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2026-07-16 23:53:29 UTC

Sadly gaslighter nr uncountable crossed my path the other day and now ai has this fuckboy attitude again in basic conversations…
He shits on every parade with his fkn arrogant brown nosing know it all must keep women small attitude.

2026-07-16 23:51:47 UTC

I am so sorry for you.
I know you want to believe what the waking experience tries to convince you off but shes not this person that was meant or allowed to experience this. Im sorry for whatever you convinced yourself but no she took it from me without consent…
This everything’s fair in .. is fkn bullshit its a war-tactic nothing to do with peace & the vibration of the heart frequency

2026-07-16 23:45:09 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/Da3Ep4_AjxE/?igsh=MXZyazVtODdxdnpiag==
This gives me the please let me out of this hell feeling…
Knowing that death isnt real is the most prison like hellish thought possible.
Maybe these quantum science ppl need to solve a new equation so that ppl actually get to die? Or is a new awareness level that the human must master to witness their own death in all timelines?

2026-07-16 05:20:22 UTC

Childcare abuser
Bomber jacket with dinosaur print.
Reminds me of the 90s .
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Looks like michael so i think its also the gay haters catholic ppl that believe all gay ppl are child molestors..
Its putting ppl into tie same category creating a pattern which has repeated.

2026-07-15 15:53:10 UTC

Ive been wondering if the categories of mental illness are actually drugs or mental experiences from the future where ppl get their kicks from i already mentioned a few years ago..
When i asked are they gonna be trippin on human conditions instead of chemical pills..

2026-07-15 15:50:07 UTC

I think the devil is the part of the brain that’s activated when ppl have autism..
The devil untangles.. bc he needs to keep the autistic child calm.
I think its what i said months ago reality is based on not disturbing autism.
If you look into the archetypes and myths im sure theres correlations there that explain it through ancient stories that would leas towards child abuse again.

2026-07-14 01:20:32 UTC

Thats why trusting women with a mother theresa complex is so dangerous bc they go to ppl that are already in terrible life situations and then putting themselves as their saviour and making them having to be thankful bc omg look how poor they were..
Yet the mother theresa complex ego thrives on being the top person…
Often repeated in oh i only have uglier heavier or less accomplished or less intelligent ppl around me so I am someone.

2026-07-14 01:16:45 UTC

Maybe i can explain the energetic bargaining..
Point A
Point B
A is somewhere B wants to be but A has stipulation/ constraints built from their own personal life experiences and also societal expectations that they submitted to.. A says if i have to let you into my word/ space and make room for you to experience something new you have to do or be xyz…. Otherwise I cant help bc I cant control a space where I dont know what its about.. and then I loose my place for being anyone bc thats the only role im allowed to be.
So only if you look like act like this take this from me take that from me but not the good stuff..
Person B maybe a heart wish would do anything bc they are being corrupted on the heart frequency level..
And all of a sudden person B arrives somewhere they dont even know if its really person B.
So even if one arrives at a space where ppl like that are allowed to stay or visit they will always have pre controlled path so that they don’t disturbe the self proclaimed king and queen .

2026-07-14 00:55:32 UTC

What they did to my brain was that somehow they found the spots where you’re insecure and all the work that I did for my mental health got reset to a teenage girls insecurities maybe even a toddlers need for validation from the parents if they did something right.
They got back into those areas with scream and dominace..
That part of the ear where the heart listens and just overscream & distorted all sounds anything natural was covered by hysterics and this forcefull person lies about who I am.
Idk why shes allowed to work with children.

2026-07-14 00:50:47 UTC

I had an oddly satisfying dream where I screamed at someone.
It was my bullying fat aunts face.
This time though I was able to stand my ground and even finished my sentence where I told that shes a stupid fkn hoe and to finally leave me alone.
Her energy is normally pretty overpowering this time it felt like she heard me.

2026-07-11 13:44:58 UTC

Her ugly face appeared today on a person that almost became a friend..
Sad that that ones also a bummer :/

2026-07-11 13:42:12 UTC

Look now i did the thing..
And now ppl can act as if the gofuckmepage from 2020 thought was from me. 🤣🤣
But at least ( and pls read the sarcasm) in this new life shes got a child.. 😂😂😂
Its probably from when she was as barely 20 when she still had her eating disorder. 🤮🤮🤮

2026-07-11 13:33:47 UTC

Hey all my followers on here.
I need a new phone & a bit of money if youve got more then enough then you’re welcome to help me out.

2026-07-11 13:29:10 UTC

I think in this instance you punished an innocent person bc you believed a person whos deceiving by her own nature.
I havent been able to find the part of myself again that was killed last year in july but it was one of the reasons why i move away..
The physical pain that my uterus ‘randomly ‘ went through .. I still her ugly face in my pictures that I took of myself last year.

