tameshita

the voice of sirens and angels comfortably disturbs me

Website: https://tameshita.neocities.org/
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@nbee99
Pixelfed: https://pxlmo.com/tameshita
Discord: tameshitake

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2026-07-24 16:01:44 CEST

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maybe we can learn together too, I'm using godot too but if you wanna be alone, I'll leave you alone

2026-07-23 15:55:31 CEST

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honestly sounds good simple for a solo beginner game dev like me, maybe we can work together?

2026-07-22 05:08:48 CEST

>go to AUR
>install anythingllm-desktop-bin
> cloning into bare repository electron31/chromium-mirror
> 10gb+ cloned an only 4mbps at best
> :ablobcatbongoangry:
I ended up downloading the appimage in the github release

2026-07-16 12:18:40 CEST

1 man vs 8 misskey instances in global section w/ realtime mode

2026-07-14 08:28:52 CEST

A prototype of my own LLM frontend because webapp sucks ass
https://obj.misskey.id/media/f8132462-ff34-4bf4-a7a2-79bf4669159d.mp4

2026-07-13 13:45:56 CEST

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inception

2026-07-13 03:30:13 CEST

I had a dream about wanting a girlfriend but that dream was inside of a dream, and that dream was inside of a dream about wanting a girlfriend, and that dream was inside of a dream about wanting a girlfriend, and that dream was inside of a dream about wanting a girlfriend, and that dream was inside of a dream about wanting a girlfriend, and i woke up.
What the fuck.

2026-07-11 05:40:31 CEST

tired of porn

2026-07-09 14:49:58 CEST

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yeah i barely drink water tbh

2026-07-09 14:48:29 CEST

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yea

2026-07-09 13:12:04 CEST

update: didn't find anyone active
#note1neq…jp2v

2026-07-09 13:11:22 CEST

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this happens when I wake up except it's on my right leg and I'm only 19

2026-07-09 12:02:48 CEST

xnopyt
$[x4 AAAAAAA...]

2026-07-09 04:28:38 CEST

Trying to use IRC, man something about these dinosaurs feels elegant
https://obj.misskey.id/media/72151107-0cfc-4bf5-9bd9-98b4addb6cd8.webp

2026-07-08 12:02:43 CEST

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I am the common people and personally, somewhat
I just like having quality stuff

2026-07-08 11:10:37 CEST

I had an Idea to make a messaging platform dedicated to roleplaying/ttrpg w/ familiar UI like discord but yikes, there's so much I have to learn even if ChatGPT said it's feasible for a solo dev to work on it.
Yeah I am a vocational high school software engineer graduate I but I cheesed my way through SE because the teacher was going everywhere about the lessons, and it was about web apps which I really hate developing in.
So I'm gonna make the idea a native desktop software with PySide6 and the knowledge to use ?["what the platform provides instead of making everything from scratch"](https://invidious.f5.si/watch?v=OG91c7xsNMc) from Dave Plummer, getting what I need won't be as horrible as I thought It would.
This time, I'll truly learn SE.
I understood what I have to about PySide6's GUI, now I just need to learn about networking, and many more that will come.
I'm not vibe coding it, that would be a shame, insult, and disgrace to myself, my skills, and my beliefs.
?[The project's Codeberg repo](https://codeberg.org/tameshita/serioustavern)
There's not much here, hell not even a proper MVP but It's a start.

2026-07-08 10:47:13 CEST

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It got so big to the point I have to put my music into my HDD

2026-07-08 10:46:57 CEST

I've severely underestimated how size-taking Lossless music are
https://obj.misskey.id/media/e6cef528-8864-46c3-8f0a-fc9b24b47d89.webp

2026-07-08 10:45:23 CEST

Life so lame even I don't have anything to microblog

2026-07-08 10:41:42 CEST

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haiihaii :blobcheer:

2026-07-08 10:36:48 CEST

I wonder if there has been anyone speedrunning misskey achievements

2026-07-06 09:25:46 CEST

I'm starting to be certain my mind isn't my own

2026-07-04 10:54:52 CEST

everytime i play RPGs with customisable characters I feel like I care more about how my character looks than playing the game :blobeyes:

2026-07-04 10:41:26 CEST

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setiap kali gw lihat piring numpuk kek gitu gw langsung bayangin tiba-tiba jatuh

