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2026-08-20 05:49:21 CEST

Coloured in pistachio green.

2026-08-20 05:48:51 CEST

The cheesecake was an epic fail though i almost walked back and asked them to take it back.
The passionfruit almost a hit!
But creaminess! No one has beaten you!
There should be a.
The churn on THAT
Or two places
the churn
On That

2026-08-20 05:41:54 CEST

As always I did all by myself..
But ive been able to treat myself so some ice cream.
So far the vegan pistachio was the best ice cream ive had in my life the consistency of it was out of this world!! No joke or exaggeration.. i felt like i was trippin it wasnt preprogram.. i was sincerely surprised!
The cinnamon was holy shit.. if it were plant based id have it more often.. i dont like the taste of milk either.. just like eggs. Ever since i wa an a kid..
Obviously as a side not i was disappointed to see that the pistachios was mixed with oats as thats another sign who im supposed to be. I truly like oatmeal but hate oatmilk when i make it myself i can stomach the storebought one but im almonds all the way since i first tried it.
Pistachios are something my dad used to bring when he came to visit me.. his daughter.. not elisabeth a stranger that i only met as an adult.. you dumb human.

2026-08-20 05:03:21 CEST

I keep forgetting about these women that are into being degraded they take alot of anger that should be used to change something and make it into something more important than the victims of their abusers.
Thats where I dont know how I can live with how reality supposedly works.. 🤷🏻‍♀️

2026-08-20 04:47:11 CEST

Im sure you get where I overstepped my own boundaries in eating the eggs and not supporting my integrity to myself.
Letting a pattern reoccur bc Im in a leas poweful position life.
The best and healthiest choice Ive ever made in my life was cutting off contact to all of my relatives.. my life flourished.. and when my former upstairs neighbour forced me to have them back in my life while I was “sick” bc she thinks not forgiving rapists is “sick” and women living alone is “sick”
And… now my life’s sick again by my opinion(which to the ones that see me as sick is less worth) with patterns that I exorcised decades ago..
I dont believe on keeping this species alive.

2026-08-20 04:35:22 CEST

Tragic
Maybe thatll be your next breeds name.

2026-08-20 02:49:58 CEST

On a funnier note .. i woke up iiiin the middle of the night… with my head on my phone.. i guess i was looking for a heartbeat on theeeee ooother siiideee.. of the bed.
Helloouuuu

2026-08-20 02:47:11 CEST

Regardless of her behaviour towards me.. the thing thst it tells me is thst he fucked around in my past and childhood changing pieces thst were never allowed to be changed.. and i think he spied on me way before i met him in person.
You played in god in my life without any right to! You should be dead.

2026-08-20 02:25:03 CEST

Ah die andere Caroline that I knew when I was 19?
No shes too stuck up to think im interesting.. but i havent talked her in decades maybe she learned how to not turn her uphill nose down to me.

2026-08-20 02:12:47 CEST

I still think she said one of my pictures of myself from my childhood is her. 🤡
Im not joking..
I think shes greed taking whatever she wants.

2026-08-20 02:09:40 CEST

Maybe shes also a dead person they brought back from the dead or had someone else steal lives again.

2026-08-20 02:09:08 CEST

Now shes the bodysize of chris partner from now i guess.. before that she wore nothing else but the girl who was on his website while she was pregnant..
And then she told me some shit at the acupuncturist that she was engaged and pregnant.. which later she said no she never was engaged or pregnant.

2026-08-20 02:05:21 CEST

She was so fkn rude to me back then everytime I really thought i had gone back kindergarten.. thats why i could care less if shes happy..
to me shes nothing else but another maggot.
If you’re in your 30s and you ignore the 3rd person in conversation… 🥹🤷🏻‍♀️ i guess the coke or stomach acid burnt that part of intelligence away.

2026-08-20 02:01:03 CEST

Having had psychology in school we learned about the expressions of different eating disorders and how to spot them bc duuuuhhh if you work in that area you need to know what to look for..

2026-08-20 01:58:09 CEST

I always wondered if emma was an ex junkie bc of her weight including the fucked up teeth ive only known that from junkies.. or if the stomach acid from throwing for so long fucked up her teeth..
With the amount of fake bitch she was in every yoga class i never bothered to find out bc i didnt want that petty fake bs in my life.

