2026-02-10T15:53:04+01:00 https://nostr.ae Wallflower 🌺 https://nostr.ae/npub1h7w9eewmzjzd8sm0jx6fkc268tjnwqdmsxjl7u0extfkud2zzsfqkczlyr https://media.beige.party/accounts/avatars/110/916/267/449/914/952/original/b5edf261220d5569.png https://media.beige.party/accounts/avatars/110/916/267/449/914/952/original/b5edf261220d5569.png https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsvh6psn7qcwf44qdg3auzamvu5cc8jy54sswq3zu946whlzwwm7fszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py8uagl6 I have major spring fever today but it&#39;s still quite cold.<br/><br/>What this means is I will now ratchet up until there is a warm sunny weekend in which I will head out back, clean up the beds, plant things, and then piss and moan about the money I wasted.<br/><br/>Lather. Rinse. Repeat. <br/><br/>At least I have predictable qualities? <br/><br/>It&#39;s hope. New life. New beginnings. Roll a new love over. 💜🌺<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/082/452/134/135/697/original/4ce6141b258c3d82.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-16T22:35:33+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsry628t2886tf5l38035t30efsnda6h4mlumrfk6e9k04f823rftszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py52927g Why does GenZ have such a hesitatation/avoidance/fear of talking on the phone?<br/><br/>My 24yo son gives out MY cell phone to places so that they call ME to say whatever...example that just happened: pharmacy near him called me.<br/><br/>When this happens, I then text him.<br/><br/>But<br/><br/>I&#39;m so salty about it that I start by saying things like, <br/>&#34;You gave my cell to (CVS). <br/><br/>Rude. <br/><br/>Your prescription is ready.&#34;<br/><br/>I should start *calling* him, except I know he won&#39;t answer, he&#39;ll text back &#34;what?&#34; 2026-02-16T20:07:57+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsxwerzawc7qatzsglrcxmj0257q4u7mykgnzhahyuq48nnnvzqz5szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjdwwk4 #monochromemonday<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/081/811/981/541/533/original/9f2a96cce5e5287a.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-16T19:52:06+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsr24kezsj2w8jcetxe44he6y283szznn6yyd7yury7fv4m9lu334szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py28pfk8 Always be on the lookout for the presence of wonder.<br/><br/>~E.B. White<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/080/417/140/557/746/original/abcc30a4bafade1b.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-16T14:02:52+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqst8088vmhngajph7zv0m6j2wkat0hnwl283rd74lhllhmazeecdpgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyknk7zx Like a hazy dream<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/076/516/580/724/480/original/843326891e3af2aa.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-15T21:25:28+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsxxy9cu9jc6df7uyxlsh3pu2kd9ahe4xef29hujl9ec6p9v80p27qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pytp7m2w In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsx3x85qjfdggwdhc36n94nxppul8xcvcpq74zjwrsxflkvgjtp9scc40m5w'>nevent1q…0m5w</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Thanks.<br/>I also ran it through a pastel filter and like it that way too.<br/>😊🩵💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/074/529/480/761/660/original/4346824a8871707d.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-15T13:00:46+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsf2939nmns693uwmltcdv6ngetclk9alsldejgucztkfvp0y70a9qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyvekntk Snow<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/074/403/279/012/006/original/49cd20ec583d52fa.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-15T12:30:37+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrpasgvu2r4u9mv6r3c2gdmfh9nalhrhcea3uhz245js867p5fjzqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywptzwv Good morning, friends<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/074/375/209/811/545/original/b3202cfa1ded0ffc.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-15T12:20:46+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsz6m78lz2ptyw9lvd4wa6f36dl5dmhvhdgvz27duh56k8e9xrxzcczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py5zmecl Full transparency:<br/><br/>I came in here earlier today to blow up my account.<br/><br/>Yes, kill it.<br/><br/>I will absolutely shake up my world like a snow globe if I feel like it is needed. New beginnings and whatnot.<br/><br/>Anyway, I came in and saw many messages to me simply telling me that I was missed, or waiting for my return.<br/><br/>Your messages impacted me. <br/>💜💞💜<br/>Thank you, my fedi friends and fam.🌺 2026-02-14T21:55:35+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgduwdn4dfk2xmxpfk7p5t3su8wd6x3u6z4q7nnyxu963a0lkw2kszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py6lve7d In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsdjz9gz6y7quevlp98yly4l6jh5gx5jlacvus5w4zlvvm4qskvq8q7use3w'>nevent1q…se3w</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>We are 52, some melting finally! <br/>Lots of people throwing logs on the ice trying to see if the ice breaks. Not yet. 2026-02-14T20:54:10+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsg38us9g3utt7jjltvf3c8kylf6wjk2kumhvvrp6zvppkg67y33jczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pya0rv30 <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/070/676/978/207/484/original/8017118cb79564ca.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-14T20:40:09+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs8x8jra9a9kdc84tyxkzm46j3aflyeh5dcpspvs4tz8w69prw2r7szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyewfll2 <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/070/516/676/377/014/original/c08a9d3183fde62c.