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I mean... damn dude you just called me "young man." do you not see it?
to most people, being comfortable using little verbal *flourishes* like that is either foid- or gay-coded. real dudes have to keep this impeccable masculinity thing going or else they risk getting attacked. it's the law of nature-- worst thing that you can do is look like a fag and show any kind of *sensitivity* because males are in constant competition. anything you say can and will be used against you.
notice I had to italicize "flourishes" and "sensitivity" in that sentence, to put some distance between myself and the word, to make it clear I was being sarcastic with it. that's male-coded speech.

2026-05-20 12:26:30 UTC

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I don't actually think so tbh. he doesn't have that malicious edge that a lot of women with similar basic personalities get.

2026-05-18 16:20:59 UTC

"I'm the kind of person who is an asshole, but it's on a completely rational basis. I am the uberman."

2026-05-18 13:05:03 UTC

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meth would probably work better

2026-05-17 08:43:51 UTC

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hate lycra-wearing sportbikers. holy fucking shit they should stay off the road. bikes being treated as honorary road vehicles is for people who actually use them to get to work and groceries and shit. it's kind of funny how people who use their bikes that way aren't tremendous dickheads who block the road.

2026-05-15 15:57:40 UTC

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I've definitely been too nice. honestly.

2026-05-15 15:54:44 UTC

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the worst thing is I taught them everything they know-- they weren't even using git before they hired me years ago. when I left they just went completely off the rails and fell for every stupid thing.

2026-05-15 15:52:50 UTC

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...they switched to fucking MONGODB "we use javascript... that must mean javascript in the database is a GREAT idea!"

2026-05-15 15:49:52 UTC

this shit wouldn't be happening if we'd stuck with postgres
just sayin

2026-05-15 07:12:30 UTC

hat machine

2026-05-13 14:08:36 UTC

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oh god you're one of these... you're supposed to BUILD on what came before, not just accept it uncritically.
and in the case of nietzche and kant, a lot of what you're mindlessly relaying was in its original reading poetic/structural, a discussion of human behavior/logic/morality/culture, not meant to be taken literally. nietzche wasn't even really that interested in physics. kant explicitly said we can't really know things in themselves only through aprior... god damn it's just easier to call you a stupid nigger

2026-05-13 13:52:12 UTC

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no offense but a lot of this is new age bs dude.
thought is not an immaterial concept, it's well understood; go read some cybernetics. we build ruidementary "thinking machines" all the time, and while the sophistication of living things is insanely beyond anything we've ever built, including AI, there's no reason to ascribe anything supernatural to it.
the fact you think I'm a materialist shows you're not really reading what I'm saying carefully at all. there is absolutely a spiritual underpinning to reality, I just think you need to pay attention to what actually exists, not what you wish did.

2026-05-13 11:01:40 UTC

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sense of self is a result of real physical processes, it's not metaphysical. a ball has no information processing power to be aware of itself, so it is not self aware. it is simply "data" in the "world". if consciousness is the arbiter of its existence, it would have to be the consciousness of God or something.

2026-05-13 10:44:58 UTC

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imo intention requires context. it requires a chain of causality going back to complex processes that have signalling that includes concepts such as "self." a simple interaction, such as a particle appearing here rather than there, or a ball rolling left rather than right doesn't have that internally except when you universalize to saying it's the will of God. that's my point.

2026-05-13 10:32:30 UTC

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I don't think it can be called will without intention, and intention is a higher order process.
there is an implicit teleology even in just nano-scale physical processes, but I don't think you can locate the will they express in the processes themselves-- it's too distributed, not integrated enough. from here you get deep into theology, beyond just defining terms and into reading the mind of God or whatever
(and dithering over whether that external will exists at all)

2026-05-13 10:28:34 UTC

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rofl schopenhauer

2026-05-13 10:13:32 UTC

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(I can 100% understand how everyone gets to panpsychism, but I think it takes some density of dependency on the state of the system as a whole to individual interactions to say something is a "mind." even if a random bit in the universe is "conscious" in the same way you can be conscious of a dot on a piece of paper or a pinprick sensation on your foot, it's not a mind in and of itself. it's just data (qualia I think is the technical term lemme look it up)... or something)

