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2025-09-28 07:40:21 CEST

i dont have to say anything

2025-09-28 07:25:36 CEST

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rest, finished, thru
goodnight

2025-09-28 07:23:10 CEST

lmao thank you
me from the past
with so much love,
present me
#note1gf9…pzn8

2025-09-28 07:18:52 CEST

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why? why be so bad at public comms
who would ever in their right mind say that to grieving bereaved family?
even just optically, it's so diminishing

2025-09-28 07:16:07 CEST

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that's fear & false bravado

2025-09-28 07:15:18 CEST

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"Truly incredible that in their own son's obit they blame others for his death and make no mention of the 6-month offer."
this is not generosity

2025-09-28 07:12:59 CEST

the minor gesture
what is generosity

2025-09-28 07:12:17 CEST

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say ... in clarity i mean inference
which Charlie Pierce rightly named

2025-09-28 07:10:21 CEST

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do they think the public isnt comprised of human beings

2025-09-28 07:09:46 CEST

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did nothing wrong
6 months
then to say "mere" ?????

2025-09-28 07:08:55 CEST

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my one night still fucks me up.
6 months, 6 months
& thats not even touching the injustice
thats tiger to tiger

2025-09-28 07:06:07 CEST

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id rather die then spend 5 minutes in the hands of cops & paramedics & a defib
6 months is no joke

2025-09-28 07:04:39 CEST

i said all that to come back here
#note1qh6…wrmt

2025-09-28 07:01:24 CEST

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i dont know if that comes across as dark
it isnt dark to me
it is a funny maneuver
& a grounding one

2025-09-28 06:59:22 CEST

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you had better live after me
if you go first
you are embalmed

2025-09-28 06:58:57 CEST

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like there is such a serious
you are not dying before me
in there

2025-09-28 06:58:38 CEST

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can you imagine
my dad is amazing

2025-09-28 06:58:14 CEST

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i was like: please cremate me
he was like: no

2025-09-28 06:57:44 CEST

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i once told my dad: do not embalm me. do not put me in a coffin. i am spiritually profoundly unaligned with that
& my dad was just like: your death isnt about you

2025-09-28 06:56:33 CEST

i can bring this to an even more casual easy place so i will
#note1d2j…p2gf

2025-09-28 06:54:31 CEST

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i know the difference between
ideally id like to perish all by myself in the woods & be eaten by vultures
& that actually, that isnt reasonable to request

2025-09-28 06:52:53 CEST

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i understand that
i understand the responsibility of having people who love me means my death may be under capture
thats ok to me
it is more important to me that the people who love me are ok
then it is to die free

2025-09-28 06:51:30 CEST

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that's me
now, is that fair to ask of people who love me?
absolutely not.

2025-09-28 06:50:43 CEST

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the look on this poor old lady's face
i was so sorry but it was the absolute truth

2025-09-28 06:50:09 CEST

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if i get shot just let me die

2025-09-28 06:49:56 CEST

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& i was like: do not let my last moments be in the hands of cops

2025-09-28 06:49:28 CEST

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it basically boiled down to:
would you rather (meaning me) in the hypothetical of whatever, a random stray bullet, would you rather we call 911 or not

2025-09-28 06:48:01 CEST

deadly serious but light hearted tone ok?
these words
i told the people at the encampment
when we were talking something out philosophically where i stood

2025-09-28 06:45:59 CEST

from wikipedia:
Speaking at his son's funeral on January 15, Robert Swartz said, "Aaron was killed by the government, and MIT betrayed all of its basic principles."
Tom Dolan, husband of U.S. Attorney for Massachusetts Carmen Ortiz, whose office prosecuted Swartz's case, replied with criticism of the Swartz family: "Truly incredible that in their own son's obit they blame others for his death and make no mention of the 6-month offer."
This comment triggered some criticism; Esquire writer Charlie Pierce replied, "the glibness with which her husband and her defenders toss off a 'mere' six months in federal prison, low-security or not, is a further indication that something is seriously out of whack with the way our prosecutors think these days."

2025-09-28 06:42:24 CEST

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doesnt need to be comprehensible
heartwill
isnt a question of reasonable

2025-09-28 06:39:48 CEST

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i may be truly incomprehensibly nuts when it comes to where i will spend my own life, & time, & effort
that's fine to me

2025-09-28 06:37:47 CEST

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that is how much for Aaron

2025-09-28 06:37:30 CEST

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i have the patience for that no problem
the bravery no problem
bandwidth no problem
lets go

2025-09-28 06:36:44 CEST

this very moment
to jump back & wake up in 2013
til right back to this moment with +1 Aaron
where do i sign
lets go

2025-09-28 06:35:08 CEST

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would i choose to
would i go back
how far would i go back
knowing i would have to relive what i went thru
at least to Aaron
immediately w/o a doubt

2025-09-28 06:34:13 CEST

was wondering if i could travel thru time as a philosophical question

2025-09-28 06:33:03 CEST

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4644 days

2025-09-28 06:30:36 CEST

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to me. my charity can cover a lot
a lot a lot sometimes even
my understanding, my patience
not Aaron.

2025-09-28 06:29:14 CEST

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unforgivable.

