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2026-04-16 14:48:51 CEST

>out of prepared meals again
need a woman to cook for me

2026-04-14 16:00:42 CEST

as my stupid boss would say, "you can't fix stupid"
consoling myself by working on the office porch. turns out I'm popular out here!
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2026-04-08 18:00:14 CEST

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>any woman who brings up those type of feelings I simply cannot entertain
oh god you're like a nigger getting interviewed in prison... "it's always all them bitches fault they piss me off!"

2026-04-07 20:39:48 CEST

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(rereading this, I see I might have been unclear that I think the whole need for "spontaneity" in order for something to have emotional value is a kind of a test of character-- "will you give of yourself when there's no explicit, agreed-upon reward? do you have enough resources in reserve to give easily?" rather than just saying what kind of a character and resources one expects the other to have, which can be faked)

2026-04-07 20:22:44 CEST

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the reason humans have historically been reticent to be explicit and upfront about their expectations for others in reciprocal relationiships is that there's a subset of the population who will game them, give the absolute minimum to meet the standard while taking the absolute maximum they can-- "free riders." it's a competitive strategy that some people use to get ahead (you probably have known more than a few). It's totally horrible for society but we've had to adapt to its inevitable presence by keeping the rules we judge others by hidden to some degree.
it can't be strictly transactional though, because people's needs vary over time, and keeping strict track of who has given/done what would be exhausting.

2026-04-07 14:39:45 CEST

Every morning it's the same routine when I'm getting ready on my computer: Ajax climbs on my lap and blocks my keyboard. I put him down. He comes back less than a minute later, and this time blocks the area to the right of my computer where I have my mouse. I put him down again. He comes back and gets on the left side this time. He's on top of my notebook where I'm making my todo list for the day-- not instantly disruptive but when I have to jot something down I have to move him. Finally, finally, he gets on the back of my couch and starts biscuiting on my shoulder. This is painful, but not disruptive so he gets to stay there until it's time for me to leave.

2026-04-07 09:43:59 CEST

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rofl what's this in reference to

2026-04-06 00:43:49 CEST

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I am completely normal dude stop making wild accusations

2026-04-06 00:40:11 CEST

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no they can't. also I'm not a cat damnit!

2026-04-06 00:32:12 CEST

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autism isn't a single disorder or disease, it's described as a spectrum condition as a kind of diagnostic shorthand, but in reality it's a syndrome that can have more than one etiology and covers more than one condition, many of which can have either/both a congenital and/or environmental origin and are included in the "spectrum" because they often occur together due to similar developmental disrupti--- wait nevermind this sounds autistic

2026-04-06 00:10:31 CEST

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...depending on how far you want to extend the metaphor, we could consider the base human psychological platform itself a kind of pre-shared key

2026-04-05 23:55:45 CEST

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compression... vagueposting is encryption

2026-04-05 17:10:30 CEST

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that's almost certainly exactly what it is. just sucks I can't enter that eh... headspace for lack of a better word.

2026-04-05 16:44:05 CEST

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especially because everyone's like "you should be happy; be happy right now i command it"

2026-04-05 16:43:21 CEST

holidays always suck

2026-04-02 16:52:42 CEST

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...for the wrong place value

2026-04-02 15:59:58 CEST

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phrasing is an anti-pattern

2026-04-02 15:58:48 CEST

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you ASKED me to put you out of your misery and now you're shaming me
anyway, you people are making work too mcuh fun I gotta sign off and get to slopping (don't read too much into that wording)

2026-04-02 15:55:14 CEST

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hands tied with a bunch of rocks in the reservoir sure

2026-04-02 15:47:12 CEST

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I... somehow doubt that

2026-04-02 15:46:47 CEST

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it needs to be flushed down the toilet

2026-04-02 15:43:53 CEST

all of our code is so fucking bad

2026-04-02 14:38:46 CEST

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>he doesn't just keep it out at all times

2026-04-01 16:05:51 CEST

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I think you have it backwards rofl

2026-04-01 16:04:00 CEST

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what about cats?

2026-04-01 07:18:26 CEST

I'm on adderweed

2026-04-01 04:41:56 CEST

nnn

2026-04-01 00:03:22 CEST

and why the fuck does steam remote play use chromium internally? isn't it just an input/video passthrough?

