2026-07-23T01:25:30Z https://nostr.ae うねり https://nostr.ae/npub1pfah56svzxwrxqqq74u8fgertfj0jtjk3fm0r95sk4zr26r9h6sqmqaen0 https://cawfee.club/media/d7f845d1c5148bbf5eec1273e6c906708c182e8b485accd417b278257fef18eb.jpeg https://cawfee.club/media/d7f845d1c5148bbf5eec1273e6c906708c182e8b485accd417b278257fef18eb.jpeg https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsxl05z0phkggah42l044h2pn4d9wx4pkk7xltzx3zh44zp9p7d0vqzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qdaj0j8 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsz0a79eaaxx3a9epz6yldeglm5phwggc998namc6pwkyrw7vs7x5gazm4n2'>nevent1q…m4n2</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I&#39;ve been attracted by the idea of considering him the way some Chinese Buddhists consider Laozi and Kongzi, as reincarnations of members the Buddha&#39;s original sangha who spread upaya in the form of Confucianism and Taoism to pave the way for Buddhism. I mean, for me, maybe not literally to pave the way for Buddhism, but at least to bring people closer to enlightenment. I haven&#39;t settled on that interpretation though, although it&#39;s very compelling to me 2024-11-15T03:33:02Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsy30ffn9da0l238w5g3lgvv0deye3jmwfm6743anjdu4ukk20eamqzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qs942kt In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsv6fh0x27g77tjr4mkhtwm39ylylcu6u69c48h438kquqhncmxjeg90u2sr'>nevent1q…u2sr</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I agree with you also, about Christ fitting into the East more than the East fits into Christ. It&#39;s one of the reasons I&#39;m uncomfortable referring to Him as a bodhisattva. It just doesn&#39;t really seem to gel with who He was 2024-11-15T03:17:07Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsv6fh0x27g77tjr4mkhtwm39ylylcu6u69c48h438kquqhncmxjegzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2q9kq75n In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsztq7qfk7xcsw64au93ftyujm3y7jwqvjdavp39vlm2pvc32j7qxggj4vwu'>nevent1q…4vwu</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I appreciate the concern. Personally, I&#39;d love to crash into a wall. It&#39;d be way easier than trying to make choices with all the ambiguity I&#39;m surfing through, but it&#39;s really not very practical trying to anticipate the walls. I&#39;ll deal with the walls when I reach them 2024-11-15T03:12:30Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsrauqw5u7fe9x9fy9sm28fqc25xdkdzch4ha2qzw8y9xp5eeye9sszyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qt2ddz6 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs2tlae00q3juwn7gt4sjvcgv30vrl49vmy4ueef80k674g7f2f0kgmrlaaf'>nevent1q…laaf</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>yeah, this is why I say I&#39;ll never be Catholic the way that I want to. My understanding of the world will never match the doctrine of the Church. and like you said about the genie going back in the bottle, I can&#39;t ever really pretend like I didn&#39;t reach any of the conclusions I did. So I am definitely outside of it. I think of it as one of the schools I draw on, but ultimately I&#39;m just a religious person without a religion that I necessarily identify with 100% The desire to have a home is still there, though <br/> <br/>Simone Weil helped me feel not so bad about it, although she phrased it/understood it as &#34;finding Christ in the religions of the East,&#34; which isn&#39;t exactly how I see it 2024-11-15T02:47:40Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsfsd3xtkn9w9dq4gwujfj2czmjz0c8g378kl9pdnegu0kr8cue9tqzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qx3f45g In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsvdgavqxhm5yq0axuu045dee867pqx2l3r9cc67trhup5yzqrv0yqka63a8'>nevent1q…63a8</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>yeah, I agree. I don&#39;t think I&#39;m ignoring discourse entirely, I&#39;m just keeping it simpler for now while I focus on practice, since in the past I tended to neglect practice in favor of pure discourse and I became, to my understanding, greatly deluded 2024-11-15T02:36:22Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsqnjljdjesc2crvvn8staclaye4l0eg72h0x54vxqyhwm2ncfm7rszyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2q0n9rdp In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs2p6tlaa7ys8ehkxecs3qhph3r4y7ms5lxezqvv3e62ac4l2xycrqh7x0yw'>nevent1q…x0yw</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>i have ceased to believe theological discourse alone is the path to truth. been in my theurgy arc (also interested in connecting theurgical ritual to