2026-07-04 10:07:28 CEST

I wonder if there's anyone who actually grew up normal and is still normal

2026-07-04 10:04:16 CEST

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gw langsung sakit jantung kalo gw berada disini

2026-07-04 09:54:43 CEST

All my interest is always in the limbo where I know there are someone out there that's interested in it but everyone I know or that's around me doesn't know

2026-07-04 09:34:52 CEST

Tfw you wanna do cool nerd shit but you lack the requirements
especially for me: RSS
I have a reader setup but I don't know shit about what I want

2026-07-01 03:44:13 CEST

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For me it's more like an unanswerable existential question I have to avoid because no human being could ever question it

2026-06-30 15:29:56 CEST

Anyone that believes in any religion, send prayers for me alright? I'm trying to deal with a chronic anxiety and It's been weeks, please, I'll need your help, sadly I can't return much but... a useless gratitude, but still, thanks.

2026-06-30 06:24:27 CEST

i don't wanna live with this anxiety man

2026-06-26 15:22:45 CEST

derealization is a big bastard to endure

2026-06-26 03:05:54 CEST

Today it's just a lingering fear and that my head always feel like it's on a bed unless if I hold my head

2026-06-23 10:51:29 CEST

Sometimes my brain realizes that I'm stuck in my own body and gets insanely anxious, even if there are answers to how it feels like to be in other's body (e.g. Being John Malkovitch or POV Videos)
But now it's not sometimes, It's... going on for everyday, and I'm trying to ignore it, and It's awful.

2026-06-23 06:43:22 CEST

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captain it's tuesday

2026-06-23 03:52:00 CEST

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WHAT?! HOLY SHIT

2026-06-22 16:17:59 CEST

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I don't have ADHD and I fall for this... or used to

2026-06-22 16:06:31 CEST

Playnite so peak it turned my PC into a Psuedo console
https://obj.misskey.id/media/6fba9745-7d0d-4a6f-a965-e79fb1744cd7.webp
https://obj.misskey.id/media/855e3747-b500-4376-819b-6be998778a84.webp
https://obj.misskey.id/media/949b30fc-ce34-460d-bec5-cc98867bee87.webp
https://obj.misskey.id/media/c46b7080-1ee2-4112-81f4-2c1c51b38105.webp
https://obj.misskey.id/media/66e0c8f6-c16e-4798-a268-bde81c2b9f7e.webp
https://obj.misskey.id/media/636f8d0a-d174-448e-b6a4-38cacadd6022.webp

2026-06-22 16:00:53 CEST

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I will beef (with) it

2026-06-22 16:00:27 CEST

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huh?

2026-06-22 16:00:17 CEST

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ah, honestly you're the first one i know to have that problem

2026-06-22 12:50:12 CEST

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I'll try to ask there

2026-06-22 12:42:50 CEST

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i love how vivid yet pleasing the colors are

2026-06-22 12:16:31 CEST

where are all the Indonesians in Matrix hanging out at

2026-06-22 12:10:36 CEST

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ass

2026-06-22 11:49:53 CEST

If there's a hole there's a goal
#note168p…t03c

2026-06-22 11:48:31 CEST

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my dumbass thinks it's oil

2026-06-22 11:48:05 CEST

that's some cold war shit right there
#note1j7r…2uhw

2026-06-22 05:59:09 CEST

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hmmm, It would be interesting to try replace rice with something equivalent for a week

2026-06-22 05:54:36 CEST

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huh, how come?

2026-06-21 17:26:09 CEST

I'm an asian that gets bored of rice

2026-06-21 17:25:12 CEST

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nah it wasn't random, it was uhhh...
actually it felt special, felt like i've been listened of my wants and I bought it myself... quite nice but somehow it feels normal now

2026-06-21 17:19:56 CEST

man I still regret buying figurines but I don't wanna kill my pride by selling it :miku_shaking_crying:

2026-06-21 17:18:01 CEST

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as a game developer who just dove into game dev I'm now even more scared seeing this, math is EVERYWHERE and I need it to make something I want

2026-06-21 17:16:00 CEST

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hmmm shit sounds like what i exactly need for my already dead social life

2026-06-21 17:13:34 CEST

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like toilet humor?

2026-06-21 17:12:47 CEST

what do you guys do in this platform anyways?

2026-06-20 16:37:05 CEST

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huh, emotions is making you doing art worse?