2026-08-20 01:54:21 CEST

I guess they psychically dominated nature..

2026-08-20 01:31:15 CEST

The blonde russian crypto chick is interested in chris which makes her emma..
She doesnt get that im not interested and maybe they could stop orienting themselves on what I do… thats nicely put.
I guess they’re at orientation.

2026-08-19 16:20:23 CEST

Ewww some asian chick still thinks shes me.. i can feel it in my cheekbones.
Nooooo ewwww i told her im not interested in women.

2026-08-19 16:17:49 CEST

Maybe hes found his home with 20something yr olds in his 40s idk..
I also w care other than it being all pre structured and nothing is worth living it tbh.. im glad i forget stuff again but theres nothing for me here anywhere.. im like a left over variable.

2026-08-19 16:15:16 CEST

There was someone who walked past me while telling his friend.. well im here in.. now , sober..
As if that fixes the shit that he brought with him.. the broken simcard drove by me twice that day…
What a cancerous story..
—-
Today i found a sticker with an empty toothpaste tub in the background that i used as a kid..
I tagged the brand and surprise a girl who wears a grill opened an account with the toothpastes name in april this year..
Its getting harder for them listen in years ago to whats happening now i hope.. maybe wishful thinking but only a few months ahead not years anymore.

2026-08-19 16:08:54 CEST

Stop fkn harrassing me you delusion alcoholic cancerous diseased dumb fuck.

2026-08-19 03:01:52 CEST

What an incredible groupeffort to fullfill my sociopathic dead grandfather’s wishes that hes always right making worth less bc my dad was a foreigner.
Incredible! I can only congratulate you all.. what a way to follow dead peoples worldviews.

2026-08-19 02:54:30 CEST

1500 word essay.

2026-08-19 02:53:28 CEST

I wonder when youll be able to accept that money would have solved all my problems that I have dragged out for 6 years.
Write an essay about my 6 years as a subhuman who wasnt worth to be helped beyond the event/ual food.

2026-08-19 02:50:16 CEST

I think every rich person on here that has more than enough and has been following me since I opened this account should write an essay about how well they sleep while others like me suffer and im probably not even the worst of ‘those’
Idk why I was supposed to sign up here and share so many personal things.. it goes against my whole person since I can remember..

2026-08-19 01:23:57 CEST

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcMGqRoxKD-/?igsi=azRpOGdwdGs0YmRk
🥊🙏🙆🏻‍♀️🤣 what a hit!

2026-08-19 00:33:39 CEST

I still think shes a nazi disguising herself as a jewish person.

2026-08-19 00:29:47 CEST

2026-08-19 00:29:41 CEST

Hy Papagei .

2026-08-19 00:16:34 CEST

I wonder how many women has she done that to?
Where she acts like their friend and then takes over theie lives.
Im sure in her fucked brain shes still taking work off others.. bc she thinks its about careers instead of personal relationships.. making her a prostitute

2026-08-18 23:25:36 CEST

Ohh finally lara has accepted her rich life and choose another guy that her friend was into..
Well done.. please get the sarcasm
Sooo amazing be all that you can be.
Their hands touched. 🥹🖕 how adorable

2026-08-18 22:49:54 CEST

🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮
Just bc hes rich his submissive minion act accord to his opinion about who im supposedly am even though they’ve never met him or know who he is.
Meaning he makes himself out to be a god. 🤣🤣🤣🤮🤮🤮

2026-08-18 22:41:04 CEST

My preprogrammed energetic reactions that were forced into my system through rape and dominance are wishful thinking by the perpetrators delusional want to be normal & liked.
The bulllied bullies he gets the reaction that he wants but not which is true.

2026-08-18 21:49:45 CEST

Getting reminded of this looser today where the person opposite me always has to see me as a ‘client’ is so fkn dumb that he should cut off his dick eat it.
Theres a reason why I dont use a Sim card and why its dying out no one needs that much cancer in their lifes.

2026-08-18 21:38:43 CEST

Anout an hour ago someone started to ask me questions again in my sleep about private topics & ppl that I talked etc.
At least this time i woke up.

2026-08-18 15:40:45 CEST

Please finally leave me alone!

2026-08-18 15:39:18 CEST

I actually met a nice person today from last yr and we tried to have a random conversation but the brainwash already came through after a minute of conversation..
Thats how scared you are to do your time for the crime.. now the whole world revolves around it.

