Kensho

Self love is the final challenge

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2025-11-01 12:49:50 CET

@nprofile…jk4v that corporate speech email you sent with “good news” about “customer safety” made me feel not safe at all.
In fact, I assume very strongly that your relocation to France is not in my best interests.
I also assume you’ll get regulated to oblivion.
Good luck. 🫡

2025-10-14 09:25:17 CEST

My quality of life has significantly improved since I decided to go with Apple products.
Linux for a lot of things.
Never windows
But Apple for the fucking win

2025-09-30 17:10:40 CEST

I used to get hayfever really badly. But ever since Kensho I haven’t had it.
Then in the last year my hips and right leg hurt like hell. Emotional work the other day caused it to feel like an electric shock passed down it. Super strange sensation. Now it’s better.
The body is way more subtle and sensitive than our minds can possibly imagine.
#awakening #spirituality

2025-09-19 15:35:18 CEST

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It’s truly a miracle to discover it dissolves with attention

2025-09-19 08:29:37 CEST

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I’m not saying this is you, but I chased saving money like it would one day make me free to do what I wanted. Then one day I realised I was already free. Money comes anyway. Or not. Life is life and you’re it!

2025-09-17 22:11:20 CEST

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Dr Angelo Dilullo manages to do ok.

2025-09-16 11:45:06 CEST

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Nothing is as people say it is, and of course never as they promise it will be. It’s here. It’s getting better. It’s something.

2025-09-16 11:43:10 CEST

Awakening is untying a knot only to discover there is no rope.

2025-09-10 15:00:01 CEST

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I have a job. Kids. A sex life.
Division of labour is still a thing, right?
Someone please take care of this for me.
#nevent1q…rs2y

2025-09-09 21:48:33 CEST

For you to be you
You need me to be me
But I am unknowable
So who are you?

2025-09-09 21:35:37 CEST

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You need therapy.

2025-09-09 19:32:55 CEST

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What happened?

2025-09-09 17:19:26 CEST

There is something perverse about being drawn into a disagreement.
Like the universe is telling you to play the game again until you’ve learnt your lesson.
I’m a really slow learner.
The way out is seeing there is no way out.
“here I am again! Hah! I must like it here. Why do I want this? Why do I want to feel this again?”

2025-09-09 15:48:59 CEST

The Mind
*sets criteria*
*purveys the landscape*
*filters for matches*
*filters for deviations*
The aperture of experience dilates.
Letters on a sign.
The mind reads.
Experience shows it’s just random shapes.
The body-mind reacts.
Is this panic or excitement?
It’s happening!
Not now, I’m driving!
It’s gone.

2025-09-09 09:19:32 CEST

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Please leave me alone. You’re unpleasant.

2025-09-08 15:35:23 CEST

Some people appear in your life to remind you you’re an idiot.
Some people appear to tell you they’re afraid of being an idiot by calling you one.
Idiot is a relative term. It is in fact meaningless.
We all just want to feel love. But love is here and now. It cannot be given, nor taken away. There’s never any more nor less of it. It doesn’t rise and fall, wax nor wane.
If someone calls you an idiot, know they are actually deeply wounded.
Dumbass.

2025-09-07 16:39:41 CEST

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I use this platform specifically to vent into the void, and to allow the emotion to flow. Mostly I write a diary, but this is also a place for my negativity.
So filters upon filters here.
Just saying. Life’s pretty good.

2025-09-07 16:26:50 CEST

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The point isn’t solving the problem, the point is wants and needs. My soul requires work in the garden. I find it a worthwhile activity. For her, it’s worthless.

2025-09-07 09:56:13 CEST

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At 2 and 3 I hope not!

2025-09-07 09:39:44 CEST

We got a house with a garden. The wife didn’t calculate looking after the garden into our daily lives.
Negotiating having to cut the grass is exhausting. Like I have something to do with it. Getting in her way of a happy life.
I do the same thing of course. We all do it. Until we don’t.

