Jack Zhang (📹🦝 Raccoon)

35M/Gyno/Gendervague. Video engineer at VancouFur 2022/2023 and Howloween 2022. Raccoon. The only fursuiter EVER to meet Linus Sebastian at LTX. Sony XDCAM EX owner. On the ASD spectrum with High Functioning Autism, proudly gendervague. May have OCD, therefore a perfectionist. May have Pathological Demand Avoidance.

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2025-06-25 05:49:23 UTC

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Because my remaining peer support was that one friend that had their car purchase plans uprooted, I'm down to my psychologist who is limited on how much pro bono support they can provide outside of scheduled sessions. I could be facing another entire month of unreliable support circles while my means to cope with cabin fever at home have all failed. Given I've lost friends to a week of poor support, I can't imagine how much I will lose to a month of lack of support. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-25 05:44:46 UTC

I was anticipating a solution to my friend's car problems, but because the seller of a vehicle was always on call to their job, they held off the sale for an entire month while the seller goes to work.
Given I've lost all means to cope while stuck with cabin fever, I was hoping progress would mute my habit of meltdowns. Now nothing is preventing it. I've already lost internet friends & stand to lose more. Last friend I lost was because my peer supports weren't there & my psychologist was away for an entire week.
Basically food money or money towards repaying debt/hobby projects is going to keep me sane. My roommate was arrested for mental health and I'm sure another meltdown will make my landlords 911 trigger happy.
North American donations: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g=16
EU donations: https://gofund.me/007216f9
#emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife @npub1pce…geep @npub10v4…s27h

2025-06-11 05:23:46 UTC

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My psychologist just gave up on me again when I explained the situation that my landlords are so narcissistic that they want to be the ones to portion food and not just simply allow me to do so because it's "not my food." I am currently suicidal. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-11 05:06:00 UTC

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ONCE AGAIN the landlords got takeout instead of portioning pre-cooked pasta for me into meal portions. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-11 04:51:04 UTC

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Got woken up to LOUD VACUUMING and foot stomping in gospel songs to dispel the devil. I'm just about ready to give up and kill myself. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-10 22:54:25 UTC

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My close friend just crashed one of their family cars because of another driver cutting them off. I'm fully back to zero peer support. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-10 18:39:59 UTC

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Food ran out again and last night everyone got takeout instead of cooking. I cannot spend a single dime this week or I lose all my videos. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-09 14:58:16 UTC

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Summer pollen allergies are starting to flare up and I have no money to get allergy medication because of my video hosting bill on Friday, which I'm not even sure if they're gonna tariff a foreign video hosting service. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid

2025-06-08 05:23:32 UTC

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What's even more insulting is they just came back from a honeymoon/wedding for someone and still don't wish to cook for me because they've already had dinner. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-08 04:46:34 UTC

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I got spoiled leftovers instead of freshly cooked meals. My landlords are willing to food poison me just so they don't have to cook. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-07 13:39:57 UTC

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I'm losing hope. I now have zero buffer money in case this American video hosting company charges subscription tariffs because I'm a Canadian customer. I could really use buffer money in case tariffs affect subscription services too. If I'm even a nickel or dime off, I lose all my videos or get overdrafted on June 13th. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-07 09:40:13 UTC

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Once again, the landlords have used groceries day to cook for themselves and have not cooked or portioned anything for me knowing I have only one meal remaining. As I said earlier in the thread, when they cook for themselves I have to starve because they explicitly want to separate food cooked for themselves vs my food, even when I am starving. They also contradict themselves when they say everything is shared... until food they cook for themselves and food reserved for my roommate are mentioned. And they never remember the rules consistently so they arbitrarily say some foods I ask about are off limits. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-06 13:11:11 UTC

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I have to stress once again to those that may be asking me to mature and "grow up," that the landlords and their stupidity thinking my cooking appliances (that are the only ones approved by the social worker's agency for myself to cook, since I bought and own it) are redundant and not allowed means I can't cook. No one has been able to break through, so the only solution is I have different housing, but I live in the most expensive city in Canada for cost of living and rent.
I'm trying at every turn to gain independence but my only income being welfare and the only work offered is for people with actual retardation, like Walmart janitors, it drives me down to the point my severe depression takes over and I wish to take a suicide attempt just to make me retarded enough through brain damage that I'll stop talking, or end my life.
Instead of treating me like a human, Govt eugenics treats me like a retarded adult that has a child brain #aspie #aspielife

2025-06-05 01:03:36 UTC

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It is now 6PM the next day and still nothing has been cooked for me to replace used up portioned meals. They spent the entire day watching Netflix, while the other tenant who can cook just spent the entire day vibe coding. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-06-04 11:04:03 UTC

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There's perfectly good food on the stovetop and I was just told by the tenant who's a overnight vibe coder "Even if you're starving, that's not yours." While I was legit starving. He then lied to guarantee that there will be food for me in the morning, when my landlords wake up late afternoon and he goes to sleep early so that his vibe coding can happen at midnight to 6AM. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid
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2025-06-04 05:06:29 UTC

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more Netflix and Chill so no food was cooked even though I only have one pre-prepared meal left. And now it's even more egregious that the TV is turned into a billboard ad everytime I go up and a movie is paused. I honestly will yank the power cord because it's that triggering that this corporate brainwashing is affecting me even though I've taken all precautions. #aspie #aspielife

2025-06-02 01:08:35 UTC

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As if my sensory needs were not met when the landlords turned up the volume on Netflix, they now have crying and screaming kids from newlyweds visiting upstairs in the living room. Just kill me. I NEED to break my cabin fever to escape this madness. #aspie #aspielife

2025-06-01 00:38:22 UTC

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My parents have abandoned ALL help for me until next lunar new year. (Basically Feb 2026)
I've been left to wait and let cabin fever build as I can't do anything until June 25th, when my next welfare check comes in. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #EmergencyAid

2025-05-31 08:15:54 UTC

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"But can't you cook for yourself?"
As part of government eugenics, homeshare agencies use tortious interference to imply all their clients have set house fires at one point or another, painting ALL OF US (even those that have the skill) as retarded and completely liable.
Example: My roommate wanted to operate the oven to cook a pizza for himself, but because the agency told the landlords that people operating ovens or stoves WILL set fire to their house, the landlord politely told my roommate to fuck off and took over cooking the pizza because they wanted zero liability in case my roommate hurts himself operating a stove or oven.
I got around it by using a countertop oven I purchased with my own money at the previous place I was evicted from. At my current place, the landlords called my cooking appliances redundant and denied me from using it, when it's the ONLY way I can cook for myself. All part of government eugenics. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid

2025-05-31 08:05:06 UTC

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Lots of chips today for a groceries restock, but Netflix and Chill meant nobody cooked to replace portioned meals for me tonight. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest #EmergencyAid #emergencyaidneeded

2025-05-31 07:06:01 UTC

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The good news is my welfare agency CLBC has allowed funding for weekly meetings with my psychologist. The bad news is they told me at 5PM on a Friday so no one will get back to me over the weekend.
More frequency being out of the house is good, but I wish I had the funds to not just go to the session, but have a much needed mental health break afterwards.
Life is currently on pause yet again as my friend said they want to focus on driving manual for 6 months after getting their replacement car, and I currently don't have the funds for the screen protector or a much needed summer haircut. There's also getting a replacement audio + charge adapter because I've accepted the loss on my current adapter going bad. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #MutualAidRequest

2025-05-28 23:06:07 UTC

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Looks like the screen protector for my phone that will be the one that remains on it long term is going to cost me $100CAD after shipping and duties and tariffs. Sigh. Only having $50 remaining means I can't pay for it before my video hosting bill. #aspie #aspielife

2025-05-28 09:18:01 UTC

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In addition to food unreliability, my backup plan in asking my parents for extra groceries and restaurant outings for lunches to compensate, is made harder by the fact their car got into an accident and won't start. (pictured)
My close friend's pending car also has fuel pump issues so they are also not quite yet at the finish line.
This past day food has run out yet again and they wished to give my roommate food but completely forgot about me. As for context, my roommate has harassed my close friend over a rejection, so my close friend wants to be nowhere near my house to support me. (I have to meet them at a transit hub, but it requires them to have a working vehicle)
The roommate situation also hasn't been rosy as they one day cold turkeyed on medication and then threatened to kill me over food placement in the fridge.
Meanwhile the social welfare agency and my social worker have been useless to get any concrete help. I need to rely on peer support. #aspie #aspielife
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2025-05-28 09:08:25 UTC

Here's a thread for @npub1pce…geep to catch up on what I've been posting to @npub10v4…s27h
My GoFundMe was successful at repairing a lemon iPhone as my latest crisis aversion, but this GoFundMe has been needed over the past several months to battle landlords that have at complete random not been supplying food because they would rather Netflix and Chill.
Before that, I was asking for donations to survive a impending eviction that happened on June 20th, 2024, over the extreme accusation that I was an arsonist as painted by my social worker.
As of now, I have $150 to pay for video hosting bills coming up on June 13th, but I only have $50 remaining after that till the 25th. (I owe money for a screen protector too)
More details in later posts, for now, donation links:
North American donations: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g=16
EU donations: https://gofund.me/007216f9
#emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife

2025-05-28 06:34:14 UTC

Hey @npub10v4…s27h admins, do better. I know this is mostly unmonitored but please defederate as needed for hate instances. Report hate instances too so it's on more blacklists.

2025-04-29 07:19:22 UTC

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ICYMI, free meals from generosity have ended on my side to fight the neglect my landlords are doing in not preparing meals. I only have $7 left in my accounts and the balance between insanity from hunger and survival is on super thin ice. I also owe $80-$100 to a pizza restaurant that was providing free meals to save my life. The closer to insanity I get, the closer I get to another mental health breakdown serious enough to warrant a police call. I need immediate help. See the first post of this thread for donation links. #emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife

2025-04-29 06:24:34 UTC

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right in the middle is my spot in the fridge. See how my roommate got food on the shelf below mine because he's usually not hungry thanks to a small appetite? The rest of the fridge is off limits to me so I'm supposed to starve tonight. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid
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2025-04-28 22:25:43 UTC

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BTW, this payment is still stuck in purgatory a month later. I'm expecting to never get it. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid
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2025-04-28 22:19:08 UTC

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...this is tragic considering today the landlords decided to get take out instead of preparing meals. And WON'T because of election day. I will simply get no food today. I'm broke and now foodless. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid

2025-04-28 22:14:30 UTC

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The other shoe has dropped. The pizza restaurant that saved my life has stopped providing meals until I become a paying customer again. That also means paying back $80-$100 worth of owed meals. #aspie #aspielife #mutualaid #emergencyaid

2025-04-28 09:08:48 UTC

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...if you were asking for proof how bad mental health care is in British Columbia, the fact this happened is indisputable proof that backs up what I've been saying over the past few months. #aspie #aspielife

2025-04-28 09:02:16 UTC

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For those unaware: https://globalnews.ca/news/11152310/lapu-lapu-festival-tragedy-vancouver-man-charged-murder/
The quote below says it all. The system here is so broken there's nothing to DEAL with people with poor mental health rather than just recycling them and having the police constantly put them in custody/jail. Mental health workers in this province would much rather say "I'm not paid enough to deal with this shit."
Don't let me become another statistic like him. I've lost my entire support circle in the last few weeks and have been on edge myself.
#aspie #aspielife #bcpoli #mentalhealth
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2025-04-28 08:43:54 UTC

New thread time.
In June I'll be billed $150 for my video hosting, which is an increase from $120. This puts me in a tough financial position as my lemon iPhone has left me in financial ruin.
The cell repair shop's asking $70 for an intense diagnostic that I'd have to pay on May 21st. But after the video hosting bill's paid I would have no money 4 food buffer money 2 counter my landlords either making spoiled food or failing 2 portion food in time.
In fact, that's a problem right now. I only have $7 in my accounts and I need buffer money NOW 2 ensure I don't starve for 3 weeks straight.
If you've been following the news, you've now seen the results of a lack of mental health care in BC. Don't let me become another statistic.
North American donations: https://ko-fi.com/jackvancouver/goal?g=15
EU donations: https://gofund.me/007216f9
@npub10v4…s27h #emergencyaid #emergencyaidneeded #emergencyaidneededasap #emergencyaidneededrightnow #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife

2025-02-23 21:49:43 UTC

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The GoFundMe has been updated. https://gofund.me/007216f9 #MutualAidRequest #mutualaidneeded #aspie #aspielife

2025-02-22 01:47:59 UTC

My landlords are aggressively squatting the living room so they can give me death stares when warming my food. (I firmly believe they think I'm a sinner now, given they know my roommate sins for being homosexual) I have opted to no longer warm my food when they are present because of this. They have not raised a single concern about my appetite regarding this because it allows them more "me time" while I slowly starve if I can't eat out.
My food containers are simply not rinsed now. So all food tastes like dollar store dish soap. 2 back to back meals and I've gotten food poisoning from the dish soap.
My psychologist has already abandoned me so it's up to everyone but my official supports to help out, which is why I'm asking for #mutualaid again for food costs and the fact my next phone had a additional $300 in unexpected repair costs before I could own it.
While extra to go to VancouFur would be nice, it's not mandatory.
@npub10v4…s27h #aspie #aspielife #mutualaidrequest

2025-02-15 22:40:54 UTC

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I just had to use $50 reserved for savings to keep myself from starving by going eating out. That was reserved for my planned phone purchase, so my landlords are making things incredibly hard for my budget. There's a party today for those of common faith so they decided to get take-out/delivery and not cook. The fridge is still empty for my spot where meals are supposed to be. #aspie #aspielife

2025-02-14 20:33:39 UTC

#mutualaidrequest
What my fridge typically looks like, vs what it looks like now that my landlords believe I am a child of the devil. (They are evangelist Christian. The spot for my food is on the top shelf.)
They are fasting me hoping and praying that converting away my presence as a sinner will result in me joining the faith. My roommate recently came out as homosexual to my landlords so me and my roommate are both seen as sinners. I am atheist and my roommate is gay, this is not a good situation.
Please help. We are starving.
https://gofund.me/a47caaac (Fundraiser is ongoing as I have not closed it due to continuing needs)
#aspie #aspielife @npub10v4…s27h
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2025-02-03 00:49:34 UTC

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one of my dreams is to go to Kennedy Space Center or Boca Chica.

2025-02-03 00:34:10 UTC

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under social welfare housing agreements in my province, I'm supposed to get one guaranteed meal per day under a "homeshare" contract. The landlords now don't wish to strictly follow it because they found out my roommate is gay and I like cats...
Which I get why my roommate is being discriminated because my landlords are christian, but watching cat videos somehow makes me a agent of the devil? They seriously think that. #aspie #aspielife

2025-02-03 00:27:48 UTC

I'm spending $18 again today after spending $15 after 2 consecutive days of netflix and chill from my landlords, where they knew the food supply was low and decided not to cook anything. They conveniently forgot to portion out some of the potluck food for me for 2 days in a row.
Remember, this is because we are now under their minds part of the "woke mind virus" that other devoted christians have been fighting against. #aspie #aspielife @npub10v4…s27h

2024-12-23 22:02:44 UTC

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If I'm fully abandoned, there's nothing stopping me from choosing to end my life. Because I literally have nothing left.

2024-12-23 19:59:18 UTC

With the lack of help I've been receiving for my mental health, I've genuinely been pondering what's the point anymore... Places I post my content if I were to resume content creation, only a select few will get the experience I wish the end user to get, not everybody. I have no remaining energy left after my eviction this year and the loss of my mental health team means I have nobody but friends that can't help until they themselves are stable.

2024-11-04 10:56:31 UTC

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How's Cinnamon and Wayland progressing? Last I recall Muffin was still primarily dependent on X11.