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-14T19:59:22+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs8uzlyv2hn7vdy6dkjwtlvjd8up0tgqmcv9m246v0jv02ea629n0gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyl7d9jj Happy Valentine&#39;s Day<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/069/495/499/954/515/original/850e10f3e35e27cc.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-14T15:40:30+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs9y6ndt5vfke0jz60qu2rhqrhsa2phymalpaxaa4ssemud3raetxgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywwq904 The pop in...👋<br/><br/>It&#39;s like a friendly drive-by of light. 💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/065/500/674/445/004/original/02812eade92ad4fc.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-13T22:47:46+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsr66sezgjnq9awwe0avtc9qcs2j4k7sq7gnlf6l93krhz46a349gczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py9a6qaj Greatest (favorite) Primus song? (subjective) 2026-02-02T00:03:32+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsdxzzfheq9428af7rj6uehjf63lewqz8qaf690ma3frtm9zgj7nwqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywct05z In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsf78778mc38cyj64zzx0vrrpr7tkqe2jmluwqewc6w8jq72s3lc4q0fw96z'>nevent1q…w96z</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Hey, Jax, was thinking about your amaryllis earlier. Is it growing? 2026-02-01T22:09:04+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsp26cwgam6xwps4m63muvpp3pd802xlqppf7u46ygxtwen9ahdn9szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjml7cw <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/996/820/722/755/296/original/f255d289631c852c.jpg"> <br/> 2026-02-01T19:37:52+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs9pz64x7ta7x6anrylhx5y0zxv5dwv5y90a0ar20xgw7q3g8jwp2qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjg9f29 Okay, I am finally taking the tree down. Yes, I took my time.<br/><br/>Hope. Hope will continue in this house.<br/>New Jersey, once my home.<br/>2025, almost a very good year on a personal level. Almost.🤏 Missed it by this much.<br/>To a happy 2026.🥂🤞<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/991/142/056/251/519/original/14ffeabcac3d0f1a.jpg"> <br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/991/142/016/988/418/original/f4ae751b12df204f.jpg"> <br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/991/142/058/337/421/original/45f9908eef2092fb.jpg"> <br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/991/154/682/212/044/original/5c18a18a2d6385fc.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-31T19:38:12+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrx93jslfxlvepxhyw98sl2pr7k8udx072dc7yydx8nzpl27jvd5gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py53576p 🍄🍄🍄🍄<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/989/557/067/694/635/original/8fb93d52d3f9c31f.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-31T12:50:18+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsttnupdz3evs26fttt0fdpyfc0xdhpfgjqd0tvlfsyaqern0c0cyczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pym8jmqk On February 1, 2020, I was a nanosecond from walking out my garage door with my son to take him up to OSU (Columbus, OH) for an important HS track meet when my landline rang.<br/><br/>I paused to take the unusual call on a Saturday morning at about 7am.<br/><br/>It was my 2nd oldest brother and as soon as he said hi to me I knew the call was to tell me that my sister was dead. It was remarkably inherent to me. A call I had years anticipated given her drug and alcohol abuse. Before he said much of anything, I asked, &#34;is this about Lisa?&#34; &#34;Yes.&#34;<br/><br/>He let me know she passed either the 30th or 31st of January overnight in Costa Rica at our father&#39;s house. Heart attack. (Likely drug/alcohol induced. She was in her 50s.)<br/><br/>I then got in the car to take my son to his meet without letting on so that I would not ruin his momentum for his day. My mind for that first hour and a half drive running through so many emotions, regrets, my hours of that meet when my son wasn&#39;t running was spent posting on Twitter about her and her loss, who she was before she was overcome with addiction, who she became, the loss she became. I didn&#39;t tell my son until we got home, he had only met her once because of her addiction. He held me as I cried grieving her life. I then had to go to my mom&#39;s to tell her. I held her as she cried. RIP, Lisa.🕊🕯<br/><br/>So, anyway, this post is to remind people who might be suffering from addiction that if you can still read this, it is not too late to seek help. (That&#39;s why I have chosen not to content warn this.)<br/><br/>Please. Thank you. 💜 2026-01-31T12:23:12+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgtj0cw27mke8t93vqcjncmwsen08wt5f5s4s2he9tts7g4he36uqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyvcq9a3 🦋💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/974/709/810/500/281/original/90f9d187f72c0bc5.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-28T21:54:58+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsdn930xjjpk3x6a07zwq8xfjch86lf2xx8r2v0qym4x2ma26jx47gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyqd55mr In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqstc6jffslvxx7sfapqpwmx8268xfhuk0rhkvten02ekgg6tzeewfqy2gqal'>nevent1q…gqal</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>So true, I have been ready to move to February for a bit.