2026-06-17 16:57:21 CEST

Life too hard, I can't take it anymore
https://obj.misskey.id/media/22e5d0f0-2c40-4410-97fd-4c610619d4d3

2026-05-31 07:05:13 CEST

Pretty much many LLMs i used just SUUUCKKK even at finding the most obvious ones
all hail the docs, at least if it's written good.
#note1nc6…6xep

2026-05-24 04:08:37 CEST

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I did this to my youtube and holy crap I'm so relieved from seeing the shitty algorithm recommend me the same shit

2026-05-21 17:54:46 CEST

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man these look so cool but my ass can't imagine how painful it is to code it all

2026-05-21 04:04:36 CEST

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your design i mean like... what reference?

2026-05-20 17:00:53 CEST

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anytime, how do you style your site tho

2026-05-20 16:55:55 CEST

trying to do design like indie web but growing up liking flat designs makes it feel like hell

2026-05-12 12:13:13 CEST

i defeated the soulslike boss that fucked my mind up and all i can be happy is a little giggle but it's better than nothing

2026-05-11 14:03:57 CEST

anything but a software that does one thing and it's good at it
#note1wp9…5t0w

2026-05-11 13:45:26 CEST

got 15 and 7 reposts notifications for that 3 post about me being shat with a brick, i love you guys

2026-05-10 12:36:46 CEST

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https://obj.misskey.id/media/580846b5-97b7-44e4-9c3a-3063fb5b1a7c.webp

2026-05-09 12:05:57 CEST

there are bricks falling on me and it smells like shit HELPP :sataniaScared:

2026-05-08 14:14:16 CEST

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man life keeps giving me worser shit every time i get a W

2026-05-08 13:37:43 CEST

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kek gitu karena disuruh ortu, kara ortu gw mending cari dolar dengan bakat yg sudah ada daripada susah kuliah hanya untuk dapat rupiah
selama 2 tahun, kalo gagal masuk kuliah

2026-05-08 13:33:50 CEST

gw Lulus SMK :HyperNeko:
skrg istirahat 3 bulan habis itu nyoba freelance sama google coursera

2026-05-08 09:06:39 CEST

Fuck the algorithm, i disabled watch and search history and cleared all history prior to it, now I'm in peace with control.
https://obj.misskey.id/media/6b592d8c-9179-4243-9e9f-4f4cc384b4b3.webp

2026-04-27 07:11:15 CEST

Windows?
https://obj.misskey.id/media/5407deec-2a2e-4be4-bf41-77f9aa770f3b.webp

2026-04-27 06:28:35 CEST

if there are any youtube videos with vague titles that doesn't explain what it's about then it doesn't deserve my time

2026-04-25 12:40:55 CEST

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if there are pdfs for big sticks i think we can just study even the stupidest shit and we can come out with insanely in-depth scholar-level education for it

2026-04-23 15:27:32 CEST

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whoever the fuck thinks a static document should act like an app, fuck you, fuck you SO MUCH, it was never supposed to be like that, and because of YOU we got attrocities like Windows 11 Start Menu being made in React
an utter piece of shit that makes my laptop wanna kill itself thrice

2026-04-23 15:21:28 CEST

I HATE WEB DEVELOPMENT

2026-04-23 03:48:07 CEST

why the fuck do I keep clicking on those stupid massproduced essay videos overcomplicating simple things that can be said in a few words
fucking... uselesss

2026-04-22 11:20:23 CEST

All vibe no story is the problem I'm having with worldbuilding right now, or maybe even more than worldbuilding
and maybe i never really cared about stories at all.
Everytime I play a game, especially when the seperation between the story and gameplay is so clear like Blue Reflection... ah it's hard to explain
In that game you can be a magical girl entering people's emotional part of their mind and a disabled ballerina going through daily life and most of it is just... you being a disabled ballerina going through daily life.
And that part of the game is split into 2:
- Really bog standard visual novel with 3D cutscenes
- Literally bare minimal adventure
The visual novel part, it makes me feel like reading a glorified e-book rather than playing a game; and the bare minimal adventure... all I could do is just go explore the school and interact but that interaction doesn't feel special; no rewards, no clue, just interaction for the sake of it.
And the magical girl part, It's like they innovated one thing into turn based combat and It's not even comprehensible, at least for me.
The rest is a generic arena with enemies and some pickupables, that's it but somehow they made it feel worse; the enemies respawn every time you go into a some sort of gateway, destroying sense of progression and getting you lost if that gateway leads to another place then back.

