Nostr notes by Slutty McSluterson

Holy fuck [lamppost]

2025-08-14T19:54:10+02:00

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Holy fuck [lamppost]

A cool thing about being a girl that no one really told me about ...

2025-08-12T22:51:07+02:00

A cool thing about being a girl that no one really told me about is this:

Today I’m wearing a matching bra and panties set from Pink, and it makes me feel really sexy. Even though it’s just for me and no one else will ever see it - it makes me feel just incredible.

These are the moments I never experienced as a dude. I never cared enough. I get joy from matching my *underwear*. 🥹

oh hey, John Leguizamo is in it.

2025-04-01T00:07:53+02:00

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oh hey, John Leguizamo is in it.

1000%

2025-03-31T23:54:23+02:00

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1000%

haha I liked that movie. More of a dark comedy than a straight up ...

2025-03-31T23:52:16+02:00

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haha I liked that movie. More of a dark comedy than a straight up horror flick.

💜 🥹

2025-03-31T00:37:48+02:00

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💜 🥹

so much hotness in one image. 💜

2025-03-30T14:38:28+02:00

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so much hotness in one image. 💜

I was talking with my eldest son yesterday - he FaceTimed me to ...

2025-03-23T19:02:21+01:00

I was talking with my eldest son yesterday - he FaceTimed me to help me not be alone on a really tough day - and I asked him how he was coming to grips with my identity since I came out to him last week. I know it’s a mindfuck for them, and I want to help them through it as best I can.

He had some really great questions and I think our discussion was kind of profound for him. Which is great. But one question he asked me that I want to share is this: “You’ve always struggled with self-esteem, and how you’re perceived in public. Are you more or less comfortable now than you were before?”

Fucking GREAT question.

My self-esteem has always been a little rough, like many of my trans siblings I struggled with belonging when I was in grade school, and bullying was a constant in my life through graduation. I learned to try to “not stand out” as a self-defense mechanism, and I held on to it all of my adult life. I didn’t want to be in the way, I didn’t want to draw attention to myself, I didn’t want to be really *seen*.

I made myself uncomfortable trying to conform to some box society wanted me in for almost 50 years.

What I realized though, is that it didn’t matter to society. If they were going to judge me, they were going to do it no matter how hard I tried to fit in their box. You’re judged for not fitting in the box, and you’re just for having to try. I’ve only been hurting myself with no real gain to how I’m seen by society, and I struggled with depression almost all of my life because of it.

So, the answer to his question is that I’m still uncomfortable in public. But I’m much more comfortable with myself. I’m going to be me, regardless of what society thinks that should be. I may be judged one way or another, so I might as well do it openly as my true self. At least I’m not failing at some impossible standard, wearing some poorly constructed ill-fitting mask.

And I’m happier. I’m no longer depressed.

My mom asked me a similar question when I came out to her earlier this week: “Are you finally at peace with yourself?”

Yes mom. Yes fam. I’m at peace. There are no more internal struggles with me vs. societal expectations. I finally know who I am and I’m actually excited to let them all get to know the real me. The me behind the mask, and without the armor.

So bring it on world. I’m going to live and die as the woman I’ve always been inside, who I should have always been able to be.

A fierce fuckin’ valkyrie full of fire and passion. 💜

thanks. It’s a giant mind fuck for sure.

2025-03-12T00:21:21+01:00

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thanks. It’s a giant mind fuck for sure.

So validating and so hurtful at the exact same time. 💔

2025-03-11T02:41:28+01:00

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So validating and so hurtful at the exact same time. 💔

Oh my god my wife just told me that I’m pretty. She said she ...

2025-03-11T02:06:32+01:00

Oh my god my wife just told me that I’m pretty. She said she has so many pictures of us where I’m “so pretty”

I started crying because I’ve been praying for her to say that to me, and WHY did she have to say it *now* that she’s leaving me?!

sitting nearby for company

2025-02-16T04:17:34+01:00

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sitting nearby for company

It does. It really does, and you wrote it so eloquently. I grew ...

2025-01-17T19:49:52+01:00

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It does. It really does, and you wrote it so eloquently.

I grew up in rural Michigan where I was called queer for having long hair and a pierced ear in the eighties. I fought it then, but now? You’re goddamned right I’m queer. And?

Oh wow, this is such a great response. “A word like queer feels ...

2025-01-17T19:42:16+01:00

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Oh wow, this is such a great response.

“A word like queer feels beautiful in the same way I find myself beautiful.” Thank you for this. 💜

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I was reading this off in a session with my voice ...

2025-01-16T17:44:57+01:00

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¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I was reading this off in a session with my voice coach and I literally stopped, laughed, and said “WTF”.

Maybe the end of the rainbow is Viserys Targaryen’s final resting place?

haha I remember stopping and going “WTF??” the first time I ...

2025-01-16T14:09:53+01:00

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haha I remember stopping and going “WTF??” the first time I read that line.