<br/><br/>I should take the Christmas tree down this weekend 😳😅 2026-01-27T23:05:53+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs27hsuapxfm5hud6tzvudef60djeyw5pwu7fyfpmtvcxmuy4k0gqgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py3y7zkx In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqspr38669hytf7v8tw8m8l494ypm2v2qtt4cllc7lqssj7lvmgh43qpuudkx'>nevent1q…udkx</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Sigh, I don&#39;t think i will get to walk outside for weeks to come.😔<br/>So beautiful 2026-01-27T22:56:33+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsy3xpnzqttlv8akzd3mmgm4er9w7jfl0rkxprqs4nkkpy838gd60czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pylv0pvg Sunrise this morning<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/968/122/663/324/845/original/9fbd2df8595eee72.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-27T17:59:53+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsfuhvpqvujge0ada4tjz7kwr6ed8axn6060mts2mdrr66dxzlptrqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyys5gwm Cropped this pic differently and like it better<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/957/619/224/943/577/original/7353252e080d1e6d.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-25T21:29:21+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrggmlvk2je5ympdz3nwwa9008hyrycm0uvnqdr3ca9l2m6p4yahqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyln34nq I will forever be comforted<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/953/049/867/190/583/original/cdf47e17e3114e73.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-25T02:08:46+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgcf0fyzvpzqq463nfzv9cx73rryfsx3w4xfazrlf3ggn9w9as0vgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py5ejzf7 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs0gusknnfa26dpx6eekxsvv7s9dztq79ehe7vyvx3f6ldvw0g4hscm6rnt7'>nevent1q…rnt7</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>It says up to 15&#34; of snow, currently. 2026-01-24T23:47:08+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqspv5758wtprsldk2plwjeuu946097frgazryag4j80tk5g426sn2qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pycjrjs5 The snow has arrived 2026-01-24T23:40:52+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsy73kw6mqlsuk6jjcm3r759wxzxfm9cma7gzcnm6k2z4nrsg052uszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyth95rl Mood<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/951/568/580/786/933/original/f38533d46689dad7.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-24T19:49:47+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszxj487k5g03rxqmu0du7y6jfypcdguvg30tu29ks6h4r706ue39qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyk7jr9d Oh, WOW, y&#39;all ❣️❣️❣️<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/950/561/863/156/012/original/c5a8deb6877d6ad9.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-24T15:33:38+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqsnzvtuawlr4n948jep6rxxspsfu6k4679gk8hf7hdagnkqhp5hqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyq9uz8h Happy Saturday, friends💜<br/><br/>Hope you&#39;re able to stay warm and have a good shovel.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/950/057/525/126/471/original/9469853cda8ee281.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-24T13:25:46+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgz485m609fhggcv29f3002e2kr6avlpyj7njcptju996qpj4seyqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pytc90p4 If you didn&#39;t care what happened to me 💔<br/><br/>And I didn&#39;t care for you😔<br/><br/>We would zigzag our way through the boredom and pain...<br/><br/><a href="https://youtu.be/GfRWTg61W24?si=n4_Z0_c-BA68RPcw">https://youtu.be/GfRWTg61W24?si=n4_Z0_c-BA68RPcw</a> 2026-01-22T23:51:47+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqem5d0uqyj4xaatqpuh7v2fadee5fv09kyqx93jhsc6f9vrkzrwqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyrhzcr9 #CalmingGreen<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/939/390/008/796/331/original/07225016621a95f7.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-22T16:12:10+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsfrducv3lnuuur7gqvpl9k48sy3sw0mk3l9xkafq95dlatvq8a9kszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py8h2hcp Happy Friday-eve, friends 💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/938/221/761/657/314/original/51950a5273a9331b.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-22T11:14:41+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqv0kcrvd3vsjcqqas3rrjxs22ghac744qxg5fjw0fzxr99j3g0gszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pykgfd08 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs8wzs9x0ktjm7ya6e5x0v669ap736hkdhka7ry98nn6nwv34uuw3gd4e3cd'>nevent1q…e3cd</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I&#39;m kind of surprised that more unconditional love isn&#39;t leading here. 2026-01-22T00:20:44+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs8wzs9x0ktjm7ya6e5x0v669ap736hkdhka7ry98nn6nwv34uuw3gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pypphe04 This would fix me 2026-01-22T00:10:54+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqr2ngdkhsy776m5mdgtceuh5ue2425tsq49nexnaprxl6kq0m3xqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyer7ll3 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqstelmyfycuaulc6mgyxsxktfcg0su892w364vgwk75q4d3x7l96tqajpmwz'>nevent1q…pmwz</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I mean not too painful though, because I did at least get home...so that would be better than not getting home before it quit.<br/>🙃😔 2026-01-20T21:30:05+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqstelmyfycuaulc6mgyxsxktfcg0su892w364vgwk75q4d3x7l96tqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyp8degl I think my car just died when I pulled into the garage (the lights immediately went dark, when normally they stay on for a moment/on when door opens), but I&#39;m not even gonna try it until the morning.