2025-09-28 06:28:03 CEST

i was thinking about Aaron Swartz
technically yesterday now by local time

2025-09-28 06:26:53 CEST

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who is forced to watch free use & cant do anything about it except look away
who pays for that

2025-09-28 06:24:38 CEST

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2025-09-28 06:23:19 CEST

i will write a treatise on free use i s2g

2025-09-28 06:21:26 CEST

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what was the base structure if you dont mind me asking? newspaper or was it paper maiche or anything?

2025-09-28 06:19:57 CEST

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ive made sequins out of paper
old national geographic magazines

2025-09-28 06:19:05 CEST

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i was just thinking about sequins thru time cos i was thinking about my artwork

2025-09-28 06:18:27 CEST

razzledazzlesmile

2025-09-28 06:07:22 CEST

the best dream i have that i feel comfortable sharing publicly like this
is that one day
even if it is in decades
i am comfortable enough to ask questions with the expectation of those questions being answered. like i can afford to expect that. that they will be. with the seriousness they deserve.

2025-09-28 06:03:39 CEST

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insane to find meaning in the objectively absurd to trip over let shallow shit stay shallow

2025-09-28 05:59:47 CEST

https://youtu.be/U9t-slLl30E

2025-09-28 05:57:59 CEST

i dont want to be funny right now
but im gonna share something that isnt ~my mood but to be helpful if reading my words are upsetting

2025-09-28 05:54:58 CEST

carrot & stick??

2025-09-28 05:53:37 CEST

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like how bad was it
to make it like this
to a person
to make a person like this

2025-09-28 05:52:19 CEST

hey that's a person that can't even put a dime on a horse with a cool name
it isnt so bad
if it sounds bad it isnt i dont care
im saying: what would have to happen to a person to make a person like this

2025-09-28 05:50:41 CEST

is that a nice thing to have happened to a person?
like, what must have happened to that person

2025-09-28 05:49:52 CEST

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i am a person
i cannot gamble i cannot bet

2025-09-28 05:49:16 CEST

wouldnt it be way more super normal to be like
obvi i can go to vegas im a person

2025-09-28 05:48:14 CEST

is that human sounding?
does that sound normal

2025-09-28 05:47:43 CEST

inviolable obedience in this matter

2025-09-28 05:46:38 CEST

can you read this
can you hear me
#note17da…gej5

2025-09-28 05:46:11 CEST

i dont mind
i dont do these things anyway

2025-09-28 05:45:50 CEST

can i gamble
cannot

2025-09-28 05:45:32 CEST

can i go to a casino?
cannot

2025-09-28 05:45:13 CEST

cannot

2025-09-28 05:44:01 CEST

can you read this
can you hear me
can you read this
can you hear me
#note10t5…c7wq

2025-09-28 05:42:38 CEST

cannot express how
much i dont care but not cause i dont care
i cannot care

2025-09-28 05:41:40 CEST

the last thing on this earth i would ever do is touch a number

2025-09-28 05:41:16 CEST

dont understand the numbers on the tl
barely glancing at them
didnt read the books
dont know the literature

2025-09-28 05:37:57 CEST

selectively mute
feels like a dream
to not have to worry
cos didnt say a thing
in tension with / tho currently at ease
with the mandate of saying what you need to say
& silence being betrayal

2025-09-28 05:34:13 CEST

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cos what i never say
cannot be weaponized
or misunderstood
cos it was never said

2025-09-28 05:33:30 CEST

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that is why
it is better for me to not write words

2025-09-28 05:32:56 CEST

i know what this means to me
i dont know that it is parseable outside of me
& where i stress is someone misinterpreting that into catastrophe
#note1x60…cw9g

2025-09-28 05:30:00 CEST

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re: on capture
re: freedom from capture
i miss being unabashed
i miss being shameless
i do hope they are not gone for good
but if so, thats ok too. just is what is

2025-09-28 05:28:15 CEST

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to me, it was so delightful re: songs & lyrics re: close textual analysis
hey, i really hate my own words being analyzed
i really pray for the day that stops

2025-09-28 05:26:18 CEST

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maybe thats why im quiet now
maybe not
who can say
i really like what i invented in that broadcast cos it sucked like it was legit a bad idea but i loved it

2025-09-28 05:24:36 CEST

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talking to myself aloud while folding
clothes

2025-09-28 05:23:37 CEST

i like inventing ways
creative is fun for me
earlier when i was doing chores around the house i decided for the first time to do a mini live podcast broadcast

2025-09-28 05:19:39 CEST

if it was for you, it isnt cryptic
if its cryptic, it isnt yours
puzzle all you like with what isnt yours
thats fine we all may waste our own time however we like to spend it

2025-09-28 05:18:00 CEST

not taking bait on decrypting notes

2025-09-28 05:16:44 CEST

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dont feel like talking, not in a bad way just dont feel like it, quiet night to me
cicadas here peaceful
appreciate that alot grateful

2025-09-28 05:13:57 CEST

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if things get better, some things, that's cool
if they stay as, thats ok got strength not flagging feeling fine
no sense of panic
so all is well to me

2025-09-28 05:09:28 CEST

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scrunchie munchkin cannot do more than that. only tiny cannot do more than anyone else. 2 hands. they can hold stuff. thats it.

2025-09-28 05:07:47 CEST

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hey tho, tried
not gonna lie, bit of a bitter smile about it
like brave face fragile about it
but tried
so happy with me i tried

2025-09-28 05:05:39 CEST

damn does this account make me sad

2025-09-28 05:00:10 CEST

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i do the best i can within reason

2024-04-18 08:18:31 CEST