to accomplish the same thing.

The end goal is the same, I hope, but you & I may be doing 2 very different things that require us to make different choices.

Best practices for anything will depend on what you want to get done & what you would need to do it.

Periodic reminder to watch what you write about acts of ...

2026-06-12T16:49:15Z

Periodic reminder to watch what you write about acts of resistance you intend to carry out or would like others to carry out.

Just be aware that your words may be read by less-than-friendly parties.

It's a tricky balancing act, because you want to get the word out about stuff without bringing heat down on yourself or anyone else.

Think strategically. Choose your words carefully & decide where you should talk/write about what.

I think a factor in someone showing up to explain the Wikipedia ...

2026-06-09T18:31:57Z

In reply to nevent1q…mwhz
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I think a factor in someone showing up to explain the Wikipedia definition of eugenics to me is that they probably feel they have no skin in the game.

They aren't concerned about where they are getting their information or how complete it is because this issue is not really important to them.

To them, this is purely academic—an argument over definitions, not over real-life harm happening to real people right now. They want to debate the harm completely removed from the people experiencing it.

@nprofile…v3r3 LOL. Learned it where? Highschool?

2026-06-09T16:12:00Z

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LOL. Learned it where? Highschool?

@nprofile…v3r3 Also, if you scrolled up 2 posts on this thread, ...

2026-06-09T14:35:25Z

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Also, if you scrolled up 2 posts on this thread, you would have heard of it before replying.

Your definition of eugenics is far too narrow & does not account for systemic/societal factors.

It's not an individual problem. It is a systemic problem perpetuated by stigma, misinformation, & prejudice.

@nprofile…v3r3 Doctors letting people develop fatal illnesses ...

2026-06-09T14:14:28Z

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Doctors letting people develop fatal illnesses & die because they won't investigate their health issues or treat them due to fatness is eugenics.

If you don't share any of my values, but you show up in my ...

2026-06-08T17:48:28Z

If you don't share any of my values, but you show up in my replies trying to "argue" with me, you're just showing everyone that you are absolutely fucking *desperate* for attention.

There is no reason to reply with 1,000s of characters-worth of your opinions when we don't share the most basic beliefs about what is good, just, & right.

People often disagree with my analysis of things, & that's good & expected. If you disagree about human rights & dignity though, why would I talk to you?

Fatphobia is still widely accepted, & this is a fucking ...

2026-06-08T14:06:52Z

In reply to nevent1q…x4rf
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Fatphobia is still widely accepted, & this is a fucking problem for every marginalized group, because it is a tool to train us that *some people* do not deserve dignity.

It may not *seem* like the most pressing of bigotries, but I think a big part of its function is to train us all from childhood that human dignity is not inherent, & that it is ok to select targets for abuse as long as they are the "right" target.

It's not surprising when the capitalists need to increase ...

2026-06-08T14:02:52Z

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It's not surprising when the capitalists need to increase their authoritarian control to be able to keep destroying the world that they would ratchet up the pressure on *everyone*—not just women—to obsess over controlling their bodies & expend all their energy on molding themselves into the "right" shape.

And those who can't or won't do that? They are to be socially punished for failing to submit to control. It is acceptable to punish them because they are existing incorrectly.

Oppression requires control. The fact that we are taught to abuse ...

2026-06-08T13:58:58Z

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Oppression requires control. The fact that we are taught to abuse our bodies & police the bodies of others is not some accident. Not really.

You are supposed to learn to conform & especially to fear the suffering that people inflict on you for non-conformity. Ideally (for the purposes of oppression), you would also learn to punish others for their non-conformity.

Fatphobia is a tool of the enemy, my friends. It is a way we are trained to hurt ourselves & each other.

Access to rights & dignity are supposedly locked behind ...

2026-06-08T13:53:58Z

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Access to rights & dignity are supposedly locked behind body-control, & you are supposed to think that if only you had the "right" body, all would be well with you, & that the fact that all is not well with you is supposed to be the proof that there is something wrong with your body.

Bullshit.

Your rights are trampled & you live a life of constant indignities because of oppression, not because there is something fucking wrong with you that you need to fix before you can have good things.

Fatphobia & fat shaming are always harmful. I'm pretty ...

2026-06-08T13:50:36Z

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Fatphobia & fat shaming are always harmful.