2026-08-18 15:36:32 CEST

What a groupeffort!
Clap yourself on the backs! 🖕🖕🖕🙏🙏🙏

2026-08-18 15:34:57 CEST

Whatever you tell yourself..
The person that I have to be so that no one helped after getting abused just so you can keep bro code..
I hope you all die.

2026-08-18 15:33:18 CEST

Today i saw two ppl that I filled under bane of my existence but not in a friendly joking kind of way..
One is 100% gay but doesnt want to admit it..
The other one thinks hes the shit bc of his money.. and apparently superior intelligence..
What were his words in 2022.. something about disney shit and then he thought he was soo important that apparently i was a journalist that had it out for him. 🤣🙏🖕
Cancerious narcissist 🤮🤮🤮🤮
And hes ugly too at least washed but def not light. 🤮🤮🤮

2026-08-18 11:02:05 CEST

The grossest part to me when I talked to that guy whos bday is on the same as mine with former candy store.. that he said some shit like.. loving all generation of their partner bc of dna and ancestry 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮
I guess hes my living breathing nightmare.. doing the exact opposite of what i mean or actually think is worth something.
Sorry if thats any of your vibes.. then castrate yourself.. incestues grindviech!!

2026-08-18 04:48:46 CEST

I saw the nyt post about the danube spitting out the nazitrash..
Im sure the money the will get for the artefacts will be more than 1800€
🥹
Just in case your starving over there or anything. 🤷🏻‍♀️

2026-08-18 04:44:43 CEST

Nothing that made you believe that you’re so special that you took my life bc you couldn’t deal with me being somewhere without having been born in an english speaking country and my language abilities without having had the same grades in school as you.
I dont think you would have survived what you did to me.
You elitis worldview of academic ppl being better doesnt make anything less or more than trash.
It makes you the stink they threw on poor ppl in the time where your mindset it from.

2026-08-18 04:23:18 CEST

https://www.instagram.com/p/DcEoOtvBD-_/?igsh=NDZtam96bnFsZDMw
Is that true?

2026-08-18 04:21:50 CEST

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbtBkTvxalb/?igsh=MXh5ZXM4bmR6azl0cg==
100% crazy agreed. But, if you’re only pioneering in the area of acting..
Do you know how many cents or dollars other women make in different jobs.
Explain to me why actors should get paid that much and before you tell it to me tell it yourself first and check where you believe yourself and where you dont believe yourself..
🤷🏻‍♀️

2026-08-18 04:00:55 CEST

Ohhh they play heaven or hell with pills now?! Instead of origami?
Damn that took me 6 years to figure out.

2026-08-18 03:54:07 CEST

https://www.instagram.com/p/DbYTVtPgJlp/?igsh=MThjbWFqOWxrd2ljMA==
I guess following his advice did me good in one area of life.
All the fake ones i eliminated and im seen as the one whos the problem which makes them intrinsically self combustable narcissistic toxic waste containers.
Boooooooom

2026-08-18 02:50:00 CEST

Omggg
Does one gram fit on a long pinky nail??!
I got so excited after having let my claws grow that I can get salt out of the jar with my pinky nail.

2026-08-18 01:44:32 CEST

https://www.instagram.com/p/Db16l9zGxIL/?igsh=MXI3c29lN2dwanFsaw==
Years ago i would have read this as a roast.. now i hope he was able to remove himself from the simulation.

2026-08-17 16:03:15 CEST

Now hes gotta be a american cowboy until he dies..
As I said its not easy to accept realities changing and others disappearing..
My binge is over now..
— if one of you dares to force themselves on me again tonight.. i will find the guts to slit throats.

2026-08-17 15:57:24 CEST

Thats a different virgo though who writes fleshed out characters.. not the fake one who snorts.

2026-08-17 15:55:42 CEST

I got new shoes but I didn’t call the doc.
Martens.
I sold them in 2016.

2026-08-17 15:45:18 CEST

What did i eat with a spoon when I was a kid?
So which one am I not?
Dear sausageparty.

2026-08-17 15:42:36 CEST

Mäckers
Like mustard & ketchup.
😬

2026-08-17 15:39:19 CEST

Jack harris
Careful what you wish for…
Frankestein.

2026-08-17 15:31:06 CEST

Either the cave or lovers of the light..

