"I would've been a sociopath"
Then follows up with explaining how you still became a sociopath and doubles and triples down on justification for your sociopathy.
You're a bad person. The world would be better without you. Your wife will eventually realize this too. Your children. Your grand children. Your parents know this about you. You're part of the problem and you'll never be part of any solution as long as you keep this mentality. You have no soul. You should remove yourself from the world for the betterment of everyone.
