CARLA
CARLA⚡️

Sign of life. Not in a great place right now but I’m still fighting. Good days and bad days.
Got some additional pregnancy complications so hoping for some clarity in the coming weeks.
All I know for sure is I have another big surgery with a multidisciplinary team in August. Hard to mentally move on from the first one when it’s lingering over my head.
I keep having nightmares about the ER and waking up tied down and intubated, so my sleep has been shit.
I can’t stop worrying that all this physical trauma affected the baby.
After many tears I think I’ve finally become numb, and I think numb is the only way I’m going to get through the next 12 weeks, if not longer.
Idk what else to say. I’m so grateful both of us are alive. I’m just having a hard time adjusting to this new reality.
Much love 🧡
CB

2026-04-20 22:50:04 CEST

Felt a kick, felt the sun.
We’re so back.
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2026-04-19 15:21:56 CEST

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Yes, slowly adapting to new normal and trying not to worry about the rest of the pregnancy. I’ve been given a second chance, not many people in my position can say that, I can’t waste it being sad.

2026-04-19 15:17:36 CEST

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thank you 🧡

2026-04-19 15:15:04 CEST

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Everything but a spleen

2026-04-19 15:13:24 CEST

I can’t wait to get these staples out.

2026-04-18 17:28:23 CEST

I am HUNGRY.

2026-04-17 20:32:49 CEST

Another weird side effect, I don’t want to listen to music. Very strange.

2026-04-16 18:00:52 CEST

I took an unassisted walk outside today 😌
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2026-04-15 14:46:28 CEST

Is there like a support group for people who experience miracles? Everything around me feels so surreal. I see my old things and it’s like I don’t recognize them but they make me sad. It’s a very strange feeling. Maybe it’s just pregnancy hormones lol

2026-04-13 16:46:46 CEST

It’s the first morning that I haven’t cried, so that’s progress.
I can also now move slowly without a walker, just a bit hunched over still. Getting me up is the hard part.
My baby bump looks metal as hell. Literally. There are over 40 staples from my sternum to my pelvis.
Shoutout to my incredible husband, @WalkerAmerica, who has been by my side throughout this nightmare. I truly could not handle this without him. In sickness and in health, boy did he prove it, and I am so grateful for that man.
I’m really hoping the worst part is over. I need to believe that. And I’m praying for a healthy and smooth delivery in August.
Gonna be a long road, fam. But I hope in a couple years I’ll be dancing in an orange wig again 🧡

2026-04-11 21:12:25 CEST

I’m going home 🥹

2026-04-08 13:09:43 CEST

Hi fam. Thank you for all the love and prayers 🧡 it’s truly a miracle the baby and I are alive right now and I’m so grateful to my husband and medical team for making that happen.
I’m in an enormous amount of pain and honestly having a hard time staying positive.
I have an intense few months ahead of me with a healing and growing belly, and then delivery and whatever comes with that, and I just gotta say it, I’m scared.
Scared, grateful, scarred, blessed.
Everyone keeps telling me how tough I am but I don’t feel that way right now.
Anyway, the only way forward is through and I just wanted to let you guys know how much your messages and well wishes have meant to me during this insane time in my life.
So much love to all of you, this too shall pass 🧡

2026-04-06 14:04:34 CEST

17 weeks pregnant with internal bleeding and an emergency splenectomy. In a lot of pain. Need some humor. But not too funny because I don’t want to laugh too hard.

2026-04-05 02:02:21 CEST

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Thank you!

2026-04-05 02:02:06 CEST

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Thanks! Yes been a rough few months but on the up now 😌

2026-04-05 01:57:46 CEST

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OUT!!!

2026-04-05 01:56:54 CEST

I’m eating ice cream to see if the baby will kick. Not because I want ice cream. Ewww ice creammm

2026-04-05 01:52:41 CEST

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Where I’m from it’s miller lite lmao

2026-04-05 01:45:42 CEST

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On what planet

2026-04-05 01:45:22 CEST

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SUS

2026-04-05 01:43:47 CEST

I’ve never in my life seen someone drink a Dr. Pepper. Something fishy there.

2026-04-04 14:06:10 CEST

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I voiced Asim

2026-04-03 03:39:25 CEST

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Wow, thanks for the tip!

2026-04-03 03:26:40 CEST

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You can do that?!

2026-04-03 03:12:39 CEST

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Omg throwback

2026-04-03 03:12:10 CEST

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Even midword?! @npub1cj8…rz4u !!!

2026-04-03 02:59:45 CEST

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Yes

2026-04-03 02:58:02 CEST

I shouldn’t have sugar before bed.
But I want sugar before bed.

2026-04-02 18:20:16 CEST

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See you think that but then you hear it and it’s like ewwwww. There’s software that removes clicks at the beginning and end of words but not in the middle of them. I’ll have Walker share a file it’s amusing lol

2026-04-02 18:08:11 CEST

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It’s these weird involuntary sounds your mouth makes while narrating that can occur midword like a loud POP and they happen a lot with Ls and I’ve redone a line with the word “looked” maybe 30 times and still can’t stop popping it 😂 I truly never noticed them in any media until I started narrating and now I hear them everywhere.

2026-04-02 17:14:29 CEST

If I have one more mouth click on the word “looked” I might jump out a window!!!!!!!!