2026-08-17 15:30:17 CEST

Theres mumford & sons chords/melodies in there.

2026-08-17 15:28:49 CEST

Ai jai jai…
I know who i meant.. she didnt have a role at all.. she cant have mine that didnt work out..
Those are the rules of my manifestations and imagination..

2026-08-17 15:25:13 CEST

Buffalo traffic jam.. fools gold..
Not bad..
But also a treasure hunt movie.

2026-08-17 15:18:08 CEST

I think its nice that they tried to give meaning to her first world white girl issues with melodies and intonation…
But seriously then sing about her gossiping and complaining about coworkers even though she could have easily afforded to quit.. for years..
Not months. 🤷🏻‍♀️

2026-08-17 15:02:05 CEST

Omggg ur dad as your grandma. 🤣

2026-08-17 15:01:20 CEST

Very brave though for trying that type of expressing oneself..
The reaper— the rythm and speed of that is more natural.. that ones def not as tortured..
The tortured one is more likely a cancer.

2026-08-17 14:57:37 CEST

Thats a virgos face.

2026-08-17 14:56:20 CEST

I just dont buy her feelings that hes singing.. shes not that deep..

2026-08-17 14:55:08 CEST

Jonah Kagen is doing pretty well..
Im impressed.
—- hes gonna do his parents proud.
—
Its the boots dudes there’s something in those..
… and a vespa.

2026-08-17 11:58:55 CEST

I think to protect ppl from stalkers in their everyday life maybe payment facilitators can hide private information when a payment gets made and only get revealed for a valid reason. Protecting personal privacy.

2026-08-17 08:47:26 CEST

The absurdity in human behaviour that you see as normal makes me want to die.
You’re enslaved by a bullied teenager thats scared to get laughed at again..

2026-08-17 08:20:21 CEST

Are there vegan billionaires?
Why do I ask? Great question.
I dont think that anyone has had a strong enough mindset to defeat the peer pressure in such a powerhungry environment.
Anyone?

2026-08-17 07:06:12 CEST

I cant believe fat porky came back here

2026-08-17 07:05:57 CEST

So the guy whos obsessed with being me is really fat?
What a surprise nothing new

2026-08-17 01:44:00 CEST

One of my sproutlings broke off last night or got cut off..
:(
Should i have a great plant funeral?

2026-08-17 01:02:08 CEST

Every time when I get reminded of their interference in changing my life’s path i wish they were dead.
What a fkn arrogant bitch.
Its a narcissistic mother theresa complex.
How do men believe these types of women?

2026-08-17 00:51:43 CEST

Omg..
Bc she likes cctv.. ( a virgo)
🤡
is the sociopathic logic still that she really thinks shes me or that someone wants to force me to like the same things as my stalker who inserted themselves as me in my life’s story?

2026-08-16 16:22:34 CEST

What these ppl are taking from me every day..
If i had the guts and the strength they wld have faces or throats anymore.

2026-08-14 16:57:10 CEST

I grind you not!

2026-08-14 16:36:23 CEST

I think its psychic spies..
All of a sudden my shopping choices are supposed to look the guy i had a crush on?!?!?!!
How fkn disrespectful if i need retail therapy after being disappointed… doesnt help if im supposed to shop for him?!?!!
I think its some muslim hindu believe system that got out of control where women only do what the man ‘needs’ or wants..
How old was this ghost that got necromanced? He mustve been ffom before 1500 or something!!? !!

2026-08-14 16:10:23 CEST

I think one of my stray cats is gonna pass away soon. He doesnt let me touch him but he def has some kidney stuff going on.
He doesnt eat much food anymore and drinks and alot of water.. i guess someone dragged 2021 out of the grave and is beating a dead year full with experiences.
My cat has kidney failure in 2021 after eating rat poison..
Its a loop of laziness or just a punishing karmic cycle..

2026-08-14 16:05:35 CEST

Ill out grind you.
Your hobo hijack look cant compete with whats to come..
Ive got more than one pair of socks..

2026-08-14 16:01:25 CEST

You haven’t even seen my new foot getup yet.

2026-08-14 16:00:30 CEST

I think you need should sing..
Im so vaaaaiinnnn.

2026-08-14 15:59:31 CEST

Ive turned myself into different characters while driving so i dont get bored..
Rn i think im a cheerleader! 🖕
Its like a ghost sarcastic cheerleader..
everything thuperstupid and thuperfunny. hAHa
Full on dizz but only while driving..

