So yeah, not wanting to stand out or be different is her concern, not mine.
I wanted to stand out & be different. I just didn't want to receive critical comments about every choice I made. That part sucked. It felt like everything I did was "wrong".
I thought I was failing at something. When it came to clothes & makeup, I thought there was some secret about aesthetics that I didn't know, & that I was somehow inferior for not knowing it, & I learned to feel so much shame & fear because of that.
