Autistic Welsh NHS emergency care quality improvement person. Absolute believer in universal human rights being actually universal to all humans. (they/them or he/him) Tends to post about music, sandwiches, bit of cricket, a little politics (not too much). May sometimes be a bit miserable because things haven't been great, apologies in advance. And really doesn't get on with Tories. (Profile pic: Buster Keaton sits unhappily in a steamship funnel; header is a glass teapot full of leaves.) Location: Tynedale, sunny Northumberland, in the northeast of England having: a nice cup of tea and a sit down and listening to: all sorts of music that I shall wang on about with great enthusiasm, once, then never mention again follow requests turned on because: there's been too many spammy accounts about, but if you look vaguely human (or animal, or plant) then I'll accept the request as soon as I notice it
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Last Notes npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I'm really glad that the long-running English coastal path project is finally on the verge of completion. It's a very good thing and I've been following its development over many years. https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cy0dxexdd8xo But for crying out loud does *everything* have to be named after royal people now? This is nuts. Do you know what the coastal path in Wales is called? It's called the Wales Coast Path/Llwybr Arfordir Cymru. It's not named after anyone. Because why would it be? The whole damn point is that the sea and the shore belong to all of us. And we've all seen the stories about councils and public bodies having to figure out what to do with all the things with the name Prince Andrew attached to them, perhaps there's a lesson there about not naming things after people purely because they happen to have a particular ancestor. What a shitty way to blemish an otherwise deeply good bit of news. Stop with the grovelling already. </rant> npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway For some reason, I have as an earworm the muzak version of Tie A Yellow Ribbon, as featured prominently in The Wrong Trousers. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Very important questions. The bit about not raising it at the time feels important to me. Why wouldn't you do that, if you were actually trying to help? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Also in gardening news, I forgot I planted irises last year, so this was a very pleasant surprise. https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/116/074/506/656/332/135/original/9749ba93c502aef3.jpg npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway No, I'm sorry for getting so worked up. I just don't express myself very well! Thank you for being very reasonable about it. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I was trying - and apologies if my wording was poor - to find a way of saying 'different people were treated differently' and 'nearly all people were treated badly in some way' without one appearing to contradict the other. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I've just started a new party, and we've already got 269k members. So the Rollo Treadway party is the biggest in the country! I mean, you'll believe Reform's evidence-free claim, why wouldn't you believe me? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway This is an issue I've encountered at work. Healthy Life Expectancy is lower in our region than any other region in England, primarily because of respiratory illnesses, and the respiratory illnesses have their roots in mining and pollution and smoking. But you can't fix those problems now. The northeast's industrial past is long gone. However, the healthcare burden they've left behind is not going to significantly decline for another twenty years or so. Funding services here at the same level as in places without these issues is inevitably going to create a shortage, and there's absolutely no way around this. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway As a tall person, I don't want a bathroom without a tub. I want a tub built for tall people. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I hope so, but sometimes membership waves fall away. Like with the LibDems, who picked up a huge number of members as the main anti-brexit party in England and it appears from recent reports that they've pretty much all left again. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway You come swanning into this thread, throwing your puns around, no care for the fowl behaviour you're exhibiting. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Yep. I protested about that back when it was still a Bill. One of the first things that politicised me (along with the ban on protesting during the visit of Jiang Zemin the same year). My biggest concern then was the power it gave the Home Secretary to designate *literally any group of people* as a Terrorist Organisation, via secondary legislation, and that 'being supportive' included attending any kind of event that a member of the proscribed organisation was speaking at, even if you went there to protest against them. And that this could be used to prosecute anyone as a terrorist if they happened to be in the vicinity of a protest or similar event. And, well, look where we are now. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I wouldn't expect any kind of alliance. If all the people who periodically say they're going to start a new party of the left actually wanted to have an impact, they wouldn't make a party and ally with the Greens, they'd join the Greens. That this keeps not happening is instructive. They want their own party because ego matters more than actively helping people. If Zarah Sultana had said the other day that she didn't think Labour was trying to make a difference so she was joining the Green party (or even the LibDems), I'd have a lot of respect for her. Saying instead that she was going to be leader of a new party, not so much. It's just yet another Me Me Me Party, like George Galloway's various endeavours. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway They're also a very good example of how there are many MPs who - when not cowed by the party whip or overly concerned with ambition - are actually reasonable people who want to do what they believe to be the right thing for their constituents. Unfortunately, they're also a very good example of how Parliamentary schedules need to be reformed, and how 'but we've always done it this way' really isn't an appropriate reason for giving such limited time to incredibly important and complex decisions. (Having an already very limited time for abortion debate reduced further in order to hold a vote on penalties for fly tipping - a vote that was certain to end in defeat for the amendment - is clearly not serving the country's interests. And that's not to say fly tipping is unimportant. Of course fly tipping matters. But, you know, bit of common sense, bit of proportion wouldn't go amiss.) npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Well, for starters, I wouldn't describe myself as far left. Although perhaps I would be considered that way in the US, I don't know. I've always felt that far left is more 'workers seizing the means of production', rather than simply 'maybe we could try to not let everyone die'. But I've always thought of myself as a social democrat. And I can't remember not being in that kind of area, though my views on individual policies have evolved, of course. It's not my fault everything else has moved to the right. I think the big moment for me was when the Blair Government started moving towards being more authoritarian. A big influence was the way that legitimate, peaceful protest was aggressively banned around places that Jiang Zemin (then the Chinese leader) would be visiting. I had friends who were treated appallingly for just quietly standing there and holding a placard criticising the brutality of the Beijing regime. I'm not saying that was the first political thing I cared about, but I honestly can't remember what would be. That was a really big jolt though, the kind of thing you don't forget. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Fun fact (which I'm sure you already know but some won't): one of the lawyers working to try and defend the rights of people to dance, against the government's ridiculous anti-rave legislation, was an earnest young bloke called Keir Starmer. Wonder what ever happened to him. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Took a very gentle walk down to the pond in the woods and back. You can't really see them, my camera isn't good enough, but there are baby moorhens here. https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/114/426/758/292/908/936/original/20028b1c5ab925d2.jpg npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway If you have an election to vote in tomorrow, please vote. But not just that. Please vote for who you want *on your council*. The media has always treated local elections as a glorified opinion poll. But that's not right at all. In fact, it's not even useful as an opinion poll - low turnout, low stakes, low publicity and limited options make it pretty much useless in that regard. And for all that party leaders will look very serious on Friday's news, the parties all know that it really is just for effect. And as for voting in order to make a statement, again, the limitations of local elections mean that no party is going to give a toss about a voter's protest. Voting with regard to any national party issue is a completely wasted vote, even if the newspapers refuse to acknowledge that (what else would they have to write about?) But local democracy *is important*. It really matters. Schools, parks, roads, libraries, planning, bins, leisure centres, council tax levels, etc etc etc, it's all a really big deal in our actual everyday lives. Council votes actually do make a difference. Obviously, I'm not going to tell you who to vote for. You can figure that out for yourself! But please, if you're able, do vote, and do vote for who you want on your council. It's so important and so widely ignored. #UKPol #politics #vote npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I want to say a few things, after having read the Supreme Court judgement on the characteristic of sex in the Equality Act. Firstly, that my heart and all support I have goes to all trans/enby/other people here and elsewhere. No doubt, a great many arseholes will misunderstand this decision, and I am very aware that pointing out that their behaviour remains wrong in law and potentially criminal will not alleviate that pain. Transphobes are always wrong; that they have a new way to be wrong helps nobody, and only causes more pain. I wish I could ease that pain, and know that I stand with all trans/enby/other people in any effort to ease that pain. It has been the case since time immemorial that two problems dog our judicial system at all levels: that having the money to pay for better lawyers can distort decisions, and that the judiciary - especially at senior levels - is dreadfully lacking in diversity. I felt that latter point especially when reading the claim in the judgement that MPs and Parliamentary drafters could not possibly have been mistaken or ill-informed when considering the rights and needs of trans people; it's clearly the case in 2025 that many MPs and Parliamentary drafters do not much understand trans rights issues, and it would have been even more so a decade and a half ago, when the Equality Act was being drafted and debated