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Last Notes npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose both abortion restrictions and the draft are the legal loss of bodily autonomy. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Being able to bear children is a super power. You can literally create life! Epic! The process of childbirth is dangerous and traumatic. It's heroic to take on that task. Cheers to the women that keep humanity going 🙌 https://blossom.primal.net/7a9bbb4953f3bcbf50cee7f1e9397b453a615c8c18922db11ce40fc7259a5f49.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose SSRI’s/SNRI’s don’t cure depression, because depression isn’t caused by too little serotonin. These drugs are essentially pain killers, and they save lives. It’s pretty damn difficult to climb out of a deep psychological hole, but these pain killers can push you out of that hole. And once out, you are in a much, much better position to do the work of fixing whatever it is that is causing that depression. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I am constantly handing out this career/life hack and it baffles me that so few people do this. It goes like this… you have a special interest/career focus and you see a really interesting person talking about your topic! You’d really love to just invite them out to a bar and have an hour long conversation with them and ask them all kinds of questions about their work… but that’s kinda creepy, you can’t just do that. And so, ladies and gentlemen, what you do is... wrap that whole process in a meetup! When you’re running a meetup you can totally invite that person to a bar to give you a personalized lecture, you just have to do it in front of a bunch of other people and call it a fire side chat at an event. But this way not only will they not find your invitation creepy, they will be flattered, they will show up, and then they will thank you!!! 🙌 It’s the most genius career hack I’ve found. Why are you not doing this?!?!?! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I’ve been on a psychology learning binge over the past ~5 yrs, at this point I’ve read over 30 books on the topic and my #1 take away is how wildly important it is to consciously manage your own mind. We have instincts, we likely inherent some genetic memory, our early childhood shapes our brains and forms our nervous system, we absorb the values and narratives of those around us. The thoughts that we think change the hormones in our body. Often depression and anxiety are matters of deeply ingrained subconscious perspectives on life. Consciously managing your own mind is a prerequisite to having a self directed life. The thoughts you think and how you live changes your gene expression. Your neuropathways are not fixed and can be reformed at any point in your life. In order to change a deeply ingrained thought pattern, you first need to be aware of it. Thankfully there are many scientifically proven methods for becoming aware of your own thoughts and updating them. Meditation, journaling, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Narrative therapy, and more. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Well not to brag but I birthed a few humans with fully functional brains! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Being pregnant is statistically the 6th most dangerous job in the US. In some years it’s more dangerous than being a police officer or being in the military. https://www.scarymommy.com/pregnancy/how-dangerous-is-birth-in-america Complications in pregnancy and childbirth is a leading cause of death among adolescent girls in developing countries. https://www.afro.who.int/health-topics/maternal-health npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Note the one’s that don’t go smoothly rarely end up on YouTube. https://youtu.be/UkkdjzMJKaE https://youtu.be/MtvokBLwjv4 https://www.youtube.com/shorts/bQdKPagyQbc https://youtu.be/1Kh2Ui6JWQY https://youtu.be/juoWp0dMJwc npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Mother’s day is and should be about honoring the heroic effort required in childbirth. Being a dedicated parent is it’s own wildly important work, but that is separate from the dangerous, traumatic, and very necessary work of birthing children. It’s such an injustice that we hide away from the world the intensity, danger, and seriousness of this work. People not appreciating the work of childbearing causes such a lack of understanding. If you are someone who has not experienced or witnessed childbirth, at the very least please watch some videos on it. Links in the comments below. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/c31b89938fc95bec3e5c3c1e733226b5a20e2d431911d14660959ed617106f8c.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Ya I love the People of Walmart site! fun stuff. But Walmart is everywhere, not just the poor places in the states. It's probably the most popular store here in Puerto Rico. Half of my stuff I got at Walmart. and so it's just the common person's store. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose not sarcasm. I say Walmart as that is where you find normal day to day people and not social media influencers. Also any grocery store works. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Please just walk through Walmart. You will see real people dating real people. Your algorithms are feeding you rage bait. https://blossom.primal.net/55b6cfb66e0bf6e53b2842df7f73823544e706a16fe0d5d4ca3e1d4df95b5d21.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Interesting! I have similar thoughts. I think it's about hierarchy. Spirituality does not require hierarchy, but organized religion does. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose You can find things funny when they aren't a danger to you. And I think that is why women often get the label of "humorless". A lot more things are dangerous to women than to men, and so they don't laugh at those things. Ya know like rape jokes. You're probably not going to laugh at a rape joke if you are on a date actively trying to make sure that you don't get raped. There is some nuance here, sometimes humor is a way to deal with trauma. And so whether or not a joke is funny to someone who has experienced that thing depends on the punchline. But a 'ha ha that person got raped' is wildly unlikely to get a laugh out of someone who deals with that fear everyday. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Understand but don't accept. https://blossom.primal.net/566f568b0ec45344e11dc0d8e4be2478df04dc0350de99ee505f3c7cf0978bfb.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Your body knows when you are in a good relationship 🫶 🥰 https://blossom.primal.net/55afe90c19319cb8cb2a79de02fc91c6e5872c51d77cfed0a065a38e16213c59.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose The difficult and complicated part its that it’s both. I imagine we’ve all seen the very publicized examples of very crass abortion supporters who have done things like throw an abortion party, etc. That’s ugly. And it says that women matter but a fetus does not matter. I’m sure we can all also think of an example of a staunch anti-abortion campaigner who would like to see women forced to carry their rapists babies. That’s horrific. And it says that a fetus matters but a woman does not matter. The tricky part about all of this is that it’s both, and it’s not simple at all. The life and well being of a woman matters, and a fetus also matters. In tragic times and places when the their needs are at odds, then very difficult choices about which matters most have to be made. And the ‘answer’ to that will differ in every situation. It’s not simple. We can’t make it simple. And that’s why someone in a fancy suit hundreds of miles away who knows nothing of the specifics of the situation can’t be the one that makes those choices. The people directly affected by the outcome of the situation are the only people fit to make those choices. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose It's interesting that I'm talking about sexual assault and you change the topic to money chasing. Why are these things related in your head? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose If you are someone who has a lot of money and is public about that then it would make a lot of sense to be wary of a new woman that you are dating and try to sort her intentions. Makes perfect sense. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose What are you talking about? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Every woman knows that it’s not “all men.” But women don’t know WHICH men it is. Predators aren’t dumb, they present as normal dudes. Because of this, it is logistically necessary for women to be wary of all men that they don’t know well. A situation that sucks for everyone. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/2fc732e787f403cefe86d343073739e716537c26429284137861cbf62b438e81.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Does being understanding and loving actually work? I feel like I've put in an epic effort for decades to be as decent as I can to people. I've bent over backwards to be understanding. I've worked hard to hug rather than kick when someone is down. ...did any of that help anything? If someone doesn't want to see you, if their ideology won't let them respect you, then they will just never be good to you. It doesn't matter how loving you are. You can't make someone care. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Some places are better. In Australia I would bring my oldest out to the bar with me when she was a baby! ...they did kick her out as it got crowded in the evening tho. and, in some places the pubs had a kids play grounds out on the patio! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose ahh, ya you didn't sound genuine to me, and this proves it. You have a lovely day now (which is passive aggressive for fuck off) npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose ya, I know a lot more than you on these topics. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose ...ahh, right. this is all my fault. so sorry, I'll go admonish myself until others stop being shit to me. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose This is an issue in the present moment. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose How exhausting it is to constantly have to check and test to see if those who are trying to get close to you have any respect for your basic human rights. That has been the case for me in the past ~4 years. So, so many in the Bitcoin/Crypto community have gone down an ugly red pill path adopting an ideology which tells them that women are not appropriate to full autonomy. And these people will attempt to pull you in to their ideology. They will court you and use lovely sounding words and phrases, and once your guard is down they will try to convince you that you are a follower, inappropriate to decision making, a second class human, support staff only. It’s so exhausting, and pathetic. They hide their ideology as they lack the courage to be honest about their convictions. They know that they will be rejected outright if they don’t hide behind flowery words and drip feed their disrespect. What sucks most about this is that now it’s a logistically horrible idea to let anyone in at all until they have thoroughly proven their respect for my basic human rights. So tiring. And it doesn’t feel like that should be the case, that I should have to performs checks to see if someone supports my basic autonomy. What bull shit. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose O this is interesting! So many illusions have been shattered lately! We are in some new eras. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose If you want people to have understanding for you, and you should, then you need to practice having understanding for others. And once again, we’ll look to the red pill crew for an example of how not to do it 😉 The red pill crew, or those sympathetic to them, will explain to you that the “male loneliness epidemic” and young men falling into extremism is a symptom of them being treated badly by the very “woke” lefties, and the extreme feminists, and by the confusing messaging to young men about where their value comes from. And I totally agree, that’s a problem and we should have some understanding for it. However, the same set of people who will expect you to have understanding for young angry misogynist men will fail to understand the angry feminists. Don’t ya think that maybe extreme feminism is a reaction to centuries of legal, social, and at times physical repression of women? Might those things cause some backlash that we should have some understand for? And these same people that want you to have sympathy for young angry misogynist men will also talk about gang violence and “black on black” crime. They also fail to understand where that might come from. They will reject any discussion of the down stream effects of centuries of brutal legal repression and systematic segregation and impoverishment. Might it be that some young black men fall into gangs as they were a born into a difficult situation that doesn’t give them as many options as others get? Should we have some understanding for that? You can’t have it both ways. If you want others to have understanding for you, and you should, then you need to practice understanding for others. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose O no big story, just thousands of small ones. I ran out of tolerance for those not willing to put in any effort to understand others. I've just had enough of that for a lifetime. I am now done. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose O the amount of times I’ve been told that my concerns are paranoid, illogical, hysterical. I’m always being told to shelve my concerns so that I can consider other people’s perspectives. I can’t do it any more. There is quite a lot to be learned from listening to others perspectives. I’d go so far as to say you can’t learn or grow if you don’t. But it has to be mutual. Continuing to do the hard work of putting yourself in someone else’s shoes when they won’t do the same for you just degrades your respect for yourself. If you can’t be kind, if you can’t be understanding, if you can’t take a moment to consider how a situation impacts someone else…. Go fuck yourself and good bye. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose What's the best most effective way to control a person over the long run? Give me your theories! But I'll tel you mine... via their self concept. If you can manage to convince someone that they are XYZ, and their values comes from being/doing XYZ, then they will carry out XYZ enthusiastically for decades without you having to direct them at all. This is hard to pull off tho. You have to get them young, or when they are down and out, or you have to slowly change a whole culture to adapt the collective unconscious to the self concept that you want. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Understanding is not the same as agreeing or condoning. One of the most frustrating things about being on social media is watching the sea of posts and memes and “debates” which are just people intentionally misunderstanding each other. People purposely being obtuse and twisting others words in attempts to “dunk” on others and score a few likes. It’s not just ugly or childish, it’s wildly lazy. What a cheap easy way out of actual thought. “It's the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.” npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Do you think there is an objective definition of terrorism? If so, what is it? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/7211e33ca1d9fcaa5afa57ed42d6ee9b3461ace3743f02e02159a095bfb0cf16.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/d9012ded4e00e593085d7f6667ae23499d097a0078416fccf138ba4fb414a441.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/fcea05ba23f019efc9e594061c8f51dea60aa40d38be598bcc123eca7eb12dc0.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/c1b31bad44559ef977bbbdbedd60a0a743801ab2ef593d0dc2c0d25c036c0165.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose One of the most intellectually lazy things you can do is decide that if someone disagrees with you it’s simply because they are an idiot. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Here is some discrimination against men. This is what the red pill crew should be mad about. https://blossom.primal.net/ed6c45d8cec46456184d863a66ad540f1b7dd97a85db3a05656f64fb0a90cddf.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Today is my last day of being 42, my last day of being the answer to life the universe and everything 😭 Really I can’t say I pulled that off, but I sure did give it a go! In the past year I made 12 trips to 5 different countries. I did two talks en español! I definitely prefer the messier moments and the messier photos. Life just is messy, you make yourself miserable trying to be perfect and polished. https://blossom.primal.net/d01fe1fce87e42d1630b58a2a58de3140084149d3cf315175e4e6313ea1d9e2b.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Evergreen April Fools meme https://blossom.primal.net/68e8aefd21f51848c3ddc4b079b596552263d018745ec34b8209215ea9433edc.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Buen dia. I already fell victim to one cruel April Fools joke 😢 https://blossom.primal.net/4d309d45cf611213f3ba984bfbbb3adbfee78003edcfb49de3af4daca635a62c.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose The biggest way in which men fail to protect is by not believing that there is a threat to protect against. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/b39d57dc37de3dc6e5c74f5b1e6bba7370ca469bd405aa4cf41e2f6673e64fd2.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/f11d39a4cacd438964a85c70e2b0322af418f4d7f3c8eb4bb79cf35241f0f720.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/90f8e5de883bdf0816eba20b0716f77cdda8c579a7762288a31d8545e62be84a.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/7760c5029ee5a563e3299012dce8978a5e9b545255f8a04ae6d9cf86897bdc8e.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose you control your behavior. You don't control others, you don't control the circumstances of your life, you don't control mother nature, etc. And so it only makes sense to focus on your responses to the circumstances around you. You can decide to attempt to influence the world, but the world will surprise you, and do things that you didn't want it to and that you can't control, and you have to focus on your decisions on how to respond. As that is the only thing you control. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose No? Have you ever read a US history book? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Affirmative action for white men has been a part of the states for the entirety of it’s existence. That has been fading a lot in my life time, but it amuses me how people get so angry about the evil “DEI” and don’t realize that in a lot of places DEI is simply a process for removing the affirmative action for white men. It’s a process for making the hiring process more fair… making it more of a meritocracy. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose No you can't. You can influence a lot of things, but in the end you control nothing but yourself. If you take on responsibility for things outside your control you will make yourself miserable. Fewer things in life I am more sure of. This is just the way it is. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose The key to the whole inner peace thing is to not have any desires or attachments that your sense of self is dependent upon. 20+ years ago I spent a few weeks studying Buddhism in a world religions class at Oakton Community College. I don't remember a lot accept that I didn't like it. I'm not supposed to desire anything? What's the point of being alive then? Years latter I came to understand the concept more as you're not supposed to be attached to things and that made a lot more sense to me. ...But I am attached to things! I have to un-attach from my kids in order to have inner peace? Nah that's BS But now I get it. It goes back to this 'outcome pressure' thing that I deal with a lot and the idea of not taking on responsibility for things outside my control. It's about a sense of what you are and are not responsible for. The attachment thing is mostly right. But it doesn't mean don't care, or don't strive, it means don't lose your sense of self to an attachment to something external. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose “Only the people can save the people” 🫶 #NoKings https://blossom.primal.net/66cceb018591871ec55b12ac7af74b1c897dfe02d0c4dd7d3b182e342b1fdbc0.