<br/><br/>2026 can get bent. Like Peyronie&#39;s. 2026-01-20T21:24:23+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqswyvjrr8yhywca7pe76qntzamllqa3t074wj02decw28wznp3447qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyrg73dr In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsd7fjuajulyxg6qxs7zm2frh0f5rv6zqm5t79m9dzvhe3uv9wh3tsl6h3j0'>nevent1q…h3j0</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>😁<br/>I&#39;m going to try to plant this after it finishes and try to get it to bloom again next year but I have never had one and am not exactly sure what to do with it. 2026-01-19T19:58:51+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs2d8pame8xg8vt0j73j29pfrgz4qz3sl50ggq6zl8dvwmqasdr35gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywxdhjx <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/923/208/933/280/556/original/6bb07d6fc3a300fe.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-19T19:37:24+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgztz0d4v4yjm3wys7me0qstl2ve3f20we7dlhet7zccr7ckv9jvczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyvmht7d The sky currently 💙<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/918/412/937/359/910/original/fc16bfffa08a2230.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-18T23:18:21+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsf6nh4g9smj7fzqsjtk5kh0g7rsmkhf7e6zmkdmcxtcs6wtpw9hzqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjv056z I liked the clouds today.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/912/687/805/336/669/original/ecc9243bbf88b6d1.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-17T23:02:12+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsw6e4wac84vdm2h9z6hfkrvhvzp5h9zf96pjqqytdcs8ddwytwepgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pykrlvl6 This isn&#39;t a typical sighting on my walks<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/911/618/243/979/922/original/49c0a08a68c6a9cc.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-17T18:30:49+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsxp9ecdnw0w2yv5drnyspsl5kwvdjf6auvd5rv86frqhlhdv8f8ygzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pytnpnfm #icetodon<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/911/519/468/955/852/original/a1f4827e53692376.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-17T18:04:27+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsyujf2sew4gnwy7vs8vawg5h4gmcx9mm8gl89y9knd3kcz09gn57czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pycwc02y In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsxhq56eu48zyntnsgdl3enefxpgjyka9xdg3jkp0u7u63wtq0rm5s8zhkmh'>nevent1q…hkmh</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Sick of winter but I&#39;m going to enjoy the day.<br/><br/>Hope you have a wonderful day, in spite of the lack of sleep. 2026-01-17T14:57:48+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsy7ka3qnntmkumrg9wvfqvhw2kjwxejs653vcq70fyk79ksa9fu5czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyvgx87k And into the woods I go, to lose my mind and find my soul.<br/>John Muir<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/910/691/426/661/062/original/a3f2e7bf53be8b10.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-17T14:34:51+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsq8xvruve4df432sjrmgr07qrt9ql7z3n5zqqkfvn225y88jduffgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pych59pr Salsify. <br/>Such a fun word to say. <br/>Second only to sassafras.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/910/063/711/688/261/original/b02c4c3875ad7d36.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-17T11:56:41+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsw3347vrcrslwfjmm90ku4hz83fd349xx0enhjanrl69jxv2lywzgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py04ct6d I woke up at 1am thinking I was late for work.<br/><br/>I got all the way downstairs and let the dogs out before realizing the true time on the coffee maker. (It took me longer to realize the day.)<br/><br/>I didn&#39;t want to risk more walking keeping me awake, so got onto the sofa and fell back to sleep until floof said &#34;feed me&#34; by ringing the bells on the back door.<br/><br/>Giving bells to an intelligent dog has some drawbacks. Be warned.<br/><br/>To help me through this, I made pancakes and bacon for breakfast. <br/>😋🥓🥞 2026-01-17T11:27:36+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs9nq95dt2ty5ds5s9nzjm6muwrzphpjn4s0rgs7pdlse9vfned0wczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py9ah3uf In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqswkv52u7vjh8n5fg5lhmzpnnjykvgmd5f2q6dnzj35fp5mw4k95tcmx25a4'>nevent1q…25a4</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Thank you.💜<br/>Right before it happened, I thought &#34;why isn&#39;t this perforated? I hope I don&#39;t stab myself.&#34;<br/>I knew the risks...<br/>Evergreen. 2026-01-17T00:35:39+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsfyxasywwctwjgkhu6tw7wk0r6qpfzcy4n5y6jspsf2mcq4qdy4qczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py7rt8j6 Just achieved the best thing that&#39;s happened to me in 2026 so far.<br/><br/>Stabbed myself in the hand.<br/><br/>Let us rejoice.<br/><br/>I&#39;m okay, I won&#39;t need stitches and my nails are all good. 2026-01-17T00:28:10+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsv3tmy2xfyukckxlyc466waddnydxnwlwn6jmmesrf3nqc83e0kcqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pylaagdh Mood<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/905/635/396/439/621/original/82d4b5201e9bebcf.