2026-04-02 04:00:37 CEST

I love how my washing machine sings a happy little tune no matter what mood I’m in.

2026-04-02 03:31:04 CEST

I haven’t pranked anyone in years because I’m so damn tired. But…I used to be quite the prankster.

2026-03-31 17:42:15 CEST

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You’re an influencer, Avi
(Hagrid voice)

2026-03-31 16:31:16 CEST

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With my current appetite this is so up my alley right now 😂😂😂

2026-03-31 03:19:34 CEST

You know when you bump into something and you’re like “that’s gonna leave a mark” but when the mark comes you’re like
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2026-03-31 01:59:37 CEST

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2026-03-31 01:59:21 CEST

this whole wait until food cools down before putting it in the fridge 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨

2026-03-29 03:18:29 CEST

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🔜🔜🔜🔜

2026-03-29 03:18:09 CEST

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CARMEL DELIGHTS

2026-03-29 03:00:22 CEST

Back in the studio with Girl Scout cookies as my energy source

2026-03-29 01:59:49 CET

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trying??

2026-03-26 16:47:53 CET

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Wait

2026-03-26 16:42:44 CET

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Well, he didn’t do anything and I almost died and needed a c section, so not the most romantic story haha.

2026-03-26 16:42:19 CET

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Maybe when the kids are older :)

2026-03-26 11:54:33 CET

Omg you can hear birds again yay

2026-03-26 11:54:00 CET

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That’s like a pasta sandwich. An impasta.

2026-03-26 11:53:29 CET

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WUT

2026-03-26 11:53:04 CET

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Bacon! Bacon is good!

2026-03-26 11:33:15 CET

Still want that sandwich tho. What’s a good sandwich without deli meat? Chicken? 🤨

2026-03-26 11:27:24 CET

We made it til 5am. This is doable!!!

2026-03-26 11:27:02 CET

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omg this required so much balance 😂🧡🥹

2026-03-26 02:51:58 CET

Thx for the wishes fam 🥹🧡 hoping the universe gifts me sleeping through the night tonight 🤪

2026-03-25 21:18:20 CET

SPENT MY BDAY AT THE DMV HBD TO ME
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2026-03-25 09:16:41 CET

I need a SANDWICH!!!!!!!!

2026-03-24 21:38:34 CET

Doc says I need to gain weight.
SAY LESS 💅🍔

2026-03-24 21:38:16 CET

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tank u 🙏

2026-03-23 18:07:58 CET

checking in after our household was ravaged by a gnarly stomach bug…sickest I’ve been maybe in all my life while also pregnant was…something 😵‍💫 but we’re so back!!!

2026-03-17 07:55:27 CET

I’ve started trying this deep sleep music but my dumb brain keeps trying to guess what note is next instead of relaxing like it’s some game and I get a prize if I’m right
It is fun being right tho because these melodies are so random
GOT EM

2026-03-17 07:43:49 CET

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I’ve considered incorporating some B vitamins im just skeptical of supplements tbh

2026-03-17 07:43:14 CET

A little early for my 2am checkin

2026-03-17 07:42:38 CET

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Who..? ME?!

2026-03-16 13:01:52 CET

I put on a book about atomic physics last night to try and fall asleep but then accidentally found it interesting 😭😭😭

2026-03-14 20:08:59 CET

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Thanks Avi! 🧡

2026-03-14 20:08:35 CET

the insomnia and quitting caffeine all makes sense now 😏 ugh I’ve wanted to note so many of my experiences the last few weeks.
now you finally get to see Carla UNHINGED!!!!

2026-03-14 20:07:19 CET

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Honestly yes I needed this

2026-03-14 19:40:47 CET

Thanks for the love guys 🥹 Now that the cat’s out of the bag ALL I WANT IS FRIEDDED CHICKENNNN!!!!!!!!

2026-03-14 19:05:18 CET

I am TIRED I am SICK I am BITCHY and I am GRATEFUL 🥹
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2026-03-14 13:51:40 CET

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Strawberry jam!!!!

2026-03-14 10:32:19 CET

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Will try this now

2026-03-14 10:32:00 CET

Perhaps a snack. Sugar should help.

2026-03-14 10:12:35 CET

I think tomorrow morning I’ll just start watching Ken Burns’ Civil War. That should help. Open to suggestions.

2026-03-14 10:10:17 CET

I try to focus on breathing when I can’t sleep but then I get soooooo borrrreeeddddddddd
But not bored enough.

2026-03-13 23:45:42 CET

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that’s gonna be a no from me dawg

2026-03-13 23:42:45 CET

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idk I’m back at it

2026-03-13 23:42:34 CET

it’s like,
do you want these squeaky cheese nuggets?
ew no
what if i batter them and fry them?
I’ll take 60
#nevent1q…kh9w

2026-03-13 23:29:40 CET

turns out you can have too many cheese curds
#nevent1q…maj8

2026-03-13 19:09:40 CET

how good do fried cheese curds on a pontoon on a nice lake listening to CCR sound right now tho
if u disagree u are LYING

2026-03-13 08:54:57 CET

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It’s so tiresome 😀

2026-03-13 08:51:02 CET

I guess I’m nocturnal now.