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Last Notes npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love a rowing machine... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😂❤️ good luck out there. i'm excited on your behalf. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is wild... truly the first time i have real doubt... better advice for those that lost would have been invest in the s&p 500 🫠? buy the etf... like. fuck. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen at this point, i think i would launch it backwards over my head 😂 an embarrassing number of years out of practice... babies... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love kettlebell swings. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i will be shocked if he remains. that would be the thing that turns me from naive to cynical, beave 😂 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen want. and very excited for pictures ✨🍰👀 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it has to be coming... i think that org is 95% gigi and he's had a time of it lately... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it's so true. the contemplation of what is healthy and what is not in naming ourselves. it is powerful once decided. which is why i have landed on mostly esoteric ones 😂 but writer and artist are always at the edges... and also what is ours. not what we are given. so much of my initial shedding and initial interest in identity came from being forced into ones for all of childhood... the mind is forever fascinating to me. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen what? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen phenomenal show. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen thank you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i find identifying with things distasteful. it has forever made me uncomfortable. i have spent many hours throughout my life considering what labels i claim spirit star gazer mother reflector human being there are many i have held for a time only to let go storyteller. artist. teacher. editor. amateur astrologer. witness. for years bitcoiner was on my list. at conferences when asked what i do, i would answer, i'm a bitcoiner. even when i had jobs in the space - i thought..; BITCOINER is so much more important. it encapsulated freedom of thought, of movement, of narrative. rebellion with a purpose. an organized schema in the face of chaos. and even though i dropped it off the list years ago, today it feels present. today i feel the idealism of those days. the hope. the shimmer. the crowd. the commuity. the faith. i hear the party lines echoing ; don't trust, verify. stay humble, stack sats. be your own bank. hits differently. much of life is a dice roll, but this is a meaning i had not considered. today i am lost wondering about those days of identity. “bitcoiner” i wonder what in that structure might have helped to lead to this outcome... don’t trust, verify. but... we all had faith. who of us read the tea leaves? the whole narrative around this possibility was that you were protected if you followed these steps. when in actuality, you weren’t. you super were not. the bravado... i am not a public figure. i am not one to push bitcoin on others. i had one friend i reached out to last night as the sky was falling. and still - ... i feel culpable. i feel captured. i feel the narrative won out over the values. i was not exposed, but. my idealism has crashed. my hope for the future of bitcoin is shaken at least and shattered at worst. the deeper i look, the harder it is... be your own bank stack sats because one day they will come to mean something one day they will be real savings and you can sweep them off the exchange and put them into cold storage where they will be safe and you can protect them unless you can’t through little fault of your own... be your own bank. be sovereign. roll the dice. no, but actually - roll the dice. fuck. today i am broken. and i am sorry. and i do not feel like a bitcoiner. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen cute. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen how could you not?... what a way to bust a narrative... a community... a lot of identity... i mean... keep your bitcoin on an exchange? what a landing... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i wonder this, too. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen contemplating the coldcard vulnerability and hack --- it is simply devastating. every new cycle of thought around it brings a different disappointment. but tonight my thoughts are with everyone who lost savings...; i wish there were words to wrap you up and absorb some of the hurt you must have... i am so sorry. i love you. & i am thinking of you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we just got a french bakery in town... it brings me enormous joy. the pastries are very, very good. she ships her flour in from france. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen what a guy npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen home star runner npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen "mama see?" npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning and good luck out there npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😭 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😍 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen wow... i think mozz, but would need to contemplate the loss of extra sharp cheddar... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen gm ❤️✨ love debussy in the evenings. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😂🎯✨ ahhhh this feels spot on. the tea cup... i love it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the best. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen can relate. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we are very fortunate with his working from home and he is a good papa 😂 *camera and mic off, toddler snuggle, back to work* npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen really lovely and thoughtful 🫶 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am much in love with husband after ten years together. as is he. we remind ourselves this is rad and unique., but it definitely exists. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we have a rule: "you can always knock on papa's office door." it is really sweet. 95% of the time, he gets a hug. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen fuck you npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it takes some time..., but it becomes sweet. if always a loss. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen lovely.. have a beautiful day npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen someone hurt him 🫂💔 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i guess i should have but i did not realize there was a pro flock contingency... i recently learned there is a pro tsa lot... so... i should have... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen aaabsolutely. bryan cranston finding wild success in recent years has brought me great joy. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i vaguely remember it.. maybe a few episodes?... remember no opinion on it... too young. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen same. hal is iconic. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen not unless it is their usual way. if it is selective, i don't mind. if it is every time they reply, it's a bit odd. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen malcolm in the middle. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen is yummy. can confirm. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love breakfast for dinner npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen that's lovely npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i started this post with good morning, i love you. then the day went wild, i never finished it, and now i say, good night, sweet dreams. my son asked about my mom today: who's belly was i in?... i told him gramma angie. you didn't get to meet her. why i didn't get to meet her? she died before you were born. we went back and forth about life and death and illness... cancer, specifically. it was really beautiful...; i am amazed by his sweet thought processes. he's so young... we ended on how i see her in hawks and eagles... birds of prey... she loved to fly.. probably her favorite thing. followed by her love of gardening.. she had an out of this world flower garden. we went out to our garden to plant the last seedlings and move some hoses around before our weekend road trip. right at the entrance was an owl's feather. "gramma angie!" ... i think as of today all feathers to him will be my mom... pretty special... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my version is shrug, smile, + "okay!." npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woof... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ahhhh shenanigans... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love home 🫶✨ gm npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😂❤️ this is why i internet. thank you npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen dreams. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen in my dreams this is my house library npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen you are wonderful and one of my favorite people here. good night. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good luck out there. will miss you. 🫶 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i figure if pluto transit is opposition then jupiter must be conjunct!. i love jupiter... such lovely energy... i consider it my ruler since neptune fucks me up 😂 pluto and i groove, fortunately. perhaps respect of the depths... lots of 12th house energy... that's terrifying and i'm glad cancer saw you through!... aquarius 8th house sounds rad. i'm still working on my house comprehension, though. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen you get the beneficence of jupiter with your venus. 🫶 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woah!. mine is conjunct! npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen no, but messed up that we all see it could be. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we're aiming next year for chickens. & i was just told about bee keeping in a real way... a new thought... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love their relationship so much 😭❤️ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ugh retire npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ghey npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen remains my favorite... you should do it. and i got to wear booby shirts for the first time ever. which is how the boobies became a topic of conversation opening up the boob job park 😂 the flat chested privilege of never wearing a bra 💅 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen a strange turn of events for a flat lady. i suddenly understood why sports bras existed. i did not wear one, but i got it. my first pregnancy i told a friend i got a boob job 😂 because they grew before my belly. ah. forever one of my favorite moments. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am just going to be pregnant or breast feeding until i hit menopause. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen leave the cities. they are the most mentally deranged. #nevent1q…y4fq npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i mean, am i really gonna split up a litter ?... would haunt me for life... i will have to take them all. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i've always seen it given to eleanor roosevelt, but there's not much evidence there. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it has taken me awhile to get used to... and to see it as a blessing. that we have found them, can afford the help through the early ages, and not get hung up on the mediocrity of our born family system. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen where i live everyone is super friendly and lovely. i think it is because it is small-ish and remote and if you live here, you really chose to live here, so we are all overly happy about it 😂❤️ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen so sorry for your loss... 🫂 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen for us it is building the community. our families are rather useless, which is unfortunate, but rather normal for the boomers of our hometown. we find ourselves paying for family more than historically would be true., but we are so value aligned with our people... it is slow work, but better for all of us in the long run. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i wouldn't live in california anyway npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i like how it puts the gates into narrative form. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen so sorry 😢🩷🫂 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen enjoy the exhale npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ooh i like how it calls itself poetry. that is sweet. i learned about human design maybe six years ago. i am a reflector. i remember reading about it and feeling incredibly relieved that it was not all in my head and i was not broken 😂✨. i did not start closely looking at it until last year. reflector, 3/5. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen is this different human design? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen eat slowly. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen mmm... good for you. perhaps i will find one tomorrow. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen night night npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen 😂😭 next year... cukes next year. it is a learning curve. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the tomatoes i have in containers on my porch look amazing... it is so disheartening 😂 i want my garden to be winning. definitely a struggle year for the in-ground, but just so, so glad to have it started. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen country problems, indeed 🥰 love them... my fil "feeds the critters" and asked why we don't and i got to say, "because that's how you get bears." i have the dogs, but they aren't good enough hunters to catch the little guys... a cat... or two... that is the way. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen uh oh i hadn't considered this... i just thought warm and cuddly. but also opens the door for two kitties...... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen lovely. ✨☀️ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen one of my favorite trends on nostr is the beautiful, simple sharing of a day in the life... i am pretty personally private, but i will try it out today. good morning, yummy coffee. i started a garden this year. last year we moved and had a baby, so i am really excited it exists now. it has been so much wonderful work... this morning i will go out and see if my tomatoes have taken off yet. the ground squirrels ate my cucumber plants... just. tore them from the ground. roots and all. it may be time for a cat... i will probably wait until camping season is over before committing to a kitten. but my husband is warming up to the idea. or my son and i are just breaking him down. will let you know at the end of summer... we would name it soup. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning ☀️✨ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love my rowing machine. gm and good luck out there. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning. good luck out there 🩷✨☀️ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen feel this. ugh and the noises. 😂😭❤️❤️ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am doing just fine, thank you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen not very often. i like f1 and my son watches movies on it, so maybe once a week? we're above average with the world cup right now. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ours exists, but is not the center piece of our home. it is hidden. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i've always thought a lot about spaces and how they should support the purpose of the room. i like this as an additional consideration. like easter eggs, but they feel natural. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this is a neat concept npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i put it off for awhile... to recreate my playlists will be a bitch and to lose the easy stream, but the app was getting so dodgy... i finally lost it and got myself nice speakers and hard wire them to my computer. loving the quality upgrade even if my selection is limited. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen fun crazy helps raise interesting children. alternatively their rebellious phase would be good and responsible, so win win?