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-16T17:09:20+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqst0cy7xltf7zc7q40y5zcvfp4k0dp8asjqx3z97zwqwjpg8jvn95gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyqj352a In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsgcfhr7ctkr5grc28r58u0p3mvf68pwdxekmqhugzuugdtktv0zlqu2x4ed'>nevent1q…x4ed</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I always tell myself that I need one (for my woods trips) 2026-01-16T00:48:43+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsvnxx0vahx395l2l2e3u5xak35et7r0cr8xxklfk855d7fyge6nugzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pysvfvat I guess, I&#39;ll take down the tree this weekend. Maybe.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/901/644/257/953/997/original/bfb014999fe567ae.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-16T00:16:11+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsdnmkuw3axyfalpne6sms40k0zh9lkpyzqxmwajppmz330qu7mvtczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyx6q050 🌜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/882/192/331/322/983/original/17b82ce1add820a9.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-12T13:46:01+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrzpfpcxlq3yz93t3uuc0hl6j2fpgscqnzj5rt3nm0vwdv6ltkncgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjac4pp I know I shared this with a couple privately and I wish I had a better shot, it would have been awesome.<br/>I leash my border heeler mix to my waist when I take him with me and he lunged at this heron as I was taking the shot, causing me to twist at the waist, resulting in this shot.<br/>Look, even with the poor lighting, you can see the claws. So cool.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/878/774/520/188/211/original/c9b25f6e52e33541.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-11T23:20:59+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrujz9skajfhd5fjgv2sav9sum75y2xpz5ge7u8ucwlxdvpdxy9rqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pys9qzrs In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs98423znp2xt4f955kfqvsjpg4kn0vkxqausvv3p3mdvljsegwazghd8pmz'>nevent1q…8pmz</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>That&#39;s a whole mood.<br/>Mine, specifically. 💜 2026-01-11T13:45:20+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqstfyfv5c34s4gnytvvw5pvjwjge3ws5epalvt7y5gj6x2qpcg3uxszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywae42m Good morning, friends.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/876/306/669/809/596/original/5835c2c5d0ebbcbb.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-11T12:50:03+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszflje74k33y2esakqc8yr0rqj3ws8rzn8c33tf2kqtau8kf0j53czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyr5yfjv How many days until spring? 🌱🌷<br/><br/><span itemprop="mentions" itemscope itemtype="https://schema.org/Person"><a itemprop="url" href="/npub149ra57xwntq05c0q0eussewvc0g3m7elg2keyy86l4hen6f25mgsdhr5ec" class="bg-lavender dark:prose:text-neutral-50 dark:text-neutral-50 dark:bg-garnet px-1"><span>The Eddie Show 📷🎧❤️</span> (<span class="italic">npub149r…r5ec</span>)</a></span><br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/871/212/374/272/711/original/75c25821fe4941d0.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-10T15:14:44+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs0p65hcs5sr5s2zmftsja8x7xv0ugfr6zura8fsu3v9dl7nsa42lgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyuyj2v5 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsqeapfqsacdmemsxdcaka6376v97xn2t7yj0jj3tk6f4yc4m0lqgc7zjjyx'>nevent1q…jjyx</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>same to you 💜 2026-01-09T16:46:19+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs0xwjq80mwz52n9x2qk500hlpagk8yesewz2datggqz40ds7uh3yczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyrmmhl7 When I came here to Mastodon, I met some wonderful people that I just really like knowing.<br/><br/>Some have not stayed. They are missed in this community. <br/><br/>One who did not stay still had a way to reach me and I woke to find a message to me, in a moment that I needed a reminder that people do like me and think about me.<br/><br/>After I replied to him, I remembered this chalk drawing on a pathway in the park during 2020.<br/><br/>I am right where I need to be. <br/><br/>There is something in this moment that I need so that life can be better. So, as uncomfortable and sad as I have been feeling the last few weeks, I will come out the other side a better and stronger me.<br/><br/>I would like that to be like next week if I can define my timeline, please.<br/>💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/864/318/596/622/165/original/754c021a0baa059b.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-09T10:03:18+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqswxt4jnwzr94f05d3s83uet8l2fyymuvxfhk8ews9hfmhdhgspaqczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywl08lj Happy Friday-eve, friends 💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/858/710/605/724/134/original/7cd2cbda26087c77.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-08T10:13:58+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsv6k5ncpsx8feggu4wqyla2pc6ga7x8ec0ysrlucrvf3ywj0hkkjqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py00pdyj 💙<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/855/999/833/448/364/original/7e8d7074e2540172.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-07T22:45:24+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqspqzgyhrke6m5dgwux0lywdl77z2lj632cted834en8mtyv3qh09szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyhwsyut In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsxszaknfajc6xam04eyphpyshk3hscd8g9g7qra7723xmk03j6s4qdxzx2u'>nevent1q…zx2u</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>😑<br/>Just cuz I&#39;m in Ohioduhtucky, I have not yet qualified for &#34;hillbilly&#34; status. <br/>I don&#39;t think.