I'm pretty damn disturbed by seeing the pressures men & boys are under for meeting a body ideal too. I could be wrong, but it seems like those pressures have intensified over the last couple decades.

It's sick & twisted. It does nothing to promote health. Just suffering—both physical & mental.

Your body is not shameful. Your body is not the cause of the things you suffer. It's a fucking distraction from the real sources of suffering.

Skinny white women are the ideal. The ideal woman is a white ...

2026-06-08T13:40:28Z

In reply to nevent1q…79xd
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*Skinny* white women are the ideal. The ideal woman is a white woman who has dedicated her very life to the god of white supremacist patriarchy.

In part, it's a declaration of loyalty. All the meals she eats (or doesn't) are like ritual sacrifices to be allowed participation in the hierarchy of white supremacy.

Is that what we want other women to aspire to? To be made into acceptable tools of the kyriarchy?

This shit is also inextricably tied to white supremacy ...

2026-06-08T13:40:28Z

In reply to nevent1q…cp9p
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This shit is also inextricably tied to white supremacy (patriarchy & white supremacy are thoroughly intertwined into a single system).

The body that women are pressured to have is specifically & intentionally a white body ideal.

It is not an ideal that most white women naturally meet, but it ...

2026-06-08T13:40:28Z

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It is not an ideal that most white women naturally meet, but it is defined by difference to body shapes more common among folks of African descent.

Training a young girl to meet this standard is training her to access the benefits of white supremacy & uphold its cultural power.

I swear to God though this is just an observation. Although I ...

2026-06-05T21:25:25Z

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I swear to God though this is just an observation.

Although I think there may be a thing there about imperialism & colonialism & how people adapt their way of speaking differently depending on the social forces & other influences around them, I am not a dialect expert even in my own country, let alone in others, so I really am not equipped.

I just happen to have an ear that listens closely to how people speak & sometimes my ear says "huh. That seems different to me."

@nprofile…rcnq There's a fuzzy area when it comes to words ...

2026-06-05T19:42:14Z

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There's a fuzzy area when it comes to words passing into the lexicon. Is "croissant" a French word or is it an English word derived from French?

But again, it's not about correct pronunciation at all. It's a feature of spoken American English that people tend to pronounce non-English words using a different set of pronunciation rules than they use in their ordinary speech. One feature is lengthening vowels, for instance "a" will frequently be long instead of short.

Of course, in the US, pronouncing words from other languages as ...

2026-06-05T17:03:52Z

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Of course, in the US, pronouncing words from other languages as if they were American English *is* a common way people deliberately signal bigotry, which is probably why it sounds so rude to me.

Most people I converse with tend to sort of apologetically stumble through non-English words with a degree of bewilderment (unless they are familiar Spanish words). Is it great? Is it culturally sensitive? Not really, but it is a signal of "I'm not trying to be deliberately disrespectful."

For so many people, it's always the next thing: "I'll ...

2026-06-04T22:08:57Z

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For so many people, it's always the next thing:

"I'll be happy when I get that promotion." "I'll be happy when I buy a house/car/boat/you-name-it."
"I'll be happy when I get married/have children/have more children/have grandbabies"
"I'll be happy when I'm able to afford the nice things that my friends have."
"I'll be happy when I move to this place."

It is hard to watch people go through those cycles, over & over & over.

I wish I had more songs from my childhood, but unfortunately the ...

2026-06-04T19:53:43Z

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I wish I had more songs from my childhood, but unfortunately the songs that were most dear & personal to me then are deeply rooted in a religion I no longer practice.

But it's fine anyway, I suppose. You don't stay the same person you were forever. No one does.

Generative AI alienates us from ourselves. It exchanges your ...

2026-06-03T18:25:39Z

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Generative AI alienates us from ourselves.

It exchanges your creativity for an averaged-out approximation of something a person might make. Which person? No one in particular. Certainly not you.

Making art may also be the one time in your life where you get ...

2026-06-03T18:19:43Z

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Making art may also be the one time in your life where you get free choice.

When I'm in flow, I don't think about or evaluate my choices. I just do what feels right. It's so incredible. No choices are right or wrong. They just are, & they are all mine to make.

I don't think asking a machine to shit out a work product gives you that same experience of freedom of choice. Instead of making every choice for yourself, you can choose any of the pre-made options it gives you.