2026-03-31 23:08:53 CEST

need drug to make life tolerable

2026-03-31 09:35:38 CEST

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ah ok lol. just wondering

2026-03-31 09:32:04 CEST

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do you like graf?

2026-03-30 15:54:58 CEST

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so if you correctly prophesy something, it's substantiated based on facts, and if you get it wrong it's a joke, eh?
(sure does help that the real world feels like satire now)

2026-03-28 14:33:15 CET

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>PonyPanda khan ShinobuRespecter
oh god I haven't seen those names in so long

2026-03-28 12:59:33 CET

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oh god the russian guy? I think it was actually Zonk who talked to him in a voice chat for like an hour-- said that he equated supporting this guy to how some russian guys just feel the need to own a bear. like he was this expensive high-maintenance pet he found amusing.
god damn what a depressing nostalgia

2026-03-28 01:44:14 CET

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what's the story here?

2026-03-28 01:24:37 CET

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(yes I used tumblr back in the fucking heyday)

2026-03-28 01:24:14 CET

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ok now you're challenging me not to be like "damn this shit tumblr as fuck" or something
(I'm enjoying it lol)

2026-03-28 01:09:25 CET

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(and yes I also like fleetowod mac. and this german pop band wir sind helden)

2026-03-28 01:04:46 CET

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so like, i get some hipster cred or something

2026-03-28 01:04:27 CET

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also it wasn't popular music when I dsicovered it

2026-03-28 01:03:51 CET

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yeah true but he's also a really good songwriter

2026-03-28 01:02:26 CET

why are all of tom petty's most popular songs also his most corny...

2026-03-27 18:42:59 CET

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(to this day I've never listened to the ones I was on for more than 5 minutes)

2026-03-27 18:42:40 CET

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how do people still remember that rofl

2026-03-27 18:13:07 CET

so much of what you see on podcasts regarding politics is just obvious bullshit.

2026-03-27 18:10:23 CET

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*eugh* ok is it out of your system?

2026-03-27 18:07:00 CET

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OK FINE you can touch my head ONCE

2026-03-27 17:45:49 CET

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(they definitely share pathways etc... but from my experience with mammals there is a definite point where it turns from fun to anger, and it doesn't seem to be based on intensity)

2026-03-27 17:44:35 CET

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so you think they're the same underlying phenomenon?

2026-03-27 17:34:49 CET

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(not completely fair littermates do sometimes fight but this is likely playing, training coordination and stuff like that lol)

2026-03-27 17:33:50 CET

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aka "playing"

2026-03-27 17:31:43 CET

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I AM NOT A CAT OK?

2026-03-27 15:41:55 CET

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If I was a cat could I drive? checkmate atheists

2026-03-27 15:20:54 CET

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lol I'm curious. I'll listen to it while I "work" (try to disentangle claude from absolutely everything)

2026-03-27 15:18:13 CET

the ketchup girl had a chaperone this morning... she only gave me a reasonable three packets. unasked, of course...
if I find out she's been giving ketchup to other customers I don't know what I'll do

2026-03-27 15:03:10 CET

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feraloid

2026-03-27 14:59:47 CET

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well, all of them

2026-03-27 14:28:21 CET

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we're not talking about you

2026-03-27 13:18:46 CET

ok I went back to sleep what have YOU done

2026-03-26 08:50:15 CET

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make sure you look at people really intensely when showing them your guns, and rarely break eye contact if you can avoid it

2026-03-25 22:12:39 CET

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now do brutalist

2026-03-25 17:16:33 CET

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they say songbirds engage in adultery so i wonder if it's a kind of conflicted loyalty lol

2026-03-25 15:11:07 CET

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I don't think it counts as "getting up" if you go right back to sleep

2026-03-25 10:48:06 CET

still wake up before daylight hours

2026-03-25 03:36:46 CET

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look I only have like 1-2 catlike traits at most man it doesn't count

2026-03-25 02:35:59 CET

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I'll do it thursday I got dick going on on thursday boss is out of town

2026-03-25 02:34:14 CET

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nah I said I'd get something fixed tomorrow and I don't want to be a dickhead and not be able to

2026-03-25 02:32:55 CET

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I got work tomorrow lol

2026-03-25 02:31:19 CET

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rofl cool (I'm slightly high lol)

2026-03-25 02:26:14 CET

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rofl this is your project?