<br/>Someone get me a checklist? 2026-01-07T00:52:07+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqj6fcz549s3cea9ff34u7jkrrd844vpkkl49rdy0k6gjzd9zrweczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyxs3l0r I was shamed into taking down my holiday decorations in the front yard bc I saw that everyone else on my path out of the neighborhood took them down, but I still have them in the backyard.<br/><br/>I&#39;m currently thinking that these will stay until Valentine&#39;s Day, or March even, or someone complains to the HOA. 2026-01-07T00:21:48+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsp6qy402hplwxulj2mcm3zx7wv3qjyydy9zfyw7la6cadhn0qa3cqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py4jz7l2 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsddz3fs5np60ntc7uv5smkd64lfuck4gh6rzjt54fzr6lzvl8pwhg2cyg8d'>nevent1q…yg8d</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>If only I could win life changing money in the lottery... 2026-01-06T23:13:34+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsq6vz4y4ehf9rqes2079wl60zs9qqr37j6nrcsg06srkf8kzz5lrczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyxghscu In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqszy9x9r33prx776s56eswkvgr53h2q62jrxvrszrmcxaxg0zm93ncv6a06u'>nevent1q…a06u</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Instead of this, I&#39;m going back into the office tomorrow. <br/><br/>At least Notebook Lady no longer has a job. 2026-01-06T21:46:38+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszy9x9r33prx776s56eswkvgr53h2q62jrxvrszrmcxaxg0zm93nczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pynxjwtg Having a tough day. Trying to cheer myself...<br/><br/>The secret, Alice, is to surround yourself with people who make your heart smile.<br/><br/>It&#39;s then, only then, that you&#39;ll find Wonderland.<br/><br/>~ Lewis Carroll<br/><br/>💜<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/849/772/793/015/108/original/a933d2fddc8e014c.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-06T20:22:57+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsr8ww2572028xfkkmv0v06c9496w8ge2uk49kjk7q7fldrken96ygzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyj307g8 May we all have a better Tuesday than we believe we deserve<br/>🧡<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/847/493/320/614/790/original/646543943130bf76.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-06T10:43:20+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszac5m63s5ezc5mz0t3wz8lyk66hgs84lx47vn3dnkj5nxy26nv8szyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pye62a2l From my evening walk.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/845/364/335/683/780/original/f3a698928fee629d.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-06T01:41:14+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgpfdx8sqfrkzx7s3655ssntcf4gqcyfw5ufr9q3nc07qttv6kfmczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyu0ml5p The sky channeling my energy Jan 3.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/845/052/626/927/342/original/a4a7a9a22e8a80a7.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-06T00:21:15+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs2la0r7rz6ayhn925z7s3cau7xsyq85dkw89y24a2pgxmdm0jdu9gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyn39qy2 For anyone who needs a little positive energy today (me, you...💜🫂)<br/><br/>This has been a wonderful show here so far.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/828/023/456/506/587/original/95d57c63f1cfa7fb.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-03T00:14:23+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqe92vplr8d24qm2fq7ys87ta2mp65xa86mvjplffyu53qkdvqusczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyxs3sm7 Wanted to share this all day with you.<br/><br/>💙<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/822/921/162/815/993/original/4a8047ebbcbb2d24.jpg"> <br/> 2026-01-02T02:38:00+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqm6h8d0283njamsqsa7xu8shftm3ep5keumkqf9ek9z2jz6e38lqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pylc0rn3 ❤️<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/787/613/527/281/286/original/ccfe9016a55c5941.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-26T20:53:44+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsr2jugdmrlu4svdvkd6ghhz69ae63nxvsg6dc4yew9808mra47vgqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyz9qtxx Heron<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/787/589/012/555/996/original/09ecaaa2831e1787.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-26T20:47:37+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsxuh2035hck596hw65kl5sll5gu4w2ju5jr0fvnu6h9mmauce50uczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyn3843e I was looking for a moment of peace 💙<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/776/469/145/825/298/original/f45d2735f9c67dfd.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-24T21:41:04+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsx0t2c9wdcdfn4fyws52p9ayxugteq7pahkfl6fru4gv4afvwwepczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyh0rqg0 Leaving this article for anyone who might want to start to try to understand the effects of child abuse/trauma.<br/><br/>*I&#39;m not looking for sympathy.* <br/><br/>My father was a drug addict and alcoholic. He was abusive. Physically, verbally, sexually.<br/><br/>I criticize myself more than anyone else can and I&#39;ve have spent a lot of my life working on the effects of the abuse.<br/><br/>I need patience, I need support to keep working on the effects. I appreciate the friends that care for me and find patience for me, and especially the ones who will call me out when I need to be called out.