Looks like I forgot to post these ones when I finished them! ...

2026-06-03T16:08:52Z

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Looks like I forgot to post these ones when I finished them!

#MakingArt

Some of my latest works I'm proud of. The watercolors (second ...

2026-06-03T15:57:09Z

In reply to nevent1q…hhjx
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Some of my latest works I'm proud of. The watercolors (second image) were painted while sitting with Spouse in the little corner of our garage we cleared out so we could spend more time outside(ish).

#MakingArt

Sometimes I kind of like the impermanence of "lower ...

2026-06-03T15:39:00Z

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Sometimes I kind of like the impermanence of "lower quality" art supplies.

I make a vibrant, colorful ink painting & think "this will fade someday", & then I start to get curious & excited about what it will look like as it fades & how that may change how I experience it.

Someday some of the things I make will just crumble away entirely, but that's not so bad. All things end. Everything is impermanent, & yet we make art anyway.

But seriously: "better quality" art supplies will give ...

2026-06-03T15:29:01Z

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But seriously: "better quality" art supplies will give you a more consistent result & allow you to refine your artworks in a way that may not be possible with cheaper or improvised art supplies, but not having them should never stop you & should certainly never cause you shame.

I make art out of everything now because I can't think of a reason not to.

I've mentioned going to a Christian funeral recently that was ...

2026-06-03T15:25:38Z

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I've mentioned going to a Christian funeral recently that was frustrating & upsetting because I felt like the deceased person (my great aunt) was being erased by religion.

I took the program with her obituary & painted my anger onto it. There's a good possibility I won't ever share that with anyone, but I'm glad I did it. It gave me a chance to do something with my feelings about it.

It's art even if you don't show anyone else.

We would of course be building a society that is not centered ...

2026-06-02T17:46:44Z

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We would of course be building a society that is not centered around money & wage labor, but they aren't invited to that. Basically everyone else is, but not them.

"Get a job" doesn't actually mean "go earn a wage," after all. It means "fuck off. I don't care if you live or die."

I'm sorry, I am terribly amused by the idea of giving ex ...

2026-06-02T16:31:18Z

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I'm sorry, I am terribly amused by the idea of giving ex billionaires the homeless treatment (while we house everyone else).

It's fucking funny to imagine chasing Bezos off every time he tries to lie down to sleep or stealing & throwing away anything any of them manage to acquire every time they turn their back.

Give them the real "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" experience where you must survive in a system that takes & destroys absolutely everything that you have as often as possible.

Just dispossess them of all their wealth & make them live in ...

2026-06-02T16:21:49Z

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Just dispossess them of all their wealth & make them live in the world they built.

We'll work on building a different world for ourselves of course, but I think we should respect & let them live by their deeply held belief that no one is entitled to the things that they need to live.

They are willing to kill everyone else in the entire world for that belief, so you know they are serious about it.

It would only be right to let them live by their principles.

Tbh, guillotines are great, but have you ever thought of just ...

2026-06-02T16:14:30Z

In reply to nevent1q…py5w
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Tbh, guillotines are great, but have you ever thought of just forcing billionaires to take care of themselves, day in & day out, without any assistance from anyone?

Like... we'll tell everyone that they're just not allowed to help Elon Musk with anything.

Yes, *we* share the fruits of our labors with each other, but Elon is a rugged individualist, so we shall respect that & let him live out his dream.

If you catch Bezos sleeping on a park bench, you have to run him off or take him to jail.

Is that the hope with a dinner with one of these guys? What else ...

2026-06-02T15:36:58Z

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Is that the hope with a dinner with one of these guys? What else is there? Surely they know the dude isn't going to respect them. Right?

No, the guys who fantasize about this shit think they are Neo or John Galt or somebody extra special.

There are people out there thinking "if only I got a chance to show them how special I am, I could be a billionaire."

I was going to pick Sam Altman (deceased), but I kept scrolling ...

2026-06-02T15:22:44Z

I was going to pick Sam Altman (deceased), but I kept scrolling & saw "Steve Jobs (deceased)", so I guess they mean "predeceased." You don't get to choose to have the dinner guest killed. 🫤

Is thinking about your death a "bad thought"? Are people ...