in Parliament. However, many people who might read this - in the UK and elsewhere - will have little or no familiarity with this country's judiciary, and I want to clarify a point the repeatedly comes up in regard to legal rights: This is not the US, and regardless of the dominance of the US on social media, its constitutional quirks are not widely repeated. The UK Supreme Court is not an activist court. It does not have conservative judges and liberal judges. It does not have judges appointed on the whim of a temporary political leader. Its judges are appointed by representatives of panels which appoint to lower courts (plus two existing members of the Supreme Court), which themselves are a mix of various legal professionals and lay people. I feel it is essential to make clear that this is not, as it would be in the US, a matter of right-wing judges appointed by right-wing politicians to make right-wing decisions. It is a matter of poorly written law, which Parliament will one day seek to revise and clarify. As I've said, I disagree with a fundamental part of the decision because I disagree with the assumption that Parliament was adequately informed and competent at the time of the Equality Act; without that assumption, I don't believe it would be possible to reach the Court's conclusion. Others may feel it would still be a possible conclusion, I claim no professional expertise. But it is still a matter of how the law is worded, and how Parliament may seek to amend the law in future. This is important because it must guide action. MPs are in the decisive position. Parliament could, if it wished, pass an Act tomorrow to guarantee trans rights (unlike other countries, the right of Parliament in the UK to pass and enforce an Act explicitly negating a Supreme Court decision is effectively unlimited, as seen in last year's absurd political actions regarding the safety or otherwise of Rwanda). But we all know it will not do so, we all know there is not a majority in Parliament in favour of greater and more explicit legal protections for trans people. Activism must focus on changing that balance through persuasion and education. Write to your MP. Protest. Support and/or join groups campaigning for legal recognition of trans rights. If it's relevant and viable where you are (which of course it isn't in many places, but I shan't go on a rant about electoral reform just now), consider how your vote could change the Parliamentary balance. Don't bother with effing online petitions, they do more harm than good. There will be a time (either at the back end of this Parliament, or - I'd suggest more likely - not long after the next election) when Parliament does seek to amend the Equality Act. Its own commission recommends doing so, and I believe that we can certainly read the later paragraphs of this judgement as further encouragement in that direction. This battle will come. Be ready. But also remember this, as many will in the coming days weeks and months try to persuade you otherwise: The decision today affects a very narrow range of circumstances, beyond those covered by existing legal provisions. It is not a wide-ranging judgement, even if transphobic media try to pretend that it is. The right of all trans people, whatever their circumstances, to be free of discrimination and harassment remains unchanged. Being trans remains a protected characteristic under the Equality Act. Trans people cannot be excluded on a whim (and the status of toilets and changing facilities is not altered by this decision, as - contrary to what transphobes believe - the sign on a toilet has never been a matter of law in the UK, except as regards adequate provision of disabled toilets). It is also true, and clearly iterated in the judgement, that discrimination on the grounds of sex as a protected characteristic continues to be based on the discriminator's *perception*; if a trans person is discriminated against or harassed based on the discriminator perceiving them as being male or female (regardless of the trans person's identity), that remains an offence. I say this not to diminish the harm and pain caused by this judgement, both in its specific application, and more significantly, in the cultural impact and effective encouragement of transphobia. I say this as a reminder that those legal protections still exist, and there are far more circumstances in which a trans woman's right to be treated as a woman is guaranteed, than there are circumstances affected by the decision. Transphobes will seek to argue otherwise. They are wrong. Do not believe, as they want you to believe, that trans people are now unprotected from discrimination and harassment. And believe me when I say that I remain in awe of your strength and humanity, and that I continue to believe that your strength and humanity will win out in the end. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway By which I mean, this sort of thing should probably be identifiable and stoppable with early intervention? Shouldn't it? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway On Thursday, I posted "Today has not been good. I had all that stress about the trains, then I shouted at people for political reasons, and then I felt shitty and guilty for shouting, and I got hardly any work done, and also my Mum says she's going to phone this evening, and my brain feels like it's taking a beating." Followed shortly by "my brain doesn't like taking a battering and it'll probably get into a bad way" And then on the weekend, I was all "why have I got so little energy I can barely get about the house" and "I made myself exercise and now I feel horrendous" And by last night it was "I wish I could die painlessly" It's like a plane's engines failing and it gradually but unstoppably starts transitioning from 'being in the air' to 'being smashed on the ground'. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Garden centre was nice. At this time of year, very much in between seasons, some empty shelves where the summer flowers and herbs will go, lots of boxes and racks of things waiting to be part of a display, and so on. But still lots of spring bedding plants and all-year shrubs, and some things that smelt lovely. I bought the seed potatoes I wanted, and some tulips and irises that I'll attempt to grow outside the back porch. I also bought garlic; I don't know if I'll be able to grow it successfully but you never know if you don't try. I have a quick question about the garlic for my #gardening friends: It seems like I should wait just a little bit before planting the garlic out. There might still be some real harshness left in the winter. Should I just store the bulbs in a cool, dark, dry place until I'm ready to use them? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway No, it's dark, almost black (I think it's actually very dark brown but that might just be the light). npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Insect enthusiasts: do you know what this fellow is? #insects #entomology https://media.beige.party/media_attachments/files/113/975/010/416/954/978/original/a321206af8aabc2d.jpg npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I had a shower and a shave and now the right side of my face feels significantly warmer than the left. Is this: a) stupid dermatological and/or vascular stuff that will sort itself out shortly; or, b) a sign that I'll be dead by noon? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Morning everyone. Had a dream with a thrilling story but woke up just as the big secret was about to revealed. Gahhh. Hope you're all doing well today. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Also, and I've said this a lot of times but I don't think anyone bloody listens: my Trust has had to pay a lot of private ambulance services to do work that we should be able to do, but can't, because the previous Government didn't allow us enough staff and resources. That, right there, that *is* privatisation. And we should get rid of those private ambulances and we will, but it'll take years and years to be able to do so. And if we get rid of them a day too soon, then people will die. This is what we have to deal with. Not ideological purity, not getting confused about what privatisation actually means. Patients, who need us, right now. These are not hypothetical questions. So every time we talk about 'is the privatisation? Is that privatisation?', I'd like you just to stop and ask yourself: if the NHS doesn't do this, right now, today, will anyone die? You might start to realise that some things are more important than whether a particular choice of words sounds like secret privatisation. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I think that, as usual, the necessity of the private sector is just being completely ignored. I know everyone likes to say 'get rid of all private contracts!', but private contracts in the NHS provide us with: medicines, medical equipment, computers, software, cleaning supplies, latex gloves, bandages, thread, beds, chairs, sheets, soft furnishings, defibs, plumbing, tools, cables, vehicles, parts of vehicles, heating, lights, pacemakers, clothes, trolleys, air conditioning, paint, windows, syringes, drips, carpets, batteries, paper, pens, I could go on and on and on It's not about 'the private sector being more efficient', it's that the NHS is not the same as other public services, you can't just say 'no more private contracts' because then IT WOULDN'T BLOODY WORK and the fact that my NHS laptop is from Hewlett Packard does not mean that Hewlett Packard own the NHS. This is what drives me up the wall. It's the complete refusal to engage with what the NHS is - a vast, incredibly complex and fantastically technical healthcare system - and instead treat it like a bus service that's either run by the council or by some private company. Yet every fucking time the Government talks about working with state-of-the-art manufacturers and developers (which are necessarily private), there's the same old cry of 'privatisation!' and it's not that at all. We need this equipment and this medicine and this software etc etc etc. It saves lives and it's amazing. And we should not be seeking to deny anyone the best treatment because we can't distinguish between an equipment manufacturer and contracting out of NHS primary care services. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway There are huge staffing issues. Staffing is at the heart of everything. But I don't think it's possible to go from 'the DoH are trying to solve NHS problems without solving the staffing problem first' (which is probably true) to 'the DoH is planning to end the NHS as a free-at-the-point-of-use public service, even though doing so would likely guarantee defeat at the next election'. I'm just so tired of imaginary privatisation being talked up instead of actual problems. There's probably nothing, save for another major inflation crisis, that will have more impact on whether or not Labour retain power in 2029 than whether the NHS is improving. And they absolutely know this. So I just don't buy this idea that there's a sneaky plan to lose the next election. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway It seems to me (though I really don't know much about this) that novelists are also affected in the same way, that there's still a lot of money in the industry but only a tiny proportion of authors can get anywhere near making a living. And even then, that living involves far more self-promotion than used to be the case. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I think that's very much the direction. There will always be some people able to make a full-time living from music alone, but I doubt it will ever again be so many as in the late 20th century. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway But there is an enormous amount of fantastic new music being made, all the time. It's never been easier to make and distribute music. None of which takes away from the huge financial problems. Musicians should of course be able to make a fair income from their music, whether recorded or live, and that's not happening (and it's worth remembering that, contrary to what is often stated, streaming produces *enormous* profits; it's just that those profits are sucked up by the labels). I don't know how to solve this problem, because the solution is to convince a tremendous number of people to buy the music they enjoy, and how do you do that? How do you change consumer behaviour when it involves spending more money? I have no clue. Although even then, if there was a radical increase in spending on music, we'd also inevitably see an increase in how much is taken by labels. As was ever the case. However, I do get confused by the dichotomy here: on the one hand, I hear all the time about what a terrible crisis music is facing; on the other hand, I hear so much amazing new music. I posted something a few weeks ago about all the new releases I'd loved, and there were 150 albums (well, albums and a handful of EPs) released in 2024 that thrilled me. That's not to say there is no trouble, because of course there is, the financial issues are not going away. And yet, it's not impacting on how much wonderful music is being released. Great art will always endure; it's up to the rest of us to ensure great artists can do so too. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Not just the act of brexit itself, but the years of absolutely appalling behaviour by the Government that went along with it. Leaving the EU was always a bad idea but our international standing was made so, so much worse by the behaviour of a bunch of chancers and clowns. They should not be forgiven. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway Morning everyone. Dreamt I was running. Running! I don't run. Anyway, it was no fun because Simon Mayo stole my drink. Hope you're all having or going to have a good Friday. Earworm this morning (and ever since I mentioned it yesterday) is For the Love of Money by the O'Jays https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxW789jHXII npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway If I'm kind of unwell, I don't have to keep up with the mandatory minimum amount of exercise, do I? npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I also don't wear a poppy, and again, it's the jingoism and the military nationalism. I wore one up until 2003. The sight of warmongering politicians wearing poppies at the cenotaph tipped me over the edge; no more. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I don't know what the outcome of this consultation will be. But I do think it pretty foolish to object to it because of general vibes about how you think it might go in the future. We do need a major consultation and we do need investment and development in the technology and software which will enable the provision of the best possible care. And yes, this technology and software is made by private companies - but it has to be, because the NHS is not and cannot be a manufacturer. The promise that improvements and reforms will be focused on best practice is heartening to me. I say that with a complete acceptance that politicians make grand promises and don't fulfil them on a very regular basis. And I'm concerned that the article makes no mention of staffing (and without more and better-treated staff, as I say regularly, no reform is possible). But I do think starting a much-needed process, and fighting to ensure promises are kept, should not be dismissed because of how you think the future might pan out, because of bad vibes, because of a personal dislike of a minister who might have been shuffled away long before the process comes to fruition. Of course, that might be because I have the unfashionable view that preventing avoidable death and injury is the most important thing for the NHS, rather than political bad vibes. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway There's quite a lot of people here (not just in the UK) who will put their own very precise personal principles ahead of anything realistic and practical. But there are also a lot of very sensible people who are willing to try and make a difference, willing to try and help others, rather than sitting still and waiting for a revolution that will never come. Honestly, though, there are ideologically annoying people everywhere, and I'd far rather deal with delusional but well-meaning folk here than fascists on other platforms. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway The notes are there, but no guarantee on how easy they'll be to find! Plus, being able to use the data is essential. My mum's antenatal notes might exist in decades from now, but if the problems around my birth were part of some pattern, you'll never be able to study that and make improvements from a coffee-stained piece of paper. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway That reminds me of my Dad. Left school at the earliest opportunity, no qualifications to speak of, but had an intuitive understanding of how any kind of machine worked that has always been beyond me. (He was also someone who rarely ever read a book his whole life, but one of the only books he did read was A Brief History Of Time. He is always a reminder to me that how society judges intelligence is completely messed up, and dismisses so many brilliant minds who aren't academic.) npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway During the election night coverage, when the scale of the Tories' defeat was becoming apparent, a pundit - I'm afraid I can't remember who, it was a long night - some pundit said that no major party in modern times has ever had such a gap between the politics of the Parliamentary party and the membership. I keep thinking of that. This has been true for a while - look at the elections of Liz Truss and Iain Duncan Smith against the wishes of MPs - but the recent election has exacerbated it enormously. So many prominent hard and far right Tory MPs either lost or stood down voluntarily, and also, most (maybe all?) of the supposed 'rising stars' of the right who tried to enter Parliament were beaten. For all the attention that the far right rump gets - and I agree that Jenrick is the most likely next leader - those MPs closer to the centre-right are now comfortably the largest wing. But neither the majority of the membership, nor the party's main media allies, nor the frequently extreme major individual donors are anywhere near a moderate position. I don't think there are many Tories at all - certainly no-one senior - who understand the extent to which their humiliation was pragmatic and practical rather than ideological, that their ineptitude, corruption and self-obsession lost them far more seats than any notion of what constitutes left and right. And I don't see how they can overcome that problem whilst the Parliamentary party remains dominated by MPs who have to dance to the tune of their supporters, to ideas that those MPs know to be - to use a leadership candidate's phrasing - completely batshit. In other words, when the newly-elected hard right leader is forced out by disgruntled MPs (no later than the end of 2027, I predict, possibly much earlier) they need to find a replacement who can unify the party whilst also appearing attractive to the average centre-right voter. Good luck finding one of those! npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I think a number of factors. Yes, some of them will be scared of prosecution. Some will be scared of much larger numbers of anti-fascists. Some will have looked at last night and, yes, coordinated and decided that they're not going to bother, not with such huge opposition. Some will be surprised that there was such opposition (as the Prof says, many of these people believe that they're the majority and are shocked to find that's not the case). Some will have been out once and decided that's enough for them, because they're not committed and focused activists, and they're also overwhelmingly not young, and there was probably something they wanted on the telly. Some will be deluded and dim enough to believe that they were starting a revolution and will be upset and humiliated that this, yet again, hasn't happened But I think we shouldn't forget that there simply weren't that many of them to begin with. A few thousand people dotted around the country, hundreds of whom have already been arrested. npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I've had very frequent suicidal ideation for so long that I even have a scale for how much the ideation is a genuine risk, or how much it's simply idle or intrusive thoughts, so that I might have a chance of seeking help before reaching the very low points. And to be honest, the best help that anyone has ever given me for that is a prescription for citalopram. Works way better than any advice. But the fact remains that, for the foreseeable future, I'm considerably more likely to die by suicide than any other cause. This doesn't mean I'm about to do anything, so nobody worry please (on my 0-5 scale where 5 is an active attempt, I'm between 1 and 2, which is perfectly fine for me). I'm just being realistic. I don't even *want* to die. As I've tried to explain to various medical professionals, it's not wanting to die that's the problem for me, it's feeling like I will *have to* die because living has become unviable. And that feeling exists because my life is shit. Nobody ever seems to want to engage with that, although I'm sure it accounts for a substantial proportion of all deaths by suicide: not being able to keep living because life is just shit. There seems to be an assumption that it's always a chemical imbalance, and that someone with suicidal ideation is prevented by biological processes from seeing how great life really is. I think we need to be more realistic about this, that some people who are extremely unhappy actually have a good reason for being extremely unhappy. And perhaps we can then look more at the practical things which cause extreme unhappiness. Perhaps, crazy idea, perhaps we could as a society aim for people to have better lives. Honestly, I find it othering and isolating when advice so often tends to be "remember you are loved" or "I promise things will get better" or "life really is beautiful". Don't get me wrong, if those are helpful to some people, great. But for me, and I'm sure many like me: you're just reminding me that I'm not loved, which is kind of a shitty thing; you have no right to promise that unless you have the means to effect it; and, no, life is shit. (I would politely invite everyone who knows me even slightly to never, ever promise me that things will get better. That isn't fair. It isn't fair at all.) npub15n7gcq8qd5a5gtvth6k57lwrxy7hjvqq78nm2vw30zj6fqg2x4hq9nt9fk RolloTreadway I decided to put the bread machine on, so I've fresh bread for lunch. The yeast tin is almost empty, and when I reached in with the spoon, my thumb caught on the edge where the ring pull lid had been. I say caught on the edge, I mean 'cut deeply by a razor sharp edge'. Lots of blood, way beyond 'stick a plaster on and keep going'. I've wrapped it tightly in non-adhesive gauze dressing. Great start to the day. Still got the bread going, obviously. Got to have priorities.