<br/><br/>I&#39;m not going to feel shame over this. It is not my shame.<br/><br/>I think I&#39;m a kinder person than most but yes, I make mistakes, and yes, they are usually rooted in the abuse.<br/><br/>Being vulnerable, fear of abandonment are tough. I will continue to be a work in progress.<br/><br/><a href="https://harborlondon.com/the-link-between-childhood-trauma-and-adult-behaviour/">https://harborlondon.com/the-link-between-childhood-trauma-and-adult-behaviour/</a> 2025-12-24T21:26:51+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsw4k28tat26x3fu2vdpxrfffdeu9gxyk3qj2yvz5hm95dd9kfd28gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pycy8pwd Happy hump day<br/>Or Christmas Eve<br/>Whichever you celebrate<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/774/110/719/048/607/original/09ed1d8a152cbe55.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-24T11:41:17+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrweh2088apf5qzrzpsyxy6lum6ahvpc0hlrmwdht2chmaykd3tkczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py7s58tm I bet a bunch of you are wang chunging right now. 2025-12-24T00:52:22+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs2q46gl6j7k46y76nrh9v5x37vqzwafqp6sp6cjkl9ghj8jgzl6rczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywmy3vf In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqswh5vkwlx6q4rr4p8pu3vsv4846u5uwmsj8frl4aks0d2htdwwpwqxte0jg'>nevent1q…e0jg</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>seriously?<br/><br/>I mean, I feel this figuratively, but seriously? 2025-12-23T04:56:06+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs8mp8cj0szrq4q4lhhn9uew47t2y562aeg54tnht02prs9km295ggzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py2uk8lg Going into personal lockdown <br/><br/>💜 2025-12-23T01:36:48+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsz6dmdx3tgppnp8948jzrs66nqw9ttnftcc3hc7hne063lcwqxs7qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pynqmx0z Early submission for #TextureTuesday<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/765/895/607/279/984/original/1f480b4040ca6e5b.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-23T00:51:31+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs9rydpzxy54drtk6e4vuwe25grpylj6fd0z5yd5exv4kzq3ga2krgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py02vm2f Trapped<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/764/516/898/327/358/original/00fc20b93c767d04.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-22T18:59:44+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgg3jd3f874dvap9k2q84yaapl3k9ynuz73em5pxhpmcahwvuk8mczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyqaaxwg Good morning, friends💛<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/763/027/752/581/454/original/a9cde225a86ba6f8.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-22T12:41:42+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs2zxf0chgl5jjwnr05259u64el2pj4kcjf32v4r5gyuggn66tqf3czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pymxmpsc In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqst6zq6hkc70x864u57hnfm5x7zr5zzwgu7v9qf2yj2x2n72hkrhfcky8pfg'>nevent1q…8pfg</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>In the old oak trail.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/760/044/855/905/173/original/b65096d833c82bec.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-22T00:02:49+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqst6zq6hkc70x864u57hnfm5x7zr5zzwgu7v9qf2yj2x2n72hkrhfczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py3l9waq It&#39;s complicated (like me)<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/760/015/443/833/441/original/1689d938de6d72a0.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-21T23:56:04+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsveqz8gzvnmn8jd4msk9cs2x0r6x0djaeq6evfwrf4md5nzq26zlgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyks8f28 Happy Solstice.<br/>May light triumph over darkness.❤️‍🔥🌷<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/759/984/989/262/869/original/de40c154459f3ecf.jpg"> <br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/759/991/614/642/537/original/81f2fcf4486a1fbc.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-21T23:50:08+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqrksetr9gqc62neekavp7uvcqhuna4s33nzl5q996qc8qg76xl2gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyz2wrzm Also, Dear, fedi-diary, thanks to anyone riding my roller-coaster with me today. Sorry.🎢 <br/>I hate winter. Bring me spring.<br/><br/><a href="https://beige.party/@Waitnwallflower/115754367500147535">https://beige.party/@Waitnwallflower/115754367500147535</a> 2025-12-21T00:01:13+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsy6mj757uwhqaw6cn7dxs7yzg4hxqfgy2jcy9ejzaeypl2plvy3dgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyxra8yn Everything is fine<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/754/150/673/346/751/original/58537df3c8a40d3e.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T23:04:21+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs8ztrc7v4jpt0p4607z2za7zcjjkujphvdehqkern6pahkuecvefgzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyk7tu78 Against the wind<br/><br/>I was running against the wind<br/><br/>I was middle aged and weak<br/><br/>I went running against the wind,<br/><br/>And the years flashed before my eyes,<br/><br/>I could hardly breathe... 2025-12-20T22:43:41+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs949nvk9w7x0r3a4wqd7mpppe50cjsfc4xqp25jcsuhm4adyx252czyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywm55f7 Turmoil with hope?<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/753/734/621/631/160/original/46c07439237f0a41.