2026-06-01T15:55:46Z

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Is thinking about your death a "bad thought"?

Are people really trained to shut down reflections on the most basic facts of life as though there is something wrong or dangerous about contemplating simple reality?

Who is telling people that thinking about those things is bad, & how do you get people to stop chasing away every uncomfortable thought once they've learned the habit? Can we create a culture where it's normal to be aware of our own impermanence? Or is that too much to ask?

A lot of people just constantly shove down all their unpleasant ...

2026-06-01T15:51:04Z

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A lot of people just constantly shove down all their unpleasant thoughts & ignore all their uncomfortable questions, huh?

Is this how it goes? "Hmm. I wonder what will happen when I die. What does it even mean to die? What remains of us afterwards? Wait! That's a bad thought. Don't think about that!"

If you're able to acknowledge that we all age & die ...

2026-06-01T15:46:23Z

If you're able to acknowledge that we all age & die eventually, congratulations! You are ahead of most people, it would seem.

The amount of denial people have about aging is absolutely wild. If you've been watching people get old your whole life, how have you not been mentally preparing yourself for this reality in your own life?

Why don't we learn to handle change & death, given that these are constants in all of our lives? Time passes, things change, & all living things eventually die.

It's pretty damn disingenuous to act like "Land Back" ...

2026-05-29T16:57:41Z

It's pretty damn disingenuous to act like "Land Back" is a call for people to make people homeless when we have a "housing crisis" caused by private entities hoarding housing & the land that it's built on.

Think about blighted commercial properties "owned" by corporations that have abandoned them but will not give them up for community use.

Think about 6 lane roads & giant parking lots in a wasteland of chain stores.

Think about the destruction of ecosystems & pollution of our drinking water.

What the actual fuck. This is why I never, ever console someone ...

2026-05-28T21:07:15Z

What the actual fuck.

This is why I never, ever console someone with "you did your best", because I've always felt like "doing your best" was kind of an abusive concept.

The biggest mistake of the online "manosphere" was to ...

2026-05-28T13:45:35Z

In reply to nevent1q…vt0c
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The biggest mistake of the online "manosphere" was to host the conversations men only have with other men where anyone could stumble across them.

I know now that many of the men in my former community were having these conversations, but I never saw it because they only happen when women aren't around.

But then these dickweeds decided to start posting it all online for us ALL to observe how certain men speak about women when they aren't around.

And have they backed off on their ridiculous demands just because ...

2026-05-28T13:28:34Z

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And have they backed off on their ridiculous demands just because it isn't working for them? No! They are literally out there calling every woman with a belly pooch disgusting while complaining that women won't have their babies.

These contradictions can function when you have women trapped & under control. Without having the control, however, it's all very counterproductive.

Being a woman right now feels like having people scream ...

2026-05-28T13:24:32Z

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Being a woman right now feels like having people scream absolutely horrible things in your face & then pout & complain that you don't appreciate them. It's being a target for hatred from people who expect in return that you will coddle their fragile male egos.

These men don't realize we are human. That's pretty clear because they don't think in terms of "what would incentivize a person to go along with what I want?"

It's hard to incentivize women to want this when the ...

2026-05-28T13:20:37Z

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It's hard to incentivize women to want this when the "incentives" are just severely curtailed versions of the rights we enjoy right now because we fought to not have them denied to us.

The contradictions we are expected to inhabit are getting so ...

2026-05-28T12:41:42Z

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The contradictions we are expected to inhabit are getting so massive.

Thinness is being pushed harder than ever at the same moment that they are trying to pressure women into repeatedly doing something that will leave their body irrevocably changed in ways they cannot control.

And we're all supposed to just stomach this? Carry all the pressure to do literally incompatible things? Nah, come on! We're not doing this bullshit.

How is pressuring women to be rail thin with flat bellies ...

2026-05-28T12:34:21Z

How is pressuring women to be rail thin with flat bellies compatible with trying to pressure them to have babies?

In the church culture I was in, yes, thin women were in some ways celebrated & extra special, but they couldn't really denigrate women with squishy bodies too much when you are trying to convince them they need to have 5-10 babies.

How is heroin chic compatible with "oh no, the birth rates"?

I want to be clear, I love the messaging within I Love Boosters, ...