2025-09-02 10:04:57 CEST

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Damn it! 🤭

2025-09-02 09:25:51 CEST

Ridicule and retreat.
The calling card of the coward.
Do you pull the covers up high enough at night? In the dark.
I’m still with you.
Whispering.
“Looser”

2025-09-01 18:17:09 CEST

What the heck is a “spiritual materialist?”
Some smart boi “corrected me” by saying there’s no separate category with nothingness and then proceeded to categorise me as such.
Dickhead
#asknostr

2025-09-01 17:42:21 CEST

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Telling people what to do.
Who you talking to, sunshine?
#nevent1q…nzfv

2025-09-01 17:33:07 CEST

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It’s perfectly normal to phase in and out. To go through the dark night of the soul. To still have ego structures.
It can be the case that the empty nature of things is seen. That no distance is experienced. And then for the ego to establish itself. There’s nothing wrong with that. I don’t control it.
You started by “correcting me” - I was asking you if you had seen it too, perhaps hoping you’d catch the joke…and you became evasive and then unkind.
Congrats, you at least demonstrated you “know” more than me. But everything I wrote was a true story.
You constructed much from what I wrote. What a surprise, it came out in your favour as you being the “smart guy”
I hope you get over it, whatever it is.

2025-08-29 19:38:06 CEST

I hate social media

2025-08-29 18:49:30 CEST

Beware those who know
There is only god
The rest is metaphor

2025-08-29 18:30:32 CEST

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I find it to be more confusing for family members if I giggle every time I say “I”. It’s fine. It unfolds as it needs to.

2025-08-29 18:08:20 CEST

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The problem with the word “I” is in the believing of it, DUUUDE.
Best story ever.

2025-08-29 17:34:02 CEST

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This profile is called kensho.
Not via some vain hope.
I have passed through the gateless gate and wept and laughed and danced and sang.
I have seen my face before I was born.
I have wept for those who can never die.
My approach is going rather well.
Good luck to you.

2025-08-29 17:16:49 CEST

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HAVE YOU SEEN IT?

2025-08-29 16:56:29 CEST

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Have YOU seen it?

2025-08-29 14:25:37 CEST

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The empty nature of all things is reality. All else is mental delusion. The heart sutra spells it out very directly. I’m afraid we’re all mad.

2025-08-29 13:38:49 CEST

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They put the axe in there themselves and then run around blaming everyone for their headache.

2025-08-29 13:36:33 CEST

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After dealing with an unhinged colleague today, this is exactly what I needed.

2025-08-27 11:49:53 CEST

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A 420 star general with super top secret clearance told me off the record that everything you read is true.

2025-08-21 18:15:59 CEST

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That boy needs therapy, not a platform for his mental illness

2025-08-21 09:18:29 CEST

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I have it on good authority that God was three sheets to the wind when he lit his fart and… bang! Jesus was a sherry man, and Buddha means “he who is shitfaced” in Pali.

2025-08-01 11:52:55 CEST

Many people marry the reflection of their unresolved emotional patterns.
I count myself in that cohort.

2025-07-09 16:39:33 CEST

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Money. For the definition of money inherently involves the properties of freedom.

2025-07-08 08:54:32 CEST

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For ye have the poor always with you; but me ye have not always.
- Mathew 26:11

2025-07-07 16:17:19 CEST

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In the shadow-work meaning. “My life” being some fantasy I create, a story that aligns with the feeling of shame that seemingly acts out in the world and the world being a reflection of that shame.
A delusion of that I maintain for no other reason but to hold onto the story.

2025-07-07 11:26:21 CEST

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You want more?

2025-07-07 10:47:09 CEST

Shame has been the driving force in “my life”

2025-07-03 13:15:25 CEST

You’ve been warned
https://blossom.primal.net/3383562229edecb12e1f9e520c3edea82e834b16aebb5ef5f17741530eda1ec9.jpg

2025-07-02 09:56:50 CEST

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The Buddha was right, fyi. In case you want to talk consciousness.

2025-07-01 21:30:34 CEST

Dip your toothbrush in turmeric
Thank me later

2025-07-01 12:25:36 CEST

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Safety

2025-06-30 17:28:29 CEST

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Looks like a master class in how to lose your bitcoin. I’d have made the video a bit less stable though to make it look amateur, like it wasn’t you who set up the camera.