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I'm such a middle aged bitch. It's fabulous✨ npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Someone: "how do you do it all?" Me: "I don't, I have a partner who does it all with me." Ladies, don't marry a man that wants a wife and kids. Marry a man that wants to be a husband and father! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/cfc7a572b7163364051fbb047d85600e66ec3eaca45c5abd05713cbf44d10726.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Sometimes I hear that macaroons are confusing, and that bums me out as I find them to be so elegant and simple. So let me see if I can effectively communicate how beautiful this little piece of tech is… Let’s imagine that you have a server that has some data to serve up and you want to gate your content and perhaps charge for it. Step one, create a secret. Here we’ll use just the word “secreto”, which is of course “secret” in Spanish. The tricky part for you is that you have to know what a hash function is, and the tricky part for your server is that it has to hold on to and protect this secret. Now perhaps you want to give your users ID’s. Something complex and official looking like “id12345678id”. To make a very simple macaroon for your user you simple hash “secreto” together with that ID “id12345678id”. You can try this yourself on the command line if you like. $ echo "secreto;id12345678id" | sha256sum The result is “55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d” and congratulations you created a macaroon! (Kinda) You then hand your user this data: id12345678id 55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d You don’t have to hold on to any data at all besides that secret. You can hold on to that ID data if you like. But tomorrow when the holder of this macaroon shows back up to access your services, how can you validate them? Very simply as you know the secret! You take that ID “id12345678id” and hash it together with your secret [$ echo "secreto;id12345678id" | sha256sum] to see if you get the hash that they showed up with, “55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d”. If you do, then you know that your server created that macaroon and you can let them right in. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. Well, ackchyually 🤓 ... What I’ve described above is really more of an HMAC(Hash-based Message Authentication Code) than a macaroon. What macroons are really for is chaining hashes and adding attenuations. So let’s add in one more step. You don’t want this user to have access to your server forever, so you want to add an expiration date to this authentication token. Let’s say April 27th 2027. So let’s add that to our HMAC thus turning it into a proper macaroon! Right now we have: id12345678id 55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d How do we add our new attenuation? With another hash of course!!! We take our existing hash, and hash it with our new data, “expires:2027-04-27”. $ echo "55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d;expires:2027-04-27" | sha256sum We now have a new hash! “bf41dee1dacfe63e1d917c46d024e6ceb13506632e092fa218bd96df041f7b0e” This is now the macaroon that we give our user: id12345678id expires:2027-04-27 bf41dee1dacfe63e1d917c46d024e6ceb13506632e092fa218bd96df041f7b0e And still, only we know the secret. And so, this user can’t change this macaroon as doing so would alter that hash thus making our validation of it fail. So how can we validate it? Also, very, very simply with just that secret and a few hash functions! As we have the secret, all we need to do is recreate the macaroon and see if we get the final hash that the user showed up with. Hash together the secret with the ID. Take that result and hash it together with the expiration data. If the result is the same hash as the user presented to us then we know that macaroon was created using our secret. So either someone has stolen our secret, or we created that macaroon! Don’t trust, verify. Try it yourself on your machine. $ echo "secreto;id12345678id" | sha256sum This produces 55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d. Then… $ echo "55413cca2fbc3a31f5ef5ab7b18390c926dd7f9d466034ea8ec2a0867e19e26d;expires:2027-04-27" | sha256sum Which produces bf41dee1dacfe63e1d917c46d024e6ceb13506632e092fa218bd96df041f7b0e. The hashes match, authentication complete! ...one more ackchyually. A real HMAC function is slightly more complicated than demonstrated above. HMAC functions handle the data more carefully than just taking a string, and there lots of details in formatting, and there are details on how third party caveats are added, etc. However, if you’ve made it this far, congratulations, you understand macaroons! 🥳 npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose The relationship is the prize. It’s my sincere guess about the universe that the most important things in life are…(in this order) 1. Who you are. What you chose to be. Your values. 2. Your loving connections with others. Your relationships. 3. How you impact the world. The ripple effects that your behavior has. When deciding who to deal with, who to be close with, you gotta get an idea of what they think to be the most important things in life. If fame, power, fortune, etc. are on their list then you are at risk of being used for those ends. If whoever you’re dealing with doesn’t see the relationship as the prize, then you are a tool to achieve a different prize. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose It wouldn't bother me so much if I were paying for schools and firetrucks. But it really does bother me to know that I'm paying for bombs that get dropped on schools. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/b224f80c3c5d60ce61782c39f1a0f3b8ca4408db5c18a81d54d6de56e528ec6c.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose There is no utopia, everywhere has it's problems. You gotta pick the set of problems you prefer. ...like today, my office in San Juan is far too sunny. So sunny I put sun glasses on over my computer glasses. These are my kind of problems ☀️😎😉 npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose There is a variety of misogyny that I run into a lot in the crypto community. It's very nice sounding hippie dippie misogyny and it goes like this... male leadership is simply natural, it's what we see all throughout the animal kingdom. That's just the way nature is. Two things here: 1. This is just plain false. For example, Bonobos are one of humans closest relatives in the animal kingdom, and Bonobos are matriarchal. 2. Let's say that the animal kingdom were entirely patriarchal, do we want to be like the animals? Do we aspire to be like Chimpanzees, or do we aspire to be more enlightened creatures? And I'd argue that more enlightened creatures aren't interested in suppressing half of their species. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose “SaaS is dead” they say. AI killed it, we’ll all just use Claude to write our own custom apps. *ahem* Claude is SaaS. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/2f940d1448950490cee04fc510e02fd428ef55d8fff5e22b8324b9bec6679d3b.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Ahh the grotesque state of the world. https://blossom.primal.net/adf6b776f0f8d619f1db5743b38de67b3ee7f9b6ec79977b2a5f9275be64fbdf.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Chuck Norris' email was [email protected] npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Ooo, I found the official music video, and it's stunning. Not sure why flowers and flowing fabric are so sensual, but they really, really are! https://youtu.be/qKFMK2eDWeQ npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Wow I need a bottle of wine and an evening that inspires me to dance to this 🍷💃🎶🥰 I must be overdue for date night… or maybe I’m ovulating. Who knows. Just dance. https://youtu.be/Tyu8yRPlyIw npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose "The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates ~400BC npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I think most of us know it on an intellectual level. If you’ve read a shit ton of books, if you’ve done a bunch of shrooms(so I’m told), if you’ve been to therapy, then you know… You control nothing but yourself. You are not responsible for the behavior of others. You are not responsible for the outcome of a complex situation. The only things it makes sense to worry about are your own choices. Life is mostly just about deciding who you are and connecting with others. We know this intellectually, but we were born in a world that sold us a very different perspective on life. One where you must feel shame if the outcome is not what you hoped. One where life is about being above others, and having more. And removing that programming from the back of your head takes years and years of work. But everyone once in a while, I don’t just know these things, I feel them. Every once in a while I have a morning where I forget to feel shame and forget to try to be above others. And on those mornings, life really feels pretty fun. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/44baef53cf8336338a9a6adb796fb0a91de5c278cb69f81295240f6d1d8ed196.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Both "woke" and "based" are cringe. Flip sides of the same political bullshit coin. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/868057769d509316d6d7980694a9dbde534ee757848ba94d6b7830d89c74f4a8.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/8eef90e0c44458e03c2bc352c8c73d4bec96f8f51104202a1d2275bd2cc4c5bc.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/4e8b5e0d97e87b5725d7a763efca9e2bfcf3b6ec821bb173156941029ab84d9e.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Violence is the last refuge of the incompetent. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose okay, but don't you think that you matter? When do you get to be the priority? I'd argue that in a healthy relationship two people are supporting eachother. At times one may get prioritized, but balance is pursued. Your goals, your ambitions, your development shouldn't be ignored. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Giving up autonomy is not a path to self realization. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Agreed, there is a difference. But I see submission as taking someone away from full self realization. ...which I view as a big part of the purpose of life. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose ...there is a video of him with 6 fingers? I missed that. Links? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/0568730dee37b2fdc09e52e9d520eb7ef1b00e3b3dba26992f392e5af4a8a8e9.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I think that dynamic frightens people as they don't perceive it to be healthy. ...I'm one of those people. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose So what do y'all think about the Internets new fav conspiracy theory that Netanyahu has been dead for like a week now??? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I flew past Cuba last night and there were lights on. The big red light was another airplane, but the smaller white lights seemed to be in and around Havana. https://blossom.primal.net/b7644a450ca67040cfad14f43d68dc18f825ee25dea5bb4366818daa619946a1.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose But gents, please do braid your beard and wear cologne! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose It always blows my mind how people will speak like an authority on a topic that they haven't even researched for 5 mins. https://blossom.primal.net/675020da82263308781bd5ceafbdb1bcb19a705edd59fc42202e324e9006ef0a.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose If I ever quit tech I think I'd run one of those hippie dippie wellness retreats, but like with science. So you can totally bring your crystals and do sound baths if you like, but we also have Congnative Behavior Therapy and anti-inflamitory food. Chant whatever you want but you have to do your EMDR session! And it won't cost an obscene amount cuz it's just some shack on the side of a mountain in Peru. So you just have to get down there then it's like $250! npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose In a world ruled by violence, the most violent will rule. What kind of world do you want? What do you want the world to be ruled by? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose You can take a difficult fact about humans and you can decide to help, or you can decide to take advantage and use it to oppress. Men are bred to be cannon fodder. Do you want to try to change that, or do you want to abuse that and send them out on your wars? Women are physically vulnerable. Do you want to support and protect women, or do you want to use that to control women? npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose Next @nprofile…qxte! 2 special guests: SuperTestnet on testing hard/soft forks on regtest. Then San Juan local Donny on mining pools & what they mean for you...Rumor has it he's bringing some NerdQaxe++ miners with him! 🚀 RSVP below https://www.meetup.com/san-juan-bitdevs/events/313746427/ npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose In the past ~5 years I've learned SO, SO much about the human mind, and nervous system, and psychology, and how we operate, epigenetics, and neuroplasticity, etc. and it just blows my mind how uncommon this knowledge is. Just 5 years ago I was a very educated and intelligent person and yet was walking around all day utterly ignorant of how my own mind functions. Wild. It bums me out how psychology and therapy are demonised. Y'all we are so ignorant. We really need to be leaning into these tools a lot more rather than shaming them. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose I like this. It's not making A plan, it's making planS. And precisely because we don't know what will happen. As this is a constant issue for me I’ve tried tackling it in many ways. It’s an uphill battle as the culture all around us tells us that there is a very specific path to follow in life, it’s our job to stay very narrowly on that path, and should we deviate, should tragedy find us and knock us off the track, well that is a shameful failure on our part. ...wow is that exhausting! I like making AI + Photoshop images and I made these two. The first represents the narrow path. It’s a frightening and exhausting way to live. The second is the expectation of life that I’m trying to install in my head. It’s the idea that there are all kinds of possibilities all the time and it’s our job just to attempt to manage them well. https://blossom.primal.net/bd3078825cd65c47dfc08cafe18bf675a24f07844956360b23000d1d7e97f139.png https://blossom.primal.net/2c286b5b81d3b35197194ecf4994ef858d2236d1653719dd2e7b843065c4b4b4.png npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/5569571251b4d1ffd2f5d3bd6029903c35de6205eb1e2d0c24cf4587c7af2aa6.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/2b86a37712cdbaec4939586b08dc8af24b9eb9cb73ff4d68984ecc2925d211aa.jpg npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose In case you forgot... you control nothing. You can scheme and influence but in the end you don't stand a chance at actually controlling anything besides yourself. So if you want a more loving world, you should be more loving. If you want a more educated world, you should be more educated. If you want a more violent world, you should be more violent. etc, etc. npub1tv5j2h2742ht2a6490cdzypsxah5wlge5qyutadgphw884ynt8mqg4jlst hmichellerose https://blossom.primal.net/3f2550a0586f68f2de519a4ccc366d4ed487bcdfd1c5ed29ca213274d19a7319.png