2026-05-13 10:10:41 UTC

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panpsychism lol that old chestnut

2026-05-13 10:06:03 UTC

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yeah probably-- compatibilism ig

2026-05-13 10:01:07 UTC

I don't believe the universe is deterministic, but even if it was it wouldn't eliminate the concept of free will. conversely, the absolute non-determinism of the universe as I believe it is doesn't naturally and automatically establish the existence of free will either-- stochastic noise isn't more *you* just because you can definitively say you might have in other trials with identical preconditions done differently-- you haven't claimed the process of the decision, it was just fed to you by universal rng
(just finished watching Arrival (2016) lol)

2026-05-12 13:16:32 UTC

might lose my job today
but I can't keep making engineering decisions just to placate someone's ego.

2026-05-12 09:13:47 UTC

hate being alone all the time

2026-05-11 16:44:46 UTC

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and it wasn't even to fix something it was to enable some AI features that none of us are gonna use but in his mind if it's AI it's always a benefit
fucking retard missed out on the dot com era, then he missed out on the crypto era, but he's gonna try everything in his power to NOT miss out on the AI era. he's probably going to just end up transferring his entire fortune to antrhopic

2026-05-11 16:42:59 UTC

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but seriously this guy just wasted three hours of my time by shelling into my machine friday to "fix" something and not telling me

2026-05-11 16:42:24 UTC

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I think I'm just in a really bad mood this morning. I probably should have taken the whole day off.

2026-05-11 16:40:15 UTC

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STOP SHELLING INTO MY MACHINES TO APPLY YOUR "PATCHES" THE ALL SUCK EVERY SINGLE ONE i'm about to revoke ssh

2026-05-11 16:39:47 UTC

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DUDE JUST FUCKING STOP CODING ENTIRELY YOU MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE HOLY SHIT

2026-05-11 16:23:25 UTC

I am so fucking tired of working for morons

2026-05-11 12:03:39 UTC

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here they do it by parking organic farms next to regular ones. either overspray or local extirpation of pests keeps the organic crops covered.

2026-05-11 00:23:47 UTC

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oh so it's an original concept? do you just crash if there's fewer than expected args?

2026-05-10 23:16:18 UTC

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what's absorption in programming?

2026-05-10 21:36:58 UTC

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what am I looking at? salt peter or something?

2026-05-10 17:17:50 UTC

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I've been reading it for five minutes and I still can't tell if this is satire or not
>Pony is a compiled language, rather than an interpreted one. In fact, it goes even further: Pony is an ahead-of-time (AOT) compiled language, rather than a just-in-time (JIT) compiled language.

2026-05-10 10:10:21 UTC

augh why do I feel like going back to sleep

2026-05-10 10:08:31 UTC

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alternately
https://baj.ax/media/fd/f9/91/fdf991a02d4c20d08ce774687cbd03477ca284c6eec10643c2c9f6d8ed74f474.webp?name=image.webp

2026-05-10 10:07:24 UTC

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I'm not guessing
https://baj.ax/media/98/a6/91/98a6916b7732e106ebf17ecdc9b91ea931de39e6516b40cf9474a259a64e63ef.webp?name=image.webp

2026-05-10 09:25:09 UTC

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I fucking know you're gonna keep your mouth shut (or your fingers still)

2026-05-10 09:24:54 UTC

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I know you're not gonna say it

2026-05-10 09:22:22 UTC

I slept since 8pm. groggy but I don't feel the usual debt

2026-05-09 16:22:59 UTC

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`record` in my mind more indicates a single row of such a collection though, probably got into my head from working with postgres

2026-05-09 16:12:09 UTC

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like it just doesn't fit my conceptual space to maintain order on something that uses random/descriptive data as the key. in an ordered array, the index *is* the key

2026-05-09 16:10:40 UTC

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table *maybe*-- but I almost never have use for such a thing. If I need order on a dict, I would usually keep a set of keys in a separate array.