2025-06-30 10:44:57 CEST

If you think Plato’s cave is about discovering a new perspective, or realisation through learning, then I’m afraid you are still in the cave.
The exit door is your emotions and senses. Your thoughts are the cave.

2025-06-27 17:05:47 CEST

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The house won’t renovate itself.

2025-06-26 09:54:41 CEST

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What was never born, cannot die

2025-06-25 12:55:30 CEST

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It’s the same. It can only be the same. When thoughts cease, the sight is the seen, the hearing is the sound, and God is right up in your face, like “hey bro, can you see me now?”

2025-06-24 14:52:57 CEST

We sold a bit of bitcoin as liquidity while selling our apartment and buying a home.
We will probably have to sell some more to cover additional renovation costs.
I’m super ok with that. Not ideal, but it’s fine.
Just in case you were caught up in the whole maxi never selling meme madness.
It’s ok to give yourself permission to live.

2025-06-24 14:47:06 CEST

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Her love life or opinions are of no concern to anyone but her.
Love has nothing to do with life circumstances.
She’s therefore only saying she is afraid to love, and covers that fear with worldly pleasures only her ego may consume.

2025-06-24 14:14:24 CEST

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Starvation coming to NYC soon.

2025-06-17 17:56:53 CEST

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You’re biased by the ones you notice. The ones you don’t are the ones you think are women

2025-06-14 08:58:00 CEST

You know that scene in the Matrix where the Buddha-looking kid says something to the effect of “don’t try to bend the spoon, instead realise there is no spoon”
That was one of the most direct hints you could possibly ask for in modern culture, and yet you all use the matrix like it’s an allegory for your point of view.
THERE IS NO SPOON
Meditate on that.

2025-06-13 20:36:55 CEST

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Well yeah, sure

2025-06-13 17:37:14 CEST

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Religion is just what happens when mind identified people try to interpret what cannot be described. It’s the inevitable outcome of a sentient species on the pathway to awakening.
Minds ruin everything that minds believe can be ruined.
Nothing can be ruined because everything is as it is.

2025-06-13 11:03:09 CEST

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Notice too, that you are imagining a thing that isn’t happening, and dismissing a thing that you believe was possibly suggesting… none of it is what is happening.

2025-06-13 10:39:46 CEST

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Love is all there is, regardless of what you believe is happening. I’m not some fucking hippy, this isn’t “just another point of view”. It’s what happens when all thought stops. It’s as obvious as a knife in the guts.
Stop hiding behind your hatred and need to convince people. It’s not working.

2025-06-13 10:27:49 CEST

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Yes

2025-06-13 10:27:07 CEST

The Buddha’s central teaching is: you don’t exist.
He was right.
Ever seen things as they are without thought?
Ever witnessed all things being one?
Ever touched the face of god?
You’re doing it right now.

2025-06-13 09:45:24 CEST

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You’re right! Not just cheap talk, though. Worthless. Just like all words. You’ll see it on your death bed, if not sooner.

2025-06-13 08:00:55 CEST

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Ah the German pastime of hating other Germans and advertising that hate like hating is a good thing.
At least I hate the RIGHT people to hate!
Hating hate is still hate and it lives in you.

2025-06-01 16:46:08 CEST

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9.5k new customers but 4K successful payments?

2025-05-26 11:31:41 CEST

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Sounds like a LinkedIn post

2025-05-26 07:49:53 CEST

Breast milk is delicious.

2025-05-24 11:02:49 CEST

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That’s just virginity with extra steps.

2025-05-23 10:48:33 CEST

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I’d rather have a discerning Bitcoin than a partial one.

2025-05-22 13:53:47 CEST

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I told my wife to read it and she refused.
Checkmate, I guess.

2025-05-16 18:37:02 CEST

Every time my wife loses a thing, she must lose two of mine to make up for it.
I don’t make the rules

2025-05-16 15:41:57 CEST

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The cost of spamming on the internet is low. The calculation at 1000 still works. Anyway, if he wants to meet people for sex he’s already on the internet so… not sure if he’s chosen the right platform if he really wants it. Therefore I’d say he’s a dog chasing a car. He doesn’t actually want a yes.