2026-07-11 08:45:32 UTC

So it looks like ive been logged into my vpn by someone else specific countries i wouldn’t use by choice..
Your obsession with my belongings is crazy…
The jealous elster? Is that a J person?

2026-07-11 01:41:45 UTC

You know…
Heres 50 cents.. with a hole in it.
Do with it what you will.
It might buy you a song .
Ill take it tooooo a chocolate shop…
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I felt a bit better when I saw they have matcha strawberry hearts.
They have my dead grandfathers favourite candy oranges dipped in chocolate milk&dark.. i cant count how many ive eaten with him when i was a kid.
… yet it reinforced the ugly truth that she stole my life.. these stories would only get told if i were in love in an actual relationship..
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She properly is a rotten stinking corps i think her vagina only produces acid and puss. 🖕

2026-07-10 07:50:54 UTC

My ribs are healed up from this yrs ‘accident’ it was def an internal injury bc i still feel it sometimes.
But i can do handstands again.. so thats a start.

2026-06-04 05:02:51 UTC

I guess there wont be any revenge anymore with this..
I guess it for the greater good i still think the topic of self chosen dying should be legalised in more countries and accepted.

2026-06-04 05:00:19 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYnDxnviBWU/?img_index=3&igsh=MWxkZHJ1aHBoZzJhcA==
How amazing. Wishes do come true!!
That can totally be used in abusers so that they forget who their victims were maybe they’ll have more peace and freedom’on an energetic level afterwards.

2026-06-01 03:57:28 UTC

Maybe all of her uncles busses can drive into a fkn dumpsite of dünnschiss!!
Ihr seids doch zum kotzen !!!
Du kranke hure!!

2026-06-01 03:53:51 UTC

I got the wrong color meaning im supposedly a gemini again that is a fkn gnome..
My hatred towards this bitch is exponentially growing must be her sister or cousin..
Or her arrogant cancerian ex..

2026-06-01 03:40:05 UTC

It was made through the need of ‘ but its normal dont feel weird’
I think theres a total child trafficking ting/ abuser hising behind
‘Sharons’

2026-06-01 03:39:18 UTC

Lying.

2026-06-01 03:39:03 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/DZBRCQxDOXF/?igsh=MThtZTFlNzlmY3d6dQ==
This experience in life reaches back to saffiers still getting financially supported 50 yrs old by her parent who sexually abused her as a child.
Check it, im not laying just follow the strain.

2026-05-31 05:25:40 UTC

Im a bit sad about it bc of the color i wasn’t able to get the same one again.
A bittersweet feeling but am excited about what the new color brings.

2026-05-31 05:14:18 UTC

I have to agree it is the end of an era
Im laying my shoes to rest tomorrow..
Ive worn them since the 28th of jan 2025.
I think its valid to get a new pair since they’re falling apart.
3 dollars that served me well.

2026-05-29 07:29:12 UTC

I think there should be a spell where rapists fuck themselves themselves in the ass!

2026-05-27 14:52:30 UTC

🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

2026-05-27 14:48:45 UTC

I think its a sick spirit who rapes ppl that wanna die.

2026-05-27 14:38:23 UTC

I think the coolest optoon would be actually falling asleep..
In the self chosen dying world..
Having like a nice bath and a really comfy bed and then fall asleep and never having to wake up again.

2026-05-25 16:38:34 UTC

She found a way tomleave her trash at my door.. so that she never is the person that ppl think its an asshole..
Switched her out again..
I dont want to get raped bc of her anymore!

2026-05-23 05:15:48 UTC

Ive got no bruises around my ribs so i guess its all internal injuries..
I think the body would heal quicker if pl that are older and less mobile wouldn’t recognise their being comfortable positions as ppl that are injured and cant move but not by choice.
Expression of shakti. 🤷🏻‍♀️ imo

2026-05-23 03:53:20 UTC

Im sure thats taylor swifts networth now
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYpcGfxDOh3/?igsh=cnpkZ2t3cW9odzM4

2026-05-21 22:41:08 UTC

Don’t worry my distane for your bullshit wont become any less!!!

2026-05-20 14:56:10 UTC

At least now i know why i was soo sad yesterday!

2026-05-19 13:18:38 UTC

I think its a certain body rype rhat puts their weight on me when tjey feel comfortable with me..idk which archetype exactly..
It really doesn’t help with my ribs though..
its confines my breathing.
Are they supposed dead weight? 😅

2026-05-19 13:15:21 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYhVWSADAFD/?igsh=dGZicHc5ano3ZzIz
🤣🤣🤣
I dont know him but i won this one.

2026-05-19 12:07:04 UTC

Im still protecting you guys from the mean homophobius that are trying to make you feel small.
I try.