2026-03-25 02:00:04 CET

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oh this isn't real

2026-03-22 15:17:32 CET

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well I'm definitely not one of your dogs

2026-03-22 15:14:41 CET

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why does she get tuna...

2026-03-22 15:08:53 CET

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farmer working in the fields

2026-03-22 15:04:31 CET

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It... can probably help with that too!
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2026-03-22 14:07:51 CET

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AND standards (moral, social etc) not just laws I added that for a reason lol

2026-03-22 13:30:14 CET

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well I mean... we also have laws and standards against child labor so...

2026-03-22 08:26:15 CET

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that hand is about to get ripped to pieces

2026-03-21 19:46:50 CET

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I'm being called out today

2026-03-21 15:10:42 CET

so apparently setting bluetooth to "disabled" in the macos gui doesn't mean the hardware is disabled

2026-03-21 01:10:12 CET

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but tell me you don't get it if you've seen both genres!

2026-03-19 16:58:18 CET

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I think I have a better understanding of narcissists than most people... I grew up with a lot of them. y'all never like my explanations for things but... eh whatever I'll go ahead.
they're actually not full of love for themselves at all. they're actually extremely, tragically empty. they don't understand what love even is, they understand it as some kind of a transaction between people. the self-aggrandizement thing is kinda like whistling a happy song in a dark corridor, it's something they do to comfort themselves because inside they're empty and they know no other way to try to fill it.
this isn't poetic this is technical (in as much as anything in the human soul can be considered technical lol)
doesn't make that much difference. they blame everything they hate on other people being irritating rather than taking responsibility for it so yeah... effectively the same. it's a personality disorder, probably takes religion to fix tbh if it's even possible.

2026-03-19 07:50:00 CET

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he's a spanish manchild sociopath parasite who I wish could just blink out of existence and be replaced with a garbage can or something useful like that.

2026-03-19 07:21:04 CET

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no way you haven't seen him rofl

2026-03-19 00:57:05 CET

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windows xp fucked your mother

2026-03-19 00:46:09 CET

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you're not lol CRTs are analog. there's some ambiguity around how well-defined individual pixels can get because of the color grill (some pixels may not get illuminated evenly with every color) but they're mainly driven by the timing of the beam so they're more flexible.

2026-03-19 00:29:06 CET

propaganda is less about true or falsebut about emphasis

2026-03-18 14:40:51 CET

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such compassion you have for home invaders!

2026-03-18 10:05:14 CET

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I just dumped a quart of the stuff in your falcon's oil pan

2026-03-17 15:33:31 CET

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I've read a lot of theories about this.
One is that subcultures in the 50s-90s were driven by the life changes of the baby boomers, who were the largest cohort in society for most of their lives. Their tastes dictated culture directly, but also indirectly by what was most prominent and salient for the youth of the time to rebel against.
another line of thinking I've heard is that most culture in the latter half of the 20th century was artificial anyway, chosen by corporate tastemakers, promoting certain acts to the masses at the expense of others. They say that the culture of that time was never organic. If anything things are more "natural" now, with so many of the centralized mechanisms that they would normally use to control culture obviated by algorithms.
The 20th century is fascinating to me. A lot of people discount it as very unnatural to the average for human nature, and therefore inherently not as interesting as classical civilization. I definitely agree with that to an extent, the pop cultural artifacts of that time are largely trash and WILL NOT stand the test of time, but there's something interesting in it with how humans deal with extreme novelty. What remains when things are taken to these weird extremes? When people are so pumped up with artificial stimuli as to make their influences completely unrecognizable to people from the past, how do they cope?
want to read more

2026-03-17 14:36:54 CET

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it's a message: get armed

2026-03-17 12:16:44 CET

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don't encourage this slanderous behavior I AM A HUMAN BENG!

2026-03-17 12:08:49 CET

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hiss! *jumps into a dry culvert*

2026-03-17 12:05:06 CET

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NO! I AM NOT!