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T21:18:45+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsx89jh8q5xrj98zxwnv8r3lkusr7w5vmfjyyhzsfcmqzqxyze7a0gzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pykjnlmr Iced water feature<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/753/524/129/836/976/original/27d57ed3648ea13d.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T20:25:18+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszegfz5fexdslrfegw0syyxjy5xche38xvlv6n8hdpqavpxxg8xdqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyg8jtr2 Ice<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/753/456/654/696/024/original/ec160aef13abfb6d.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T20:07:30+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs0nfxy8whrfjz9vz60qce8hxrxuywe78jklvqqhjvfjfcrhawpw7qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pym4wk3r &#34;The universe took its time on you<br/><br/>Crafted you to offer the world something different from everyone else&#34;<br/><br/>~ Rupi Kaur<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/751/979/908/060/551/original/ae1d1688c8c4b382.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T14:04:57+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsgaue2fsexu000p35t88v8g9jp60s0ckzl97jft0y0q99mkem4ejqzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyzkqnh5 #CalmingGreen <br/>💚<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/751/927/760/777/830/original/2efa0618d831cead.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-20T13:38:23+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqszrr7hrlcrpjvvlex3z0rj2h72973txvf2h7z5244vcqdn3ggj6mszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyjndf70 I don&#39;t know when exactly it happened to me, but &#34;Livin after midnight. Rockin to the dawn. Lovin till the mornin, then I&#39;m gone,&#34; doesn&#39;t seem to resonate with the same feeling or appeal that it once did.<br/><br/>🤘 2025-12-19T00:15:14+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsftjzzxcvqu2nvalrmfy7c75fzzk9cphtj9u4jmc4p6c36necefygzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pyvasw64 Without comment<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/742/900/566/923/738/original/f2900416f5a1e55f.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-18T23:22:40+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsypq6cclet4hdugt7smctlu6q27gcp2fpc8nv8lluctn357f5k7yszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pywzxrds No idea why this just popped in my head but here we go, I will share...<br/><br/>Rambling. That&#39;s your warning.<br/><br/>Scene: Wallflower is little. Maybe 7 or 8 at most. Running around in the backyard/backyard behind our&#39;s. Catholic family home, 8 kids, all with a name beginning with D. They had extended family over, this is relevant to the story. (This was one of the two places I was allowed to go.)<br/><br/>It was summer.<br/><br/>✨️Fireflies ✨️<br/><br/>I was wearing my favorite clogs. I remember nothing else about my attire, but clogs! Clogs! Bitches!<br/><br/>I met a cousin of their&#39;s. We were having lots of fun together. He was older. I don&#39;t remember his name.<br/><br/>Frogs. We had lots of frogs.<br/><br/>Lots of running amok. I remember feeling happy.<br/><br/>Suddenly I remember feeling &#34;squish.&#34;<br/><br/>I stepped on a frog. It was gory.<br/><br/>I hurried home to salvage my clogs. I cleaned the clog but swore it smelled like dead frog so took my brother&#39;s cologne and poured it on the heel of my clog. Now forever to smell like Old Spice aftershave.<br/><br/>My mom interrupted my remedy. Asked me what I was up to, told me I had to come in soon...<br/><br/>I vividly remember asking her how you know if you&#39;re in love. She said &#34;you just do.&#34;<br/><br/>I ran back outside to play with the cousin while I could, wondering what I might or might not know...<br/><br/>I never saw him again. <br/><br/>It was not love.<br/><br/>Shortly after my mom decided my clogs smelled too strongly and threw them out. Damn frog guts ruining my jam...<br/><br/>I still like the smell of Old Spice aftershave, to round out this story, so *damn my more recent fragrance allergy*, too.<br/><br/>💜 2025-12-15T01:20:34+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs9524epvwxvtc4l6em6g8d43w2w6wkew3fqg4wr78aad6v37yax9qzyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py69fna5 Hear me out<br/><br/>Little Red Corvette but a Porsche in white with black leather interior. 2025-12-14T02:14:18+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsyuy3jw0l3gd5nvf74c3jp0d37rg3jc2ydz83afx6kde22gu96zwczyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2pygjjr0x In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsqtpm529p8ks54y6wwamut9zehj9aave4e2ypvpgp2ulh6v5te2qqnqas07'>nevent1q…as07</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>My son made a lot of these as a kid. I still have them but stopped putting them out at Christmas because they are growing week.<br/>Same with sock snowmen.<br/>Wonderful memory. Thank you, Jax. 🥰 2025-12-13T23:49:31+01:00 https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsvtf806ccj0zpurjmme995suppkw60nxzz6u6qhlp9c25kzl850pszyzlech89mv2gf57rd7gmfxmptgaw2dcphwq6tlm3lyedxm34gg2py6kn3hn In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsgwd7zfsttxs767hpjayxas6m2f97c3840vd7r3rr6nh0rpp8z6pge585a3'>nevent1q…85a3</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>Le sigh<br/><br/>Need to shovel an area in the back now, as well as 2nd round in the front. Poor floof, being short has some disadvantages. <br/><br/>I hate winter.<br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/714/512/396/756/958/original/3cd2628c6fb5cd74.jpg"> <br/> <img src="https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/115/714/524/956/526/027/original/3ce35fc58f65ca30.jpg"> <br/> 2025-12-13T23:06:10+01:00