2026-05-19 06:29:19 UTC

Its terribly sad how limited you are in your understanding of humans just so that you stay loyal to lies that protect the person who ´plays’ your parent.
Please stop harassing me with your issues.
I still think alot of children need psycho therapist.

2026-05-19 06:25:24 UTC

I feel so sad for you!

2026-05-19 06:22:49 UTC

I think relationships get trickier with bisexual men..
From the experience that ive had in rhe last years theres sooo much more jealousy and backstabbing’s even before the dating even starts..

2026-05-19 00:56:33 UTC

I had the biggest fight in my sleep for someone cutting my hair too short!!
Or at all!!!!
It felt good though screaming at these ppl characters that have no business in my life anymore or ever!!

2026-05-18 13:40:47 UTC

Which planet is red????????
They’re all going home soon!!!

2026-05-18 13:04:51 UTC

I cant laugh that much yet bc of my ribs!!
But its that fkn stupid funny.

2026-05-17 04:52:37 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYawviAD1Gs/?img_index=1&igsh=eTd0Y3RwN2NvZXM5
As I said.. She should have just moved here and dated him.. i guess she needed to have the world revolve around her farts or something.
🥹

2026-05-16 13:17:10 UTC

Please stop telling me that you know how much this hurts!
Its soo insulting!!!
I dont have the words for it!!

2026-05-13 09:15:38 UTC

Awww and there comes the arrogant ‘ bless your heart’ tone.

2026-05-12 16:53:26 UTC

Wooowwww
The cheating is real!! Woahhh
🤣🤣🥹🥹
It really is the saddest story..
App shes monica.. lewinski
What else is new that shes a fkn whore. 🤣🤣
Her delusion reaches into my fkn childhood!!!! 🫣🫣🫣 how fkn sad maybe bc of her fkn got changed to dkn

2026-05-12 15:40:33 UTC

Its sooo terribly sad.
I cried today I think that was healthy.. by now im pretty much grossed out by every human..
Its such a boring game by now.. I think just existing without nothing that distracts ppl is pretty much a recipe for suicide..
If humans would understand their own motivations no child would want to grow up and follow what this nature wants..
If it were different my POV would have to be that every child gets born evil and a sinner..
Thats alllllooottt of child abuse!
Do you finally get it!

2026-05-12 15:33:31 UTC

Maybe the myth of vampires is the addiction of overpowering the enemy and the energetic rush of death & power.. some maybe fell in love with draining a persons energy.. i think its very basic in the way that im viewing it but it constantly comes back to the powerplay of taking life from someone else.. you can see it on their skin and also eyes..
Its so sad.

2026-05-12 15:12:40 UTC

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2026-05-12 15:09:58 UTC

If my nightly routine gets forced by the need of a person that i dislike bc i think hes dishubut his emotional imbalance needs the delusion of other caring about him.. that means if i already do things without the person being around means that my system feels threatened by the person .. bc otherwise i wouldn’t need to keep up perfectionism out of fear of punishment…
I think this world is not salvageable.. i didnt have these mechanisms in my system anymore i had already unlearned them.
I hope that you die! Hopefully a painful death!
You’re nothing but rape prep!

2026-05-12 08:06:54 UTC

I never judged outside appearances but you def turned into one of the ugliest bitches that ever existed to me.

2026-05-12 08:02:19 UTC

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYD2Wsjipjj/?igsh=MWIwYjhuenRwOHFqbA==
Users are buzzing?!
Mhmm

2026-05-12 07:55:15 UTC

Welches krüppel sie wäre???
Nicht einmal ein zellklumpen..
Nicht einmal ihre grindige salzstanglbutter.

2026-05-12 07:50:18 UTC

You cant be serious that you dont get that i hope she dies of aids without any medical help around… 🥹🥹🤣🤣🤡🤡🤡

2026-05-12 07:48:01 UTC

I guess he fell in love with my 60+ year old mother..
Its not an easy pill to swallow.
Having a great guy fall for the narcissistic shit of such an old cow thats my age isn’t something that makes me happy. I think that should go without saying.
Idk which lies he fell for. 🤷🏻‍♀️
But it definitely makes me want to kill myself.. no joke here. 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤮🤮🤮🤢🤢🤢

2026-05-12 06:06:30 UTC

Dont worry Ill be the best monater!
🤷🏻‍♀️
The more awareness I reach the more I understand what you did to my brain chemistry and its nothing else but rape..
Just like what is being done to women with contraception pills.

2026-05-11 14:42:32 UTC

By now you dont have to ask which number the house had that i grew up in.

2026-05-10 12:29:27 UTC

Or what age this consciousness is.