2026-05-09 11:31:34 UTC

this is how it happened to me
https://youtu.be/UAcBlENQC4E?t=4684

2026-05-08 14:45:58 UTC

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yeah I kinda drive like a maniac-- around hairpin turns on mountain roads I can't help it it's like one of them roller coasters

2026-05-08 14:33:37 UTC

got pulled over on the way to work-- boss was proud of me. called me an "outlaw." he's spent the last 20 minutes regaling all of us over all his boring run-ins with law enforcement when he was younger. holy shit this is interminable rofl

2026-05-08 09:50:26 UTC

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I used it for a bunch of clients. whenever I've given someone a list of languages I can write something in, for some reason they've always chosen python.
just can't love any language where variables are declared on first assignment and there's no way to turn it off. IT'S NOT JUST CEREMONY IT MAKES CLOSURES MORE ELEGANT!

2026-05-08 09:34:31 UTC

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ask yourself if you're going to be able to leave things as they are. it's not about being a predator or not but about not exposing yourself to a desire that you can never fulfill. you may need to cut contact for a while if it gets bad.
I know it sucks. I don't think women (if it is a woman) have any idea what they do to men (pretty sure you said you're a man) just by existing. good luck.

2026-05-04 17:21:53 UTC

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how the fuck do they expect you to enforce it?

2026-05-03 13:38:29 UTC

still high from last night fucking hell hate how long edbles last.
this was the last dose though.

2026-05-03 13:31:46 UTC

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sevvie certainly isn't a cat!

2026-05-02 20:05:18 UTC

hey I can use AI to do my weekly TPS reports!

2026-05-02 18:41:58 UTC

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awesome

2026-05-02 18:34:18 UTC

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nice what brand

2026-05-02 15:14:58 UTC

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Merged? I guess they mean federated

2026-04-29 15:14:16 UTC

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listening to it while I work-- the curly haired faggot is astounding-- "you shouldn't expose the CIA's crimes because your family lives under the protection of the CIA!" earlier in the conversation "the priority of the US government is the continuity of the US government. If the entire population of the country was wiped out except the president, one senator, one representative, and some staff, the US government would have continuity" is this nigga even real?!

2026-04-29 00:23:20 UTC

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I'm probably doing better than people in any other industry would think I deserve

2026-04-29 00:22:40 UTC

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well, it's six figures (exactly 100k lol) but... I don't know. got tons of anxiety about trying to promote myself. also these people hired me almost immediately after I dropped out of college so I'm running on inertia

2026-04-28 14:19:21 UTC

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canid supremacist

2026-04-27 13:26:11 UTC

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haha yeah (except the boss is one of those "I pay you to be my friend!" michael scott types instead of sadistic-- sadistic would almost be better, because you don't feel (slightly) bad for hating them)

2026-04-23 11:24:19 UTC

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I knew something once

2026-04-23 04:39:02 UTC

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look you're too expensive, pwm wants to make some of his investment back

2026-04-23 04:36:02 UTC

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f0x get out of my walls

2026-04-23 04:13:42 UTC

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makes me want one as a pet

2026-04-23 04:10:48 UTC

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I think he means cabern-- yeah you probably know

2026-04-22 04:17:18 UTC

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....I'm not a cat you tell him I'm not a fucking cat I will prove I'm not a cat god damnit HSSSSSHTHKKKTH!

2026-04-22 04:13:08 UTC

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(there was no foidshit intended for what it's worth)

2026-04-22 03:46:55 UTC

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everything?

2026-04-22 03:44:26 UTC

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nothing

2026-04-22 03:33:27 UTC

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what's the foid thing?

2026-04-22 03:29:14 UTC

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will not impose

2026-04-22 02:38:24 UTC

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is there a zgrank on?

2026-04-22 02:29:15 UTC

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:thinking:

2026-04-21 16:37:11 UTC

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getting to the point I want to stop using computers entirely

2026-04-21 16:18:02 UTC

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I see a lot of misguided activism against AI from leftists. the usual thought-terminating cliches have been marketed to them heavily: big business is pushing it, data centers are replacing wetlands and bogs and shit, it steals artists' work etc. all of which is good enough to hate it honestly but you know they don't really understand the real magnitude of the problem with it and like any industrial activity does the first two and any creative industry does the latter constantly.
meanwhile AI is being used to collect far more in-depth psychological data on people than ever before because they're having actual conversations with it-- they now know how much you understand about whatever topic you're researching and how competent you are at seeing connections, how many times you have to have it restate something to you until you get it, what your sentiment is likely to be on any given topic. It's completely exposing your thought process to the machine; there's no way they aren't going to use that for some kind of psychologically-informed surveillance program. they probably are already, going by the kind of shit p's been digging up of orgs running this kind of psyop in full public view.
right wingers have no idea, and are EXTREMELY difficult to convince of these latter points even though it's far more fucked.