2026-05-28T11:48:42Z

I want to be clear, I love the messaging within I Love Boosters, but it's also a fucking good film that looks amazing & made me laugh out loud a lot.

When I say you should see this movie it's not just because I agree with the politics. It's beautiful & funny & bizarre.

One problem they are running into is that they can't deskill ...

2026-05-27T20:47:22Z

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One problem they are running into is that they can't deskill people fast enough.

People are still going to make art. People are still going to write programs. People are still going to keep putting out human creations.

If everyone quit making art tomorrow, AI slop would seem a lot more viable, but these annoying artists won't fucking quit just because they aren't being paid for a work product.

If AI shit were actually good, they wouldn't have to lie ...

2026-05-27T20:44:16Z

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If AI shit were actually good, they wouldn't have to lie & tell you a human made it.

If AI were really as good & as desired as its proponents say ...

2026-05-27T20:43:04Z

If AI were really as good & as desired as its proponents say it is, they wouldn't be trying to deceive people into thinking AI "art" was made by humans.

The fact that they pull that deception tells you that they have no actual confidence in the product.

I am so, so, so grateful to my mom that she never shamed my body ...

2026-05-27T13:23:04Z

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I am so, so, so grateful to my mom that she never shamed my body or my sisters' & that even though she had insecurities about her large body, it didn't ever reach the top of her list of concerns.

Her mom was a fucking reflexive fat-shamer (couldn't fucking help herself), so there is something my mother decided NOT to pass on to us.

It's genuinely upsetting to me finding how important weight is to so many women's identities when in our house that just... wasn't a thing.

There was a video going around of a woman telling other women to ...

2026-05-27T13:23:04Z

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There was a video going around of a woman telling other women to "act their weight" because apparently this bitch was under the ridiculous impression that a person's value & worth is related to the size of their body.

Yeah, I know that's in the air we breathe, culturally, but I still find it absurd.

I sympathize deeply with women's internalized shame about their bodies, but I laugh at the externalized judgement because fuck you, that's an absolutely inane thing to care about.

I see these TikTok videos where a woman pronounces the words ...

2026-05-27T13:13:32Z

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I see these TikTok videos where a woman pronounces the words "150 pounds" while guessing what she thinks another woman weighs, as though she's describing a hideous malady. I feel kind of sad for them, because it sounds like they are just admitting that they have no true friendships.

If you look at another person & the first thing you think about is their weight, you must be soooo fucking lonely!

And I just find it fucking weird. Maybe it's just because my ...

2026-05-27T13:09:54Z

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And I just find it fucking weird.

Maybe it's just because my mommy didn't fatshame me as a child, but I find it really fucking weird all the women out there who have opinions about what other people (especially other women) weigh.

That's WEIRD.

You know what I think is weird? The people who think they know ...

2026-05-27T13:08:23Z

You know what I think is weird? The people who think they know what someone's body must look like based on how much it weighs, especially when they talk about it completely divorced from other factors like height.

How are there fat shaming motherfuckers out there who think they know what "180 pounds" looks like (or whatever)? That's really not how this works. They use these numbers not to mean weight but as stand-ins for something else.

I genuinely find it weird. Like, why are you using physical ...

2026-05-27T13:08:23Z

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I genuinely find it weird.

Like, why are you using physical measurements if that's not what this is fucking about?

And it's not. Because these people may weigh themselves obsessively, but they don't fucking know what someone else weighs or what a certain weight looks like on a certain frame. When they see someone & make an assumption about what they "weigh", it's not an estimate that would match what that person sees on a scale, but a judgement of someone's value.

Religious abuse taught me to hate myself before I even knew who I ...

2026-05-22T18:36:56Z

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Religious abuse taught me to hate myself before I even knew who I was.

We are all evil since birth, said the church leaders. The job of parents is to punish the evil out of their children, they said.

I was so young, so innocent, & so desperate to please & to be loved. So I absorbed it all. I believed it all. I suffered it all.

The more patience I exhibited, the more was asked of me. I was always pushed beyond my limits, always straining so hard only to miss the mark anyway.

Yes, that's right: she "helped" me by criticizing ...

2026-05-21T19:47:03Z

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Yes, that's right: she "helped" me by criticizing what I did, wore, & said.

I helped her by tutoring her, helping do her laundry, & being a listening ear when she was upset.