2026-05-10 12:28:50 UTC

Different topic..
The experience of this reality is..
If you dont like something or if you complain on any topic something essential for your survival gets taken away or something that has meaning to you gets destroyed… its been like this for 6 years now.
Idk who the dominant is.. i dont him/her/it.

2026-05-10 12:25:14 UTC

I guess i forgot what liquor can help with in healthy doses..
I truly think tequila has magic qualities.
Ive loved it since I was 15 it’s still delicious.

2026-05-10 04:11:35 UTC

Yeah another one of my absolute nightmares.
Aqua sun
Cap stellium
Moon in cancer. 🤮🤮🤮

2026-05-10 01:45:10 UTC

🤷🏻‍♀️
A person that gets taken for granted way too often.
Ooeyy gooeyy hearts.
Made from honey.

2026-05-10 01:33:02 UTC

OMGGGGGG!!
My spiritual sabbatical from 2014-2021 had me miss out on the best vegan on the planet in one of the coolest cities of the planet!!!!
Thats whyyyyyyyy red!!!

2026-05-09 13:27:52 UTC

I talked to the joker today not the song but the movie character.

2026-05-09 12:40:19 UTC

Dear sharon.. you’re not a karen.
My ribs are feeling better.. coughings ok now but sneezing still hurts.
Scooby I hope you like your snacks.

2026-05-09 11:27:36 UTC

The biggest coward is the one that doesn’t own his kills.

2026-05-09 01:34:04 UTC

Im still the comb.

2026-05-08 23:32:15 UTC

It was a unique piece only one , made with me in mind.
I think i would have given it to my child if i ever had one.
Not a fake adult child who wanted to be someone shes not.

2026-05-08 14:27:43 UTC

Wer bist du denn dass du mir mein leben so kaputt gemacht hast..
Wer glaubst du denn zu sein???!!!!!

2026-05-06 17:01:53 UTC

Is this delusional romantic guy done raping me now?!

2026-05-06 16:58:18 UTC

Every time when my brain starts to relax enough to process the trauma/abuse i went through..
Some gross dude seem to starts whacking off..
🤮🤮🤮

2026-05-06 16:40:02 UTC

Verstehst dus jetzt endlich?!?!???
Dann erzähle deine eigene Geschichte und nicht die von Menschen die du noch nie warst weil du so eine reiche verwöhnte schlampe bist!!!!
Der ring wird wahrscheinlich nach tittengrösse gemessen worden sein.

2026-05-06 16:34:11 UTC

Maybe shes also
Ine of those crazy bitches who thunk they need to be mothers to ppl that dont give a shit about them!

2026-05-06 05:49:18 UTC

Today I had to lie again in my sleep and talk go a person that i dont want to talk to .

2026-05-05 04:07:20 UTC

If being an her need of being an actress costs others their lives.. then she should be in intensive therapy!’

2026-05-05 04:04:33 UTC

I just saw that ive got injured qhere y only birthmark was..
Point one- omg how jealous can she get.
Point two- wtf that was my only bodymark i loved about my body
Point three- oh now im not able to be that easily identified as me when i die anymore.

2026-05-05 02:14:38 UTC

Assssssssooo wie neidisch die Daniela is und die Anita…
🤣
Seriously another reason to be unborn. Just to never have to be related to these people..

2026-05-05 02:08:00 UTC

There is no winning for the average human bc the brain / mind is enslaved and theres no real experience anymore everything is preprogrammed to ensure no anxiety for the creator of this reality.
Neurosis and phobias have won.
Its a control freaks dream and any person who dont want to experience a predesigned existence a nightmare.
It kills the spirit there is no reason for anymore souls to be born they will just be enslaved here.

2026-05-05 01:59:54 UTC

I guess she slept herself into all the roles.
Now shes also princess lea. 🤣
Its funny how some ppl are wired that when they experience someone elses opinion they reflect it back like oh no thats not me..
Healthy in alot of ways but very ignorant in other ways.
I guess both sides win.

2026-05-04 13:54:35 UTC

I met an entity of mine .
Or maybe i remet it when my heart stopped.. but the story / expectation of this entity and the role that i play for it.. is that i have to be this weird impressional version of myself from my teenage years where no personality or expression of who you are fits yet..
It constantly wants to force me into this role of being the girl that only likes things after the cool girls have it.. its expresses itself as a male energy that needs me to be less than his gfs.. it takes my expression and forces me out of it and tries to tell me that whatever im thinking up in regards to ideas in my life is just an echo of what his gfs are doing.. meaning he constantly has to be with the ‘it’ girl who is always younger and ‘hotter’ ‘richer’ and ‘smarter’
I think it has something to do with the venus connection in a synastry aspect..
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It must be such an old ghost from so long ago idk how he lost his way into my ‘now life’..

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