whatever tf confucius was saying about it), but i haven&#39;t been able to settle on actual good work that I could do, since most modern theurgy is bullshit occult slop and Catholic ritual is pointing towards a truth that doesn&#39;t fit well inside my heart (and same with the neo-Platonists like Iamblichus, although I agree somewhat more with them). so currently, I&#39;m just trying to cultivate virtue and not worrying about it until I feel like I could actually make any headway at all 2024-11-15T02:27:49Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsg2lmagkp5umsullhcdtp97a407nz0zantzecrq7ul9v7am3d7ytqzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qzm3w7d In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsfqtl0n23zdhj4gncaaxg9eknv82ts8vxxhp98l2xgh38wd9st35ckvsjqh'>nevent1q…sjqh</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>if you&#39;re a philosopher or theologian, sure. although my pantheism kinda comes from spinoza, so I guess hating on philosophy is kinda hypocritical. but idk i&#39;m just an ordinary person, so I don&#39;t really need to care about any of that. <br/> <br/>like i said, the reason i wanna be catholic specifically is mostly ethnic. i would feel like it was a betrayal of my ancestors to be a protestant, and beyond liking some of the music and imagery, hinduism has never really grabbed my interest. 2024-11-15T02:06:23Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsq5uh57wc2gnlgvgyd5xmqc58x8dkjfglqy05rru0dkw2hldrv8nczyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qadk4a4 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsvz58r8qttl5u0a797kheyarc3z7fqqjdjmemnpkz5z5lpughx6fq3xmyf4'>nevent1q…myf4</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>i would not be the first 2024-11-15T01:58:55Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsygwjv4hpu7y0cad076fhkr8n7zmy86n7er432ur8v6pxg548l33gzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2q36tfe0 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsvx2c0axhcsujjz4sgrs2vs6qsqr3yzudjc854v83dlh6nxkw4s2cm8w0le'>nevent1q…w0le</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>I mean there is nothing that exists that is not God 2024-11-15T01:56:20Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqspvesg35nh6r8et56wcp7uucxxzhz5x9mclsa9p2km5ksaamak9aszyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2q0vcdkd In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs0ld6esyf7ce0q4pc26400x8w52q5c59k75ezf8x6c2crgygelvpcgyzxu3'>nevent1q…zxu3</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>frankly trinitarianism is interesting, but since everything is consubstantial with God, it renders the whole thing moot 2024-11-15T01:52:45Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs0ld6esyf7ce0q4pc26400x8w52q5c59k75ezf8x6c2crgygelvpczyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qadl8u5 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqsvpz534hcydvwpfxkvy4feuyfmt3e3cfkmpljxgd8l875uyd64ajg8av5xt'>nevent1q…v5xt</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>i have to be honest, the whole thing seems really silly. i identify as catholic almost exclusively because it&#39;s how i was raised and the religion of my ancestors, but i find i resonate more often with the non-scholaticism of orthodoxy more. as for the filioque specifically, it has no significance to me or my understanding of God or the Trinity 2024-11-15T01:51:44Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsfjwhwclrxwx0d945xcxeax3dtgpkgzxryzcfh3xaxxes8xqlzvsczyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2q08xnn5 In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs90dwzqjdvg0qwhy9nf2y7mdn58r7uj53m42rt93ef08s8q584m0qw8x694'>nevent1q…x694</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>i will never be a good catholic the way i yearn to be, but I always come back to Christ so at least there&#39;s that 2024-11-15T01:41:08Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqsflxr0vzpqdqrjlzx4h5y54xgcv8t95ezzjzutejzqw4zzcjahmpszyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qxprl7p In reply to <a href='/nevent1qqs0pcf0qphgv8csuceh5gmeppxc7psek2xccjx5gu5qtrnlzfqwmqsxcmn0y'>nevent1q…mn0y</a><br/>_________________________<br/><br/>you have more faith in people than me i think 2024-10-29T15:35:57Z https://nostr.ae/nevent1qqs2z4l6z8ewaclju0tudfz9n2f2yhg3mq97j4dyzr6py7h78x0s89gzyq98k7n2psgecvcqqr6hsa9ryddxf7fw2698duvkjz65gdtgvkl2qe3y9fv i think the vatican&#39;s jubilee year mascot is really cute and i know if i see porn of her it&#39;s going to make me feel really bad so i think i might need to stay off the internet for like a month or two 2024-10-29T15:32:56Z