It's probably pretty ok for me to be mad about that.

I really tried. I carry a bunch of guilt around because I ...

2026-05-21T19:42:50Z

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I really tried. I carry a bunch of guilt around because I constantly fear I have been too harsh on her, but I really, really, really tried.

She could make me feel like shit, & I would still help her with her homework. I gave & gave. For every time I exploded in anger, there are several more where I just fucking didn't respond to her casual cruelty.

I tried to share myself with her until I realized that she only wanted to receive my care & attention. She didn't want to give it.

A lot of my hypervigilence around other people seems to be ...

2026-05-21T17:51:37Z

A lot of my hypervigilence around other people seems to be related to making sure people don't ask me questions about what I'm doing & why, & the thing about that is, I developed that defensive posture at a time when I didn't have tools for dealing with being questioned pointlessly like "fuck off" & "why do you care?"

There was a time in my life where for various reasons it felt ...

2026-05-21T17:51:37Z

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There was a time in my life where for various reasons it felt that I must always be ready to explain all my behavior whenever asked. That's hard to do.

It's easier to avoid being noticed or asked any questions than it is to defend & explain any random action that caused no harm to anyone but which someone flagged as "odd" or misinterpreted.

I just rewatched the 2021 Candyman, & damn! It is a good ...

2026-05-21T16:07:06Z

I just rewatched the 2021 Candyman, & damn! It is a good fucking film.

It's a film about Black trauma that also interrogates how Black trauma is presented, interpreted, & exploited through art.

It's beautifully & creatively shot, demonstrating that in the right hands a horror film can be wonderful art.

#NiaDaCosta #Candyman2021

I could have saved myself a lot of time if I would've just ...

2026-05-21T16:07:06Z

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I could have saved myself a lot of time if I would've just left my ex-boyfriend after we watched that together & he was clearly upset about the film's conclusion where vengeance comes for the cops (who just murdered a Black man).

I was deep in a web of manipulation at the time, but if I were thinking more clearly, I could have seen what that meant in that context. ACAB, motherfuckers, ESPECIALLY when it comes to racial violence.

I sometimes see people say "I can't practice mindfulness ...

2026-05-21T15:29:32Z

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I sometimes see people say "I can't practice mindfulness because I have ADHD", & while I don't show up in their mentions telling them they are doing it wrong, it often seems like they feel that way because they have been poorly taught, which saddens me.

It is NOT true that having a busy brain that responds to all kinds of stimuli (& creates its own stimuli when not enough is available) means you can't practice mindfulness in a beautiful & beneficial way. You may benefit from it more than many.

Mindfulness is a practice. It's something you do actively, ...

2026-05-21T15:19:57Z

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Mindfulness is a practice. It's something you do actively, not a passive state of mind. When you do it, you improve your capacity for it even more.

It's fine if the practice of mindfulness is not for you. That's your choice, but if you *do* want to practice mindfulness but feel like you fail at it, give yourself some grace & let go of the self-judgment. Even when you are "failing" at it, you are participating in the practice.

Recommended reading: You Are Here by Thich Nhat Han.

I think I got this from Pema Chodron, but it is also related to ...

2026-05-21T15:13:34Z

I think I got this from Pema Chodron, but it is also related to teaching from Thich Nhat Han.

If you are practicing mindfulness, then one of the things you will become aware of is how much thinking you do that pulls you out of the present moment. You are being mindful of *yourself* when you perceive that. You are observing yourself without judgement or anger.

You label the thoughts "thinking" & allow them to pass. That's part of the practice, not a failure.

So Trump dumped a bunch of money into the primaries to get ...

2026-05-21T12:47:02Z

So Trump dumped a bunch of money into the primaries to get pro-Trump Republican candidates...

Is he going to commit the same money to the general election?

Gotta be honest, I doubt it.

@nprofile…4eh0 I love it!

2026-05-20T13:53:20Z

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I love it!

So we really need to come up with solutions to make the living ...

2026-05-20T12:33:09Z

So we *really* need to come up with solutions to make the living Internet (the part with real people) navigable, huh?

This isn't just obnoxious. This is an effort to make sure you don't find anything on your own or stumble into anything unexpected.

I used to be an expert at using Google to find stuff, but it's been years since any of that worked.