2025-05-14 23:04:52 CEST

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Yesterday my wife was happy with what I got her for Mother’s Day, but after one conversation with her friends she’s now unhappy with what I got her. The end state is always disappointment.

2025-05-14 17:54:41 CEST

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What an incredible example of a word salad. Scammer

2025-05-14 16:17:39 CEST

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Females are the sexual selectors. In that context, it makes complete sense. He sends out 100 messages like that, 1 yes is a win. 🥇

2025-05-14 16:13:21 CEST

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Yeah well I hope that puts your mind at ease. 😊

2025-05-14 14:41:47 CEST

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Evil is in essence unconsciousness to that which is. Success can only be defined within the framework of unconsciousness. Therefore all “success” is unconscious, and illusion. But lack of success is just the other side of the coin. Both are equally silly ideas made up by things that take themselves to be individuals moving around space, “achieving” things.

2025-05-13 20:11:12 CEST

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Better yet, all people happen in your mind. There is no one to oppress you.

2025-05-13 20:03:32 CEST

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If I had 11 kids, I’d have lack of sleep induced madness too.

2025-05-13 11:22:13 CEST

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Super helpful, thanks.

2025-05-12 20:05:49 CEST

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Are there more people than just you working on it? You’re getting great PR right now. Well done sir

2025-05-12 15:43:21 CEST

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You are perpetuating the nonsense.
Confusing points of view with facts
The only question worth asking is: what is Bitcoin and is this it?

2025-05-12 08:21:00 CEST

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In 2009 I had a vision of myself dying as an old man in the back of a jazz cafe in Buenos Aires.

2025-05-09 11:25:26 CEST

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Wow. Last time I checked it was at 80 or something.

2025-05-06 06:36:28 CEST

Love cannot be given or taken away.
Love is the thread thad weaves all that is.
Love is the unending creation of the now.
With all that being self evident in direct experience, that’s what makes “I love you” so insidious. As if you have it for one person and not another.
There is no I to be in the state of loving, as if there is any other state to be.
There are also no true relationships, for the same reason.
Evil arises from the denial of that truth.

2025-05-06 06:29:08 CEST

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Evil

2025-05-04 22:01:48 CEST

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Poor George. Funny, but sadly misinformed

2025-05-04 14:34:22 CEST

There seems to be no way out other than over escalation.
If “stop” only goads them on.
If offering to remove myself from the situation is a “threat”
If I can’t do anything but be named what is not me.
Then I must be that, to stop being that.
Sorry if that makes no sense.

2025-05-04 09:04:15 CEST

When
“How are you feeling?”
=
“Tell me why you resent me and please, by all means list all my faults, plus some made up things you think I think that make you angry”
Someone wants to be left alone.
But then of course, giving them what they want makes them feel lonely and abandoned and feeling like a victim.
Which is what they REALLY wanted.
Gotta get that self-pity hit.
GM & PV

2025-05-04 07:34:43 CEST

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Is it censoring the blockchain, or is it keeping the blockchain “on topic” - see what I did there?

2025-05-03 17:25:41 CEST

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Voluntary self immolation. Obviously. 😬

2025-05-03 17:24:41 CEST

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All thinking is utopian.

2025-05-03 12:53:23 CEST

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All devs should have a shelf life. Too much power in too few hands

2025-05-02 09:38:39 CEST

Instead of sorry, explanation.
Instead of empathy, score keeping.
Energy killers

2025-05-02 09:00:56 CEST

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Wake up from the dream of separation.

2025-04-29 07:23:54 CEST

I need you to exist
For me to exist
Without my idea of you
What am I?

2025-04-29 07:22:43 CEST

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Thank you, but the loss was the idea of him. The time spent struggling to be something.
“I” am the loss. The ego constructs the story to create the thing that is lost to build a self image upon.
A sand castle.
Of course there is sadness.

2025-04-28 22:58:27 CEST

My father died just before my daughter was born. I couldn’t be there for any of it due to my wife’s condition.
But I didn’t want to be there either.
He spent his life chasing something. He only realised it at the end. His chasing meant running away, from my perspective.
I had already stopped chasing my idea of him.
What he truly is, cannot die. What died, was a phantom.