2026-08-14 15:55:15 CEST

Just an fyi.. i dont trust anyone again..
All of the sudden wa synced contacts that i never even put into my phone from 3 years ago..
I think youre psycho freaks!

2026-08-14 15:47:42 CEST

Currently im mourning my own kind heart dying after being used so often for personal gains by others..
Everytime when sniff the capricorns shit id rather die then having him take more of whats not his.
Lifetimes, time spent, experiences..
—
Stop trying to sympathise out of.. omg can we just get this one over with..
You dont know my pain..

2026-08-14 15:42:16 CEST

I told you my half persian female personality.. has been like wtf for decades.

2026-08-14 15:40:14 CEST

Saw my crush the other day sadly with another girl..
Then i talked another guy a few days later, randomly, and he told me I have beautiful eyes..
I thought I was gonna a old grandmother until the middle eastern charm comes through.

2026-08-14 15:38:13 CEST

Omg!! I didn’t even tell you yet..
A few weeks ago i met another dudes bday is on the same day as mine..
Guess what??? He used to have a candy store.
Im a bit speechless.

2026-08-14 15:35:36 CEST

I got all the ingredients in a budget store. Not the salad leafs though

2026-08-14 15:34:25 CEST

I cant believe i found the sandwich flavour from my over 30 yr old disney trip.
That cheese sandwich was soooo good!!

2026-08-11 13:33:18 CEST

https://youtu.be/WYMPR3NK59Q?si=Vssi7KI8Aaf7gnLE
Thats my new vibe.

2026-08-03 06:19:16 CEST

Ohhhhh a star!!!
Thats oold…
I didnt get that connection to back then until now. 😂
Awww i had just moved into my first apartment.
Must’ve been 2006. We were such good friends back then.

2026-08-03 06:15:20 CEST

Idk how many times ive gotta say this…. im not a rabbit im a tiger.

2026-08-03 06:14:36 CEST

🤣🤣🤣🤣
The things that im realising.. just more confirmation that the only dates mental patients. Jesus obsessed freaks..
I guess they all of to follow that chick that sliced herself open for art purposes.. the level of freak is mutilation of their bodies to express gods spirit 🤡🤣🤡🤣🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

2026-07-24 10:20:30 CEST

Take it from my coffee cup, the 50 cents.
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

2026-07-24 10:19:33 CEST

I think there should be a you know you deserve it dickhead punching booth.
Where women who will never be able to not break their arm if they punch someone who deserves and knows it.
Like … heres my 50cents - 🥊 !!!

2026-07-22 10:09:25 CEST

They’re already brainwashing other ethnicities to be hyper vigilant..
Whats in this bottle could be dangerous…
🫣 i think the usa is a nation toddlers that got told their thuperspecial.. over sanitised and ‘if you do that ill tell my mom’

2026-07-21 19:21:01 CEST

So if you take into account that the person never dies bc the psyche cant grasp its a own death..
If someone get killed thats even worst.. then dragging it out and scaring the person who possessed others while being alive would maybe help in bringing tjem to awareness in their real body? That would be the only chance to kill the possessor?

2026-07-19 22:40:14 CEST

Du alte speibscheissung bleib mir vom leib du fotzschirches grindviech.
Ranzpoppelnder dünnschiss .
Du gebrechliche schabrakenstinkung

2026-07-19 22:26:53 CEST

I hope you fkn die you delusion catholic whore.. cutting yourself apart for god. 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤮🤮🖕🖕🤮🤮🤮🖕🖕🖕🖕

2026-07-19 22:26:02 CEST

Ie. this alcoholic old witch who had some cancer cut out of her cheek..
She told me about it a few years ago.. the fake hoe you named a house after..
After i met her i all of a sudden had an itchy patch on my cheek where they cut something out of her and now its a dry patch on my face depending on the day mood or idk…
Dehydrated bitches that dont take care of themselves my legs now look like a 70 yr old grandmaskin

2026-07-19 22:18:57 CEST

I think when ppl get energetically raped theres physical imprints of rapist that express themselves through the bodies victim.
Ie moles that suddenly appear.. my personal experience is most of the time its dry skin and old is ppl skin spots … its narrows it down.. alot of them are alcoholics.