So I think that's kind of the sticking point. If I'm ...

2026-05-19T17:18:02Z

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So I think that's kind of the sticking point. If I'm really unmasking, then I'm not going to be predictable. I'm going to have different energy sometimes.

It's not so much that I fear that unmasking through the PMDD symptoms would make me an asshole. I'm more afraid of being a disappointment & a "bummer".

I think one of the struggles I have here is that I kind of HAVE ...

2026-05-19T17:18:02Z

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I think one of the struggles I have here is that I kind of HAVE tried this in the past, but if people expect the "Tigger" version of me at their social event & I show up with distinct "Eeyore" energy, it seems to really disappoint.

I think I do try to give people a consistent experience of me ...

2026-05-19T17:10:40Z

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I think I do try to give people a consistent experience of me even though as mentioned in this thread, I don't actually have a consistent experience of myself.

I don't know what it would mean to stop forcing myself into that. Could I just be quiet & moody for a week & a half out of every 4 as long as I'm not a dick to anyone?

Is it ok to not be ok?

Normally I disguise this quite well & people only ...

2026-05-19T17:05:35Z

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Normally I disguise this quite well & people only occasionally get glimpses of how I'm feeling. Now I feel like if I continue with the "being myself" thing, I'm about to become very unpleasant. I don't want to carry the load of disguising everything I feel & experience, but how do I let go of that when at least 1/4 of the time I feel that I'm easily annoyed & reactive?

Maybe it will be easier & I will experience less distress if I don't mask my way through it though? Maybe?

It's one thing to say I'm going to stop filtering myself ...

2026-05-19T17:05:35Z

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It's one thing to say I'm going to stop filtering myself & masking when I'm at a point in my cycle where I feel grounded, but I guess I don't know how to picture unmasking while in distress.

I realized it was Hormone Disaster Time because my spouse was concerned about me earlier. I was quiet & moody, & it worried him. I don't know what to do with that.

I guess I don't know what to do with my PMDD in light of my ...

2026-05-19T16:57:25Z

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I guess I don't know what to do with my PMDD in light of my unmasking journey. Do I stop pretending to be ok when I'm in the throes of hormonal bullshit? Do I stop filtering myself to please others even when I'm especially irritable?

Am I even "allowed" to cut down on masking if the "me" underneath is exhausted & grumpy? Is that okay? How much honesty is too much?

The best part is that I get to look forward to going through the ...

2026-05-19T16:50:03Z

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The best part is that I get to look forward to going through the hell of perimenopause before I'm finally done with this period bullshit.

I don't believe in "intelligent design" because the user experience of piloting this flesh-mech is pretty shit. If someone designed this, they were not good at their job & did not go through the QA process. 😅

Anyway, I give menstruation a 1/10 & do not recommend.

2026-05-19T16:38:48Z

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Anyway, I give menstruation a 1/10 & do not recommend.

When my parents gave me the full picture that I would most likely ...

2026-05-19T16:35:00Z

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When my parents gave me the full picture that I would most likely be dealing with the negative mental/emotional impact of this stupid hormonal cycle for 40 years or so, that's when I started to wonder if being a woman actually *was* a curse from God.

I don't believe in God anymore, so I guess that's not it, but damn. It really, truly feels like a curse.

It's so fucking scary to think about trying to do anything to relieve it because it might fuck up my barely existing equilibrium even more.

At minimum, 2 out of every 4 weeks suck for me because of my ...

2026-05-19T16:22:44Z

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At minimum, 2 out of every 4 weeks suck for me because of my menstrual cycle. That's such fucking bullshit.

Some people seem to think the US consists of "the east ...

2026-05-19T11:20:45Z

Some people seem to think the US consists of "the east coast" & California. That's...odd to me.

How come some people talk like most of this country doesn't exist, & why do they think that's an ok attitude to have?

@nprofile…euty @nprofile…9xcl Yeah, I'm under the ...

2026-05-18T14:28:24Z

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Yeah, I'm under the impression that most of the Europeans who think of themselves as living in one of the "good countries" think that in part because they personally have never put anything on the line to find out what happens to those who refuse to conform & obey. It's easy to feel free as long as you never step out of line.

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A lot of my hypervigilence around other people seems to be ...

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Wow. I fucking hated writing this thread.

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