2026-04-15 14:31:47 CEST

Yo if anyone wants to do a structured sandbox realism slice of life role play in discord, I've made a server for y'all to join.
Oh and make sure you have time for the role play or else I'll boot you, no harsh feelings, I just want people who can participate.
https://discord.gg/gHm5VsyC

2026-04-15 06:59:58 CEST

my native language is indonesian but i speak english better
though when it comes to math, learning it in indonesian makes me understand it better than in english

2026-04-14 13:46:01 CEST

every time i try to state my opinions about anything, i expect there will be someone who knows what I think better than I could, maybe they know me better than I could ever know myself.
It's terrifying, the concept of being locked out of your own mind or not knowing it well and only someone else that you don't know can unlock it or know it better, and maybe it's not even for you.

2026-04-14 13:38:55 CEST

it feels like I can't cry for help because there's no way to describe the misery i keep thinking in my mind, but i never had any intentions to think anything about misery

2026-04-14 13:30:13 CEST

i am imagining every scenario of everything i could say here right now about my mental burden without my will

2026-04-14 13:00:34 CEST

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hell, maybe I'm just so fucking dopamine-maxxed, I only play gmod and shoot npcs with AI disabled for 2+ hours with 150GB+ of mwb weapons for some reason
i want that to stop, but everytime I try I keep coming back, I hate it, I can't stop

2026-04-14 12:58:33 CEST

These days I want to play those tactical games
but this means I gotta dopamine detox and never play "low effort" high reward games like COD right?
I just wish I could play Ground Branch everyday and be satisfied but nope, apparently the dumbshit young me chose a fast paced shooter now I can't even get used to playing Ground Branch

2026-04-14 12:49:10 CEST

as I get older I get more bitter and impatient, but if i keep being like that eventually I'll be someone that young me hates.
but it feels better to be that way as the worlds gets worse and the good news I want, i don't see it or it doesn't exist

2026-04-08 14:11:25 CEST

People said when I don't wanna do it just do it, don't even think about doing it just do it but now It's more complex than that because despite not thinking about doing it I don't wanna do it, and I can't find the answer for this kind of problem.

2026-04-08 02:01:51 CEST

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I'm not that insane, also i gave up installing desktop manager, this shit isn't worth it for me

2026-04-07 09:41:13 CEST

I have installed gentoo
https://obj.misskey.id/media/435c78b9-cf37-446f-a0c1-b6767dc4d7ce.png

2026-04-07 04:54:42 CEST

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thankee
and i may or may not keep using gentoo

2026-04-06 10:36:01 CEST

"Bailing out, you are on your own, good luck." is the kind of computer message that I thought comes from a creepypasta but It's real, and it shivers me :ablob_sweats:
Oh and this is someone else's pic from facebook
https://obj.misskey.id/media/a06203cc-cdfe-4bce-8366-058d0904ecea.webp

2026-04-06 10:33:47 CEST

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started like a few hours ago

2026-04-06 10:33:39 CEST

I'm on the road to install gentoo

2026-04-03 05:36:34 CEST

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Not sure what that means but W

2026-04-03 05:27:07 CEST

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thank god for Librewolf's ResistFingerprinting

2026-04-01 05:16:33 CEST

SystemD age verification... it's all just Linux users saying "nooo SystemD bad must switch to other Init system"
First, what they did is just add an optional field in a database to enter your age which only an admin can add
Second, yes it may lay down a foundation for more governmental oppression but how are you gonna be so sure the future is like that? Is it a fact or a fearful expectations that they've used to predict the future?
Three, switching Init system means somebody is gonna lose some software compatibility, It may not work for everyone.
Four, It's not gonna solve the main problem: Politicians being fucking idiots, they could make other init system bow down with enough pressure.
Switching Init systems is a fear-mongered move that may result nothing but self-inflicted hard times, the real move is to forcefully tell the politicians it's impossible right in their face where they can shoot their own foot with their own gun called "proposed laws"
Call me a SoystemD Bootlicker but I live above fear because I'm tired of it, and I'm happy to not be pushed around to everywhere, everytime.
Maybe you should worry about the data you gave to Meta or other Big Corpos you don't trust decades ago, how are you gonna delete that?

2026-03-29 03:54:42 CEST

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the school has living beings?!?