2026-04-20 01:10:00 UTC

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It's almost like they can't even admit to themselves that different people have different capabilities.

2026-04-20 00:56:02 UTC

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this is exactly the kind of thing my parents did with me lol. if anything it made it harder to do well in public school.

2026-04-20 00:37:20 UTC

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so, symbolic, narrative type guided thinking exercises? songs, (non-digital) games, stories etc? kinda seems to me to be the biological role that all those things used to serve in human groups before we discovered commercialization.

2026-04-20 00:26:17 UTC

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well that goes without saying-- I mean, the standard education system isn't meant to actually educate anyone is it?
very much agree that psychological self-awareness and basic mindfulness should absolutely be taught to everyone.
what kind of first principles are you thinking would be sufficient? and how early are you talking?

2026-04-20 00:08:29 UTC

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rofl I don't really even know what death cab for cutie is like-- kinda banal you mean?
but you're right, I did used to see what you're describing in a lot of people who got big into philosophy when I was in high school. It always bothered me, though I couldn't put it into words-- they always had this feeling that they finally had gotten things figured out, and they started using the basic ideas and even the language of whatever philosophy they're reading this week as a framework to hang all their thoughts on. Meaning that when they evaluate their own intuitions, they just slot it in to some ready made structure-- with the result being that they accept the given framing of the argument by following the philosopher's established form.
But I don't know that that's a permanent condition assuming they stay interested in the subject matter.
So you think it's a problem of the way things are taught then?

2026-04-19 23:47:42 UTC

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I think at some point we don't have an option to remain ignorant anymore, like as a species. Nuclear weapons, warfare, psychological manipulation just exists, and bad people will have access to it. They won't agree to toss that information away, especially if it gives them access to some kind of power.
But at the same time, knowing everything that's out there, what's possible for those who desire control to accomplish with only very subtle manipulation, and how little there is that you can do about it working on other people... I don't know that it's done me any good, considering I am completely alone in my understanding where I live.
But it still seems risky to just leave it with the least trustworthy people to use and abuse however they want, and not be aware of what kinds of things may act on oneself. idk.

2026-04-19 23:29:49 UTC

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like in what way?

2026-04-19 22:37:42 UTC

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what history is it?

2026-04-19 19:16:47 UTC

god I hate how long edibles last. It's been like 18 hours how am I still slightly buzzed

2026-04-19 18:13:33 UTC

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you seem to be making pretty fast progress if this is that elixir-inspired shell language you're messing with

2026-04-19 17:59:29 UTC

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yeah a video card is usually better than integrated graphics by a pretty big margin

2026-04-19 17:57:13 UTC

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if it's a minipc it might not have a dedicated graphics card-- but that might have been written before APUs when integrated graphics always meant almost useless for games (zomboid is pretty old and by its graphics alone really shouldn't require one)

2026-04-18 16:46:46 UTC

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no no you're perfect just the way you are.

2026-04-18 16:44:34 UTC

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look... this helplessness and begging is offputting. this unwillingness to change or give people who are willing to try with you a chance is unreasonable. *and* your whole "I'm a child" thing is only gonna attract the kind of men who want a child for a girlfriend holy shit do you pay attention to yourself?
nothing good is ever gonna happen to you until you take responsibility for yourself. I'm sorry the dudes you wanted didn't pay (enough) attention to you. but it's not our fault. put this energy into trying to *be* the kind of person that someone you want would want.

2026-04-18 13:27:28 UTC

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can't believe it, you of all people turning on me :AAAAAA_glitch:

2026-04-18 13:16:59 UTC

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I'm not a pet I own pets I am not a CAT damnit!

2026-04-18 13:16:06 UTC

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oh of course forgive my ignorance

2026-04-18 13